Heart Of Hush's Writings,Reflections,Observations & Real Life Experiences.

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2011-04-11T07:54:00.000+10:00

Google Images Has A Virus

Welcome To JS PC Repairs- Our Offer To You

2011-04-06T11:29:00.001+10:00

Welcome To JS PC Repairs- Our Offer To You

Welcome To JS PC Repairs-Contact Page

2011-04-06T11:29:00.000+10:00

Welcome To JS PC Repairs-Contact Page

Welcome To JS PC Repairs Website

2011-04-06T11:28:00.000+10:00

Welcome To JS PC Repairs Website

Facebook Bullying Facebook Sexual Harassment

2011-01-31T20:06:00.000+11:00

Facebook Bullying Facebook Sexual Harassment

Sexual Abuse, Oral Rape, Sexual Harrassment

2010-08-06T20:05:00.000+10:00

Sexual Abuse, Oral Rape, Sexual Harrassment

Lost Generation

2010-06-08T06:43:00.000+10:00

Native American Storyteller richheape.com - Tales of Wonder

2010-05-01T13:24:00.000+10:00

A New Mother's Day Song "In My Mother's Arms"

2010-05-01T12:29:00.000+10:00

Earth Cry

2010-05-01T12:16:00.000+10:00

Willow Tree Herb-Spirit Guides/Guardian Angels.

2009-11-20T22:50:00.003+11:00

Friday 20^th November 2009.

I am writing this page as it was such a wonderful feeling that I have helpers with me, even when I don’t expect them to help me at home.

My spirit guides, guardian angels were watching over me today, I even got the chills of confirmation and I thanked them so very much for helping me today.

You see, some weeks ago I bought some willow tree herbs and today I was looking for it as I forgot where I put them.

I searched in the places I thought I put them.

As I searched I was talking out aloud where is the willow

While I was looking for the herbs, things would move, when something moved I just instinctively looked in that direction, like a big bag of shredded paper would move so I went there to look but I couldn’t see the herbs.

Go figure the bag had moved into the direction of where I eventually found the herbs.

Then something fell down from the entertainment unit, which was near where I eventually found my herbs, so I went there to look at what fell down but I couldn’t even see what fell,

I said out aloud to myself I need glasses because I couldn’t see the herbs or even what had fallen.

I said if it was snake it would probably bite me.

Then lo and behold I almost stood on the darn herbs, would you believe it.

I just laughed so hard that I couldn’t even see the herbs, they were right beside me all the time but I thought they came in a post satchel like last time I ordered them but they didn’t, they came in a box this time around.

I laughed and giggled so much, I felt like kicking myself but after I stopped laughing I thank my wonderful spirit guides/guardian angels so very much for helping me see and find the herbs I was looking for.

They were obviously listening to me once again and helping me find the herbs.

I am so glad I have these wonderful messengers around me all the time.

This turned out to be such a wonderful day today, I achieved so much.

I appreciate them so very much.

All Sorts Of Sites

2009-11-04T19:19:00.004+11:00

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1. A copy of your existing company logo (if applicable). If you do not have a logo but would like one for your Company, we also design affordable quality logos.

2. A list of the page titles for your website.

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Are there any ongoing costs or fees?

No! That's the great thing about ASOS Web Design. There are absolutely no ongoing fees.

Once the site is complete and the amount is paid you don't need to pay anymore!
This does not include future updates which only happen if YOU want them to.

Thank you so very much for visiting this webpage.
I created this webpage in the hope to help Promote and Advertise my son's Web Design Site and Business.

Please visit the official website from the above links.
Thank you
Heart Of Hush aka Lu Peters
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Web Design

Good Feed-Bad Feed

2009-08-26T10:14:00.002+10:00

This was sent to me via email.

I would really like to share these words of wisdom with all of you.
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One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.
He said, "My son, the battle is between 2 "wolves" inside us all.

One is Evil. = BAD FEED = Bad Thoughts Of Others

It is anger, envy, jealousy,sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, Addictions, All Forms of Abuse and ego.

