Just Another Thought

God doesn’t ask of me to do bad things he is asking me to help those in similar situation as me, the ones who have been abused, bullied, harassed for no apparent reason.

You see he must see so many hurting like me and he wouldn’t give me this to do if he didn’t think I could do it, but I am going to give it a shot, and yes it pulls me down (like I fall of my horse so to speak) a lot but as time goes by I get back up on my horse and keep plugging along.

I know in my heart I am a good person and so does god, it is the devil adding the bad thoughts into peoples heads to do his evil ways that hurt good people like me, I have already proven myself that I am a good person with a big heart to help those less fortunate than me, when I say that I don’t say it as in wealth or health etc, I like who I am, I am happy to be this good person I am, sometimes it’s a struggle but I eventually get there.

Misunderstanding of someone’s intentions, actions, words.
Listening to other people, and not communicating.

I am writing this page as this has just happened to me recently, when, I asume people listen to bad feeds and they asume the wrong thing of me, which in turn can cause problems for good people.

I write as it is my way of trying to explain myself to those who don’t know me or for those who do not give me the chance to explain what I meant in my own way.

Well most don’t know me so it doesn’t make any difference I guess.

I am writing this because I seem to be mis understood by what I do and say.

When I write it down, sometimes it also helps others to try and be more aware of others by what I have been through.

You never know, it may have happened to you or it may come up in your lifetime.

This is part of my real life experiences.
You will see what I am referring to as you read on.

I like straight answers and I don’t like people to pussy foot around or sugar coat the facts, that is just another form of telling lies.

Anyhow I sent an email to someone to ask them the following

hi ??????
Can you tell me if I should remove you from my email and Paltalk list?
Seems had blocked me on the site I sent you, go figure that out.

I don’t know if your being rude by not answering me but I would like to know so I don’t waste my time with nasty people anymore.

This was the reply I got back

hi hun what site is that your talking about awwwwww not being rude to you i dont no what your talking about its up to you if you want to take me off but i dont no what your talking about sorry and i am not nasty you do what you want to do call me nasty now i am mad.

I can only asume the person did not read my email properly and after they sent the reply email to me they removed me from there Paltalk list, go figure huh.

Well they took me off their Paltalk list so I left them an offline text message on a different program.

You see I had a feeling that my words were misunderstood and that my reply email maybe was ignored or I wasn’t on their email list, so I left an offline message

I said>>>did you get my reply email

I guess the fact that you took me off your list that is my answer

Funny how you didn’t get my pm and you didn’t get my email.

When I got the first reply I noticed that the person misunderstood me and didn’t read the text properly, however we are from different countries and our words and meanings don’t mean the same thing as I saw in the first and second reply.
well i dont think its funny

I think the person mis understood what I meant by the word >funny<

it looks like you are still on this one
i did get your email

I wasn’t sure if they got the last email I sent where I said I was sorry

was thinking about you and the songs you gave me

the one's you sing

hmmmmmmm

there good songs

song that some one would sing if they like some one

well this comment had blown me away

and I was so shocked but also realised a lot

well i better get off here hey you have a great time hugssssss any way i dont get on this program a lot dont no a lot about it later

This is my reply back to them

hi ???? thank you for replying back to me, when I asked you did you get my email I meant the 2nd one where I said I was sorry etc...Let me show you

Hello ??? You can get mad at me if you want however.....I had emailed you from my ?????? email addy and no reply I then pm you to ask you and again no reply that is why I thought you was being rude and nasty.

but if you really wasn’t being rude and nasty and IF you really didn’t see the email and pm then I am sorry...but I sent them to you and it was like you was reading what I asked you and you didn’t want nothing to do with me...all I was asking is if that was the case I would remove you from my list pretty simple request I thought and the site I was referring to is ????.com...i sent you an invite.

This profile is set to private Sorry, ??? has chosen to completely hide this profile for privacy reasons. Not a lot you can do on this page. :(

I also said

and it seems you have your blocks up, you see I was on the site the other day and I noticed who joined and I saw your name, I clicked on my friends profile and they all said I can send them a message except for you so I asumed you had me blocked, but its ok if that is how you want, it I don’t mind, its just another way of me doing some weeding. Anyways that is why i emailed you Take Care Heart Of Hush

???? all i was going to do was welcome you to the site and say hi..i am sorry if that is a wrong thing to do.

So you see how my words and other peoples words get mistaken so easy.

All I was going to do was welcome them to the site as has been done to me by many others in the past. I guess I was going to be polite and using my manners, not to mention my friendship.
However this persons comment on the songs I sent has I guess made me aware not to ever send songs to anyone ever again, whether it be male or female, it can be taken the wrong way with the wrong intentions.