The other is Good. = GOOD FEED= Good Thoughts Of Others

It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, Loyalty ,Respect,Compassion,Honorable and faith."

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather:
"Which wolf wins?"

The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."

You see if you acuse someone using YOUR Bad Thoughts of others you are in fact a Bad Feed.

You people who acuse me of things using YOUR bad thoughts are in fact a Bad Feed.

Gee I guess I just taught you all on paltalk something to think about.

Learn from what god has given me to teach you.

Learn to talk to me and others but most of all LISTEN with your ears open.

If you care to read the original story of the above which is called The 2 woves story, please do.
Follow the link to read.

Native American Indian Legend-Two Wolves Cherokee

http://www.firstpeople.us/FP-Html-Legends/TwoWolves-Cherokee.html

Why did I make you a website?

2009-04-15T20:55:00.002+10:00

Why did I make you a website?

Well now the exact title. Label name I have no idea which as I now know I have many spirit guides. Old souls within me helping me and guiding me to do what is needed to be done.
So all I can say is this I feel god has given me the gift to be able to do this for all of you and he also asked me too, then there are the many others that help and guide me along the way like the universe, the American ancestors, guardian angels, the old souls, the spirit guides.

These are just words to me that come to mind to try and explain to you.

Now to the WHY
To show you friendship
To show you what love is
What kindness is
To show you how to believe in yourself
To show you faith
To show you courage and stamina and to help you have a go
Trust
Understanding
Patience and tolerance
To show you that there are good people in this world

To show you how to be proud
To show you honour and how and where loyalty is

To show you how honoured and proud I was of you, I did say was.

To show you that someone does care who you are
What you are
Where you came from
To show you respect
To know you as you as the real person you are
Your likes and dislikes
You’re favourite of everything

To help your friends get to know you better if not more
To help you meet new people from the answers you gave me from the interview
You have a lot in common with many people and your website showed others your
Interests’ hobbies and tidbits
Your website that I made for you showed the world
Your wishes hopes dreams wants and needs
Your website shows the person who you are
The website helped me get to know you better, like the ones who dislike LIARS
That showed me your character so I thought because many of you have turned out to be exactly what you dislike the most, go figure
I even spent many countless hours searching for the graphics as to me it had to be right for YOU.

The website I made for you to use has been and was a conversation piece for you and your friends and yes even strangers now come friends, sadly you didn’t see the good in it, like I did,
You all have turned your back on me and yet I do something good for you and none of you people can accept me for being me and who I am
Who and what I stand up for
You all are ashamed of the website that I made for you to use and ashamed of me
You all are embarrassed by this website and of me
You all have disrespected me and dishonoured me.

But you know what, just because you all have done that to ME, does not mean I will do this too you, I have a lot more pride and honour.
I achieved what the others have asked me to do and that was the goal and it’s done.

Did I forget to mention that I did all of your websites for FREE and from my heart and soul, I bet you didn’t tell your friends and associates that now did you.

I will finish editing the websites for the many visitors that you do get and will get in the future.

I AM AN OLD SOUL.

Read and learn exactly what an old soul is, you never know you may be one as well
http://searchwarp.com/swa74654.htm

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=old%20soul

Support Victims of Bullying, Harrassment and Abuse

2008-11-19T12:03:00.000+11:00

Support Victims of Bullying, Harrassment and Abuse

I am writing this today 13th November 2008, you see a few days ago I was told by someone that people or everyone is getting sick or tired of me mentioning of how someone did something wrong to me again.
And I partly agree because I am sick and tired of saying it, as well.

But you know something; I only started speaking out because I was told to.

Let me explain, you see when you are bullied, abused, you are told to tell someone and have support with someone standing beside you,
Yea right.
When you are subject to domestic violence, whether your being harassed, whatever word you choose to use, label, title it, you are asked or told to tell someone, and you know something I held it back from a lot of you for a long time, I mean years and why because all you people couldn’t be bothered and from the words used, its drama.

It is mentioned on police websites to speak up and don’t deal with this on your own, it is mentioned on bully websites, abuse websites and domestic violence websites, so I guess there all wrong huh.

I bet you all went running to the police or for help when something wrong was done by and to you where you live.
I bet you do it in the future if you have not done it in past.
Next time you need help, don’t go running to them, deal with it on your own and then let’s see how YOU deal and cope with it.

Well it seems we have the same rights online, and as I have said many times, I have the right to peace and harmony and to be left alone.
Well I have been told in a nice way I guess to stop telling people stuff, and you know, I very rarely told anyone anything about me; I would just deal with it on my own.

So I will go back to it, I will not be saying anything about me or my life to you if we ever talk.
So when you say how are you, I will say “ok” whether I am or I am not and that’s all your ever going to get from me.
Now of course you will tell me all about yourselves and I will sit there and listen to what you say, like I always do and like I always have done, but you know what, that is what friends do and that is what good people do.
I am feeling you people need to read what it is to be a good friend but I think it can also mean to be a good friend.

I will deal with these bullies and abuses alone from now on, I won’t be telling any of you anything about me or my life with the exception of, I will write it down so you can all read it, if YOU choose to. But that’s up to you and it is your choice.

Please I am asking you to be there for your friends, family when they are going through a hard time of Bullying, Abuse, and Harassment etc.

8-11-08 What Is A Real Friend Updated

2008-11-08T08:50:00.000+11:00

What is a REAL & TRUE, LOYAL, HONOURABLE Friend?

I am writing this to share with the world what I feel a REAL TRUE friend is.
If you’re wondering why, it is because I had been hurt by many more people just recently almost at the same time as each other. Go Figure.

But not only that, I had many people on my so called friends list and not one single person took the time or even bothered to ask me if I was ok.

Silly me thought I had friends.
Yea right not in this lifetime

I don't need friends like them, however this is what I truly believe friendship is, it is how I act and how I treat my real friends, fake ones, I now walk away.
Like papavamp told me a long time ago,
Say it once and walk away,

I will add my own personal explanation of why I wrote each line or sentence

I will be adding more text as it comes to mind.

This is for all the people who think they know me and they don’t.

A Real friend shows respect for their friend but also for others around them.
You see your actions is what people look for in a real friend, how you treat others, what you say and do to them.
That’s how people decide if they would like to be friends with that person.

A Real friend is honorable and loyal to their friend.
A real friend supports their friend at all times, even when they are right or wrong.
A Real friend notices that there is something not right with their friend and takes the time to talk to them.
Why, because they care.
A Real friend listens, and I mean REALLY LISTEN with your heart and have your ears open.
A Real Friend is kind, patient, & understanding.
A Real Friend will not sugar coat the facts, which means they won’t tell you lies or other people lies for you.

A Real Friend will tell me if I did something I need to be aware of, be cautious, be careful even if it hurts,

There is an old saying my mum use to say to me and that is,
you sometimes you have to be cruel to be kind.
A Real Friend backs you up, covers your back so to speak.
A Real Friend will sit and cry with you.
A Real Friend will do things for you without even asking.
A Real Friend will surprise you with something that means the world to you.
A Real Friend will try as best they can NOT to forget their friends’ birthday or to do something really special for them.
A Real Friend will show help, support and understanding of their friends’ illness.
A Real Friend will research the illness in the hope to understand it more, it shows that your friend wants to help you, stand beside you and that they really do care.

A Real Friend will be there even if you’re having a hard time in life.
A Real Friend will give you there honesty, there trust.
A Real Friend HAS THE GUTS AND THE COURAGE TO SAY "I AM SO SORRY"
>Can you see I emphasized that line.<