I am truly sorry to everyone I sent my songs too, I never meant to send the songs for you or others to think bad of me or with wrong intentions.

I wont ever send songs again.

You know I could also think that of them too in the similar way with the songs they gave me but I didn’t and the fact I was supposedly the only person to be spoken to (whispered to ) by this person.

You see I just went on doing what I was doing and I was happy that this person communicated with me and not for any other reason but the fact we were talking and being friends so I thought, gee was I wrong.

Then I got to thinking about the comment I was so embarrassed and I felt I needed to explain some.
was thinking about you and the songs you gave me

the one's you sing

there good songs

song that some one would sing if they like some one

Well now I am thinking this person must have tickets on themselves

I don’t know if they will even know what that means but oh well

I said

wrong ????? they are songs I know

I had a fiancée on Paltalk and the songs mean a lot to me for my reasons and I don’t mean them for anyone else to get the idea I am keen on them

I can’t sing the songs like I use too

I am sorry you take my words wrong

I guess that is why you removed me from your pal list

If you had unblocked me in your emails I could explain to you but I guess you believe others

Your choice I guess

Take care

Now I want to say, Just for the record, I would never ever get involved in a relationship with anyone on any chat program ever again, actually ever again in this lifetime.

There not worth the hurt and pain I went through but not only that my heart is taken/closed off.
I choose to be friends only if you don’t like it well too bad.

So there you go just another day in my life of people not talking, not listening, misunderstanding my intentions or and my actions/my words.

I have learnt something from this experience though and I guess if they didn’t say this to me I would never have known not to ever send my songs again or any songs again.

So I thank them for making me aware of my mistakes in sending my songs or any songs to others.
I do hope they don’t go outside though as I think the tickets will fly off.

Anyways take care all.

Don't Close Your Blinds

The following text came from an email that was sent to me a long time ago, way back on Wednesday the 30th November 2005 by a friend that doesn’t even realise that some of the things he either has said to me or sent to me have really stuck with me.

This is just one of the many things he sent to me.
God does work in special ways and on many occasions through our friends and associates.

You just have to be aware and listening, oh and not to mention to be open to what you hear.

Well when I read this email, it really did stick hard with me and I too don’t close the blinds, I too take a stand for what is right, no matter how much it hurts me or makes me sick.

My past tells me that this is what I am like; I guess I could be from old school, but it’s all good.

I have been searching for this email ever since I got it, heavens I even asked the people I sent it too.

It has taken me this long to find it and there is a reason I have it now.

I am going to get it on the net as much as I can.

Please be open, please listen and be aware.

Happy Reading

Sent to me on Wednesday, November 30, 2005 3:22 AM

DON'T CLOSE YOUR BLINDS

This one really makes you stop and think -

(and I hope it ends up in those countries that think the War in Iraq is unjust ~ PapaVamp)

Letter to the Editor- Odessa American- Odessa, TX

The other day, my nine year old son wanted to know why we were at war...My husband looked at our son and then looked at me.

My husband and I were in the Army during the Gulf War and we would be honored to serve and defend our Country again today.

I knew that my husband would give him a good explanation.

My husband thought for a few minutes and then told my son to go stand in our front living room window.

He said "Son, stand there and tell me what you see?"

"I see trees and cars and our neighbor's houses." he replied.

"OK, now I want you to pretend that our house and our yard is the United

States of America and you are President Bush."

Our son giggled and said "OK."

"Now son, I want you to look out the window and pretend that every house and yard on this block is a different country" my husband said.

"OK Dad, I'm pretending."

"Now I want you to stand there and look out the window and pretend you see Saddam come out of his house with his wife, he has her by the hair and is hitting her.

You see her bleeding and crying. He hits her in the face, he throws her on the ground, then he starts to kick her to death.

Their children run out and are afraid to stop him, they are screaming and crying, they are watching this but do nothing because they are kids and they are afraid of their father.

You see all of this, son....what do you do?"

"Dad?"

"What do you do son?"

"I'd call the police, Dad."

"OK. Pretend that the police are the United Nations. They take your call.

They listen to what you know and saw but they refuse to help.

What do you do then son?"

"Dad.......... but the police are supposed to help!"

My son starts to whine.

"They don't want to son, because they say that it is not their place or your place to get involved and that you should stay out of it," my husband says.

"But Dad...he killed her!!" my son exclaims.

"I know he did...but the police tell you to stay out of it.