A Real Friend rings and or emails you to make sure your ok
A Real Friend will do anything they can, no matter what is put in their path to just know that you are safe and sound.
A Real Friend will do anything for you if they can
A Real Friend will find ways to make you smile, laugh, giggle.
A Real Friend will always be there through good and yes even bad times.
A Real Friend loves unconditionally
A Real Friend will not let others hurt them.
A Real Friend will stand up for their friend, even if it means loosing the friendship of another.
A Real Friend will not allow someone to abuse their friend.
A Real Friend will not let someone threaten them.
A Real Friend will not stand by and let someone bully their friend.
A Real Friend will not sit back and watch bad things happen to their friend; they will get in there right beside their friend and help their friend.
A Real Friend NEVER walks away when the tough gets going.
A Real Friend is compassionate and understanding.
A Real Friend does not YELL at you, just like that and especially in CAPS.
A Real Friend talks to you if you need to let off steam.
A Real Friend says Thank You for whatever the reason maybe.
A Real Friend speaks out when their friend is being hurt.
A Real Friend does NOT let their friend take the fall for something they did or for their lies and deceit.
A Real Friend does NOT cause their friend to have a nervous breakdown for lying to the innocent.
A Real Friend tells the truth at all times and above all at costs.
A Real Friend goes out of their way for a friend.
A Real Friend does NOT give up on their friends.
A Real Friend contacts the relevant authorities to help their friend if they think or feel they are in danger or being threatened or mistreated.

A Real Friend warns you of impending Danger or BAD FEEDS.
A Real Friend lets you know that another friend has been or is sick.
A Real Friend SOMETIMES HAS TO BE CRUEL TO BE KIND
A Real Friend will not let peer pressure get to them.

Remember I will keep adding to this long list of what I feel a Real True Friend is.
If I repeat myself oh well, It goes with the territory of having Mini Strokes, Breakdowns and Physical Body Shutdowns, But who cares anyway.

NO ONE DOES.

Oh and By The Way, There are worse off people than me, so think about them huh.

Would I do all the above, yes you bet your bottom dollar I would and do it now in my every day life as some of you readers now know.
I would and have done all the above for strangers, so this is who I am.

There are many times my words are taken wrong but that is because YOU people don’t or have not taken the time to ask me about it or why I said it.
All some people know how to do is trash me out and others alike all because you think your right.

Many times for me it has been from Americans because they don’t ask or they think they know what I mean when I type things.
These people just can’t be bothered to ask, they don’t care.
I have found very few who care.

Oh By the way, before you take my words wrong, I have many many wonderful American friends who I cherish with all my heart and soul and I would if I could do anything for them, but you know what,
THEY ARE MY REAL TRUE FRIENDS, AND I AM EVER SO PROUD AND HONOURED TO HAVE MET THEM ONLINE.

I have had many Americans attack me who are of bad feeds, there are others that come from Australia and UK.
I wish you people would learn to listen and ask.
Didn’t your parents or your teachers, teach you anything as you were growing up.
I guess not.
I was taught if I don’t know, to ask, because if I don’t ask, I won’t learn or understand.

Maybe you can learn from me, oh no we cant have that now can we..lol
But I guess its ok for me to learn from you
Hmmm what’s wrong with that thought?
If you don’t want friends, don’t give out your email, that’s pretty simple I think,
Yea I forgot TIMBO, I have a simple mind, now don’t I.

OH and again by the way
This writing has come from my brain and this is my intellectual property and it is copywritten.
SO DO NOT STEAL WHAT DOES NOT BELONG TO YOU
This was update on Saturday 8th November 2008 @ 8.48am
Saved and copied on my pc and disks
©Heart Of Hush8th November2008®
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Updated What Is A REAL TRUE Friend

2008-10-05T15:39:00.000+11:00

Updated What is a REAL & TRUE, LOYAL, HONOURABLE Friend?

I Have Rights

2008-09-16T08:49:00.000+10:00

I Have Rights
I have the right to tell you how I feel
I have the right to tell you and others why I feel like I do
I have the right to tell you where I hurt physically and the affects it has on me.

I have the right to make you aware of my feelings
I have the right to tell you what you did to me.
I have the right to tell you who have hurt me
I have the right to say where it happened
I have the right to stand up for myself in any way shape or form within the legal system and if it means I am to help another, then so be it.

I have the right to tell you just how much I hurt, whether it is physical or emotional from YOUR actions towards me and maybe others you have chosen to hurt.

I have the right to tell you why I hurt.

I have the right to prove my innocence by showing/displaying my proof to who ever chooses to read this, that I am speaking the truth of what I have said or done.
I have the right to the benefit of the doubt.
I have the right to help others by making them aware or to be careful.
I have the right to release my feelings
I have the right to speak the truth
I have the right to NOT suppress anymore.

I have the right to respect, truth, kindness, loyalty,

I will add more to this soon.

Speaking To God

2008-09-16T08:41:00.000+10:00

Speaking To God
Speaking to the angels
Speaking to the higher being
Speaking to the universe
Speaking to the ancestors
Speaking to everyone world wide

You already know all of this because you feel it and see it everyday.

I wish people could see and feel the hurt they cause others.
I hope they stop hurting them.
I wish and hope people can learn patience and tolerance, to accept people for good and not bad, just as you have taught and given me.
I wish and hope people would respect themselves.
I wish and hope people would stop telling awful lies and being deceitful.
I am thankful for the lessons you have taught me, even if they are bad feeds.
I would never really understand them, if I did not go through these life lessons unless I personally experienced it for myself.
But oh what lessons to learn.

I have learnt of the good in some people, only very few though and that is sad.
Thank you for giving me the good friends that I have.

You have given me many gifts to use to do what YOU have asked of me, I never really understood it until some of my close friends would say to me, that god gave me these gifts and I should use them to help others.
They are right, but you already knew that.

I truly believe that, but you know something, it gets tired and hurtful a lot of the time, it makes me sick and ill from their actions, now I know what and how you feel when others hurt you, but I also know of the joy and happiness when good is within us.

You gave me the vision and inspiration to give the singers that performed in concert with me and many others in the room that was created for them, of what I have labeled with the help of Crazyfeet40 helping me to name them, as “Memory Keepsake Frames’ and the nasties like grannylin tells me that I am buying peoples friendship by doing what YOU asked of me to do.
It is sad that people can not believe or understand the gift of giving, from the love, kindness within a person.
Many people ran or back away from me when I reached out to give them something, they couldn’t believe that there are people in this life time who can give with love.

It is sad though as I have had people give me gifts but no one, not one single person will say to them people they are buying MY friendship, I wonder why that it so.
I guess the Devil/Satan/Bad Feed is at it again.

Maybe you can help people for me, by letting them know that a gift from god is not buying someone’s friendship.
However thank you for asking me to do this for these people, they say they appreciated it and loved it but I don’t really know and I will never know.
I just hope that I did touch someone’s heart and soul. If I did that then I achieved what you asked of me.
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As you can see, I don’t give labels, but because there is so many, I have written the ones I know and feel who is helping me in my every day life.
I don’t really like to label anything because I really do not know for a positive fact where my visions, inspirations, my warnings, my gut instinct, my premonitions come from. It Just happens.

However I do feel all the above is who gives me the gifts I need for my every day life.

I will be adding to this from time to time.

What Is A REAL TRUE Friend

2008-09-04T12:31:00.013+10:00

What is a REAL & TRUE, LOYAL, HONOURABLE Friend?

I am writing this to share with the world what I feel a REAL TRUE friend is.
If you’re wondering why, it is because I had been hurt by another 4 people just recently almost at the same time as each other. Go Figure.
But not only that, I had many people on my so called friends list and not one single person took the time or even bothered to ask me if I was ok.
Silly me thought I had friends.
Yea right not in this lifetime

I don't need friends like them, however this is what I truly believe friendship is, it is how I act and how I treat my real friends, fake ones, I now walk away.
Like papavamp told me a long time ago,
Say it once and walk away,

I will add my own personal explanation of why I wrote each line or sentence

I will be adding more text as it comes to mind.

This is for all the people who think they know me and they don’t.

A Real friend shows respect for their friend but also others.
You see your actions is what people look for in a real friend, how you treat others.