Now I want you to look out that window and pretend you see our neighbor who you're

pretending is Saddam turn around and do the same thing to his children."

"Daddy...he kills them?"

"Yes son, he does. What do you do?"

"Well, if the police don't want to help, I will go and ask my next door neighbor to help me stop him." our son says.

"Son, our next door neighbor sees what is happening and refuses to get involved as well. He refuses to open the door and help you stop him," my husband says.

"But Dad, I NEED help!!! I can't stop him by myself!!"

"WHAT DO YOU DO SON?" Our son starts to cry.

"OK, no one wants to help you, the man across the street saw you ask for help and saw that no one would help you stop him.

He stands taller and puffs out his chest. Guess what he does next son?"

"What Daddy?"

"He walks across the street to the old ladies house and breaks down her door and drags her out, steals all her stuff and sets her house on fire and then...he kills her. He turns around and sees you standing in the window and laughs at you. WHAT DO YOU DO?"

"Daddy..."

"WHAT DO YOU DO?" Our son is crying and he looks down and he whispers,

"I'd close the blinds, Daddy."

My husband looks at our son with tears in his eyes and asks him. "Why?"

"Because Daddy.....the police are supposed to help people who needs them...and they won't help.... You always say that neighbors are supposed to HELP neighbors, but they won't help either...they won't help me stop him...I'm afraid....I can't do it by myself Daddy.....I can't look out my window and just watch him do all these terrible things and...and.....do nothing...so....I'm just going to close the blinds.... so I can't see what he's doing........and I'm going to pretend that it is not happening."

I start to cry. My husband looks at our nine year old son standing in the window, looking pitiful and ashamed at his answers to my husband's questions and he says...

"Son"

"Yes, Daddy."

"Open the blinds because that man.... he's at your front door... "WHAT DO YOU DO?"

My son looks at his father, anger and defiance in his eyes.

He balls up his tiny fists and looks his father square in the eyes, without hesitation he says:

"I DEFEND MY FAMILY DAD!! I'M NOT GONNA LET HIM HURT MOMMY OR MY SISTER, DAD!!! I'M GONNA FIGHT HIM, DAD, I'M GONNA FIGHT HIM!!!!!"

I see a tear roll down my husband's cheek and he grabs our son to his chest and hugs him tight, and says... "It's too late to fight him, he's too strong and he's already at YOUR front door son.....you should have stopped him BEFORE he killed his wife, and his children and the old lady across the way.

You have to do what's right, even if you have to do it alone, before its too late." my husband whispers.

THAT scenario I just gave you is WHY we are at war with Iraq.

When good men stand by and let evil happen son, THAT is the greatest atrocities in the world won't affect him. "YOU MUST NEVER BE AFRAID TO DO WHAT IS RIGHT! EVEN IF YOU HAVE TO DO IT ALONE!" BE PROUD TO BE AN AMERICAN! BE PROUD OF OUR TROOPS!! SUPPORT THEM!!! SUPPORT AMERICA SO THAT IN THE FUTURE OUR CHILDREN WILL NEVER HAVE TO CLOSE THEIR BLINDS..."

This should be printed in every newspaper and posted in every school in America. Of course that won't happen so we'll use the internet. If your blinds are closed do nothing with this email. If they are open I do not need to tell you what to do.

GOD BLESS!!!!!!!!!!

Steven R Chandler, CMSgt

332 ELRS/Vehicle Management

Flight Balad Air Base, Iraq

So you see as a proud Australian, also a very proud person, I too will do what is right for me and many others that cross my paths.

Hence some of the reasons for my writings Good Feeds and BAD FEEDS.

Oh by the way the following text came from the same person, Papa Vamp

I have added some words that we know and or associate with in today’s society.

Maybe this will help others as it helps me in my every day life.

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.
He said, "My son, the battle is between 2 "wolves" inside us all.

One is Evil. BAD FEED
It is Anger, Envy, Jealousy, Sorrow, Regret, Greed<<, Arrogance, Self-Pity, Guilt, BRAG/BOAST, Resentment, Inferiority, Lies, Thieves, False Pride, Dishonorable<<,Disloyalty<<,Superiority, Addictions, Bullies, All Forms of Abuse and Ego.

The other is Good. GOOD FEED
It is Joy, Peace, Love, Hope, Serenity, Humility, Kindness, Benevolence, Empathy, Generosity, Truth, Loyalty ,Respect, Compassion, Acts Of Kindness, Pay It Forward, Good Deeds, Honorable and Faith."

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather:
"Which wolf wins?"

The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."

The thoughts you think and act on.