A Real friend is honorable and loyal to their friend.
A real friend supports their friend at all times, even when they are right or wrong.
A Real friend notices that there is something not right with their friend and takes the time to talk to them.
Why, because they care.
A Real friend listens, and I mean REALLY LISTEN with your heart and have your ears open.
A Real Friend is kind, patient, & understanding
A Real Friend will not sugar coat the facts, which means they wont tell you lies

A Real Friend will tell me if I did something I need to be aware of, even if it hurts,
There is an old saying my mum use to say to me and that is you sometimes you have to be cruel to be kind.
A Real Friend backs you up, covers your back so to speak.
A Real Friend will sit and cry with you.
A Real Friend will do things for you without even asking.
A Real Friend will surprise you with something that means the world to you.
A Real Friend will try as best they can NOT to forget their friends’ birthday or to do something really special for them.
A Real Friend will show help, support and understanding of their friends’ illness.
A Real Friend will research the illness in the hope to understand it more.
A Real Friend will be there even if you’re having a hard time in life.
A Real Friend will give you there honesty, there trust.
A Real Friend HAS THE GUTS AND THE COURAGE TO SAY "I AM SO SORRY"
>Can you see i emphasized that line.<
A Real Friend rings and or emails you to make sure your ok
A Real Friend will do anything for you if they can
A Real Friend will find ways to make you smile, laugh,giggle.
A Real Friend will always be there through good and yes even bad times.
A Real Friend loves unconditionally
A Real Friend will not let others hurt them.
A Real Friend will stand up for their friend, even if it means loosing the friendship of another.
A Real Friend will not allow someone to abuse their friend.
A Real Friend will not let someone threaten them.
A Real Friend will not stand by and let someone bully their friend.
A Real Friend will not sit back and watch bad things happen to their friend; they will get in there right beside their friend and help the friend.
A Real Friend does NEVER walk away when the tough gets going.
A Real Friend is compassionate.
A Real Friend does not YELL at you, just like that.
A Real Friend talks to you if you need to let off steam.
A Real Friend says Thank You for whatever the reason maybe.
A Real Friend speaks out when their friend is being hurt.
A Real Friend does NOT let their friend take the fall for something they did or for their lies and deceit.
A Real Friend does NOT cause their friend to have a nervous breakdown for lying to the innocent.
A Real Friend tells the truth at all times and above all at costs.
A Real Friend goes out of their way for a friend.
A Real Friend does NOT give up on their friends.
A Real Friend contacts the relevant authorities to help their friend if they think or feel they are in danger or being threatened.
A Real Friend warns you of impending Danger or BAD FEEDS.
A Real Friend lets you know that another friend has been or is sick.
A Real Friend SOMETIMES HAS TO BE CRUEL TO BE KIND
A Real Friend will not let peer pressure get to them.

Remember I will keep adding to this long list of what I feel a Real True Friend is.
If I repeat myself oh well, It goes with the territory of having Mini Strokes, Breakdowns and Physical Body Shutdowns, But who cares anyway.

NO ONE DOES.

Oh and By The Way, There are worse off people than me, so think about them huh.

Would I do all the above, yes you bet your bottom dollar I would and do it now in my every day life as some of you readers now know.
I would and have done all the above for strangers, so this is who I am.

There are many times my words are taken wrong but that is because YOU people don’t or have not taken the time to ask me about it or why I said it.
All you know how to do is trash me out all because you think your right.

Many times it is from Americans because they don’t ask or they think they know what I mean when I type things.
They just can’t be bothered to ask, they don’t care.
I have found very few who care

I have had 96% of Americans attack me who are of bad feeds, the other 4% come from Australia and UK.
I wish you people would learn to listen and ask.
Didn’t your parents or your teachers, teach you anything as you were growing up.
I guess not.
I was taught if I don’t know, to ask, because if I don’t ask, I won’t learn or understand.
Maybe you can learn from me, oh no we cant have that now can we..lol
But I guess its ok for me to learn from you
Hmmm what’s wrong with that thought?
If you don’t want friends, don’t give out your email, that’s pretty simple I think,
Yea I forgot TIMBO, I have a simple mind, now don’t I.
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List Of Things I Want To Do Before I Die

2008-08-31T11:07:00.013+10:00

List Of Things I Want To Do Before I Die

This idea came from watching the following video clip on youtube last night.

I sat and cried again as i watched and listened to this video clip but many of them.
It saddens me that this world we now live in just so cruel and nasty.
The reason i wish i wasn't here, i feel like i am an old soul and this soul is just not coping with the evil works,bad feeds.
But god has other plans for me right now, so i guess i am stuck here.

The devil,Satan,evil is having a ball at the expense of the human race of good people, if only they (people of today's society) realised they are doing his evil bidding for him, his dirty work by their bad thoughts/bad feeds.

This is what I mean by Good Feeds/Bad Feeds

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.
He said, "My son, the battle is between 2 "wolves" inside us all.

One is Evil. BAD FEED
It is Anger, Envy, Jealousy, Sorrow, Regret, Greed<<, Arrogance, Self-Pity, Guilt, BRAG/BOAST, Resentment, Inferiority, Lies, Thieves, False Pride, Dishonorable<<,Disloyalty<<,Superiority, Addictions, Bullies, All Forms of Abuse and Ego.

The other is Good. GOOD FEED
It is Joy, Peace, Love, Hope, Serenity, Humility, Kindness, Benevolence, Empathy, Generosity, Truth, Loyalty ,Respect, Compassion, Acts Of Kindness, Pay It Forward, Good Deeds, Honorable and Faith."

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather:
"Which wolf wins?"

The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."

The thoughts you think and act on.
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Take a look at this video if you want to, that is.

I will keep adding to this list until it is done.

The things I want to do before I die.

I want to fix all the websites up that i made for people from around the world, yes even the bad feeds who caused me so much grief,hurt,pain and illness.

And yes I know they don't care or can even be bothered to have the website I made for them in all, or any of their profiles, however it just proves to me they used me like i was told and they are not really nice people in the long run.
I guess they didnt appreciate the time and patience it takes to do what i did.
However I am not like them, i made all the websites with love from my heart and soul.
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God gave me 7 kittens and there must be a reason for that, I want to have built the cat enclosure from my designs.
I want to have built the cat window cages for them to sit on the outside window sill to enjoy the sun and watch the birds and bees, the flowers and the trees,hey thats a song lol.

Song Code form MyspaceHun

Dean Martin Lyrics
The Birds and the Bees Lyrics

I also want to achieve to have them all microchipped,vaccinated and desexed so i don't end up with more kittens that i can't give up.
I guess there is a reason for 7 kittens, maybe i have 7 lessons to learn or i have 7 things to do for god,only he knows this because he gave me the kittens.

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God has asked me to make the website known as
Open Your Heart and Donate Your Talent for Charity World Wide.

He also wants me to try and encourage people to do as the name sake says, so i have to notify all the charities world wide and hopefully people will participate with their chosen talent.
Its kinda of like if "I make it they will come", yea i know the words are from a movie, but i don't know how else to explain it.

So I have come to realise that all i need to do is make it,
Invite all the charities and the talent to participate with this site,
if any of them choose NOT to join, that's their choice,but at least I will have done what god has asked of me.

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I have been doing a lot of writing, I am going to make 5,maybe 6 folders, The folders are for my step sister Pat, My step brother Ken, My other half brother Ray, My sister Inlaw of Ray, Michelle, My son Bradley and lastly My son Mitchell.

They are to go to my family who has nothing to do with me, they choose not to associate with me because I am different, and because i don't do as they TELL me to do,that's their choice and as I had been told it is their loss.

My writings will show them just who i am, and what they missed out, too late though because when they get the folders, i will be dead and buried.
I guess in a way I am writing my journal of my life experiences.
Gee they may get to know me if they read it, if I have the courage I may record it so they can hear me.
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I want to write all the things that I feel that makes A Real TRUE Friend.
I want to write about everyone who i have crossed paths with.
Right now my only REAL TRUE friend is GOD.
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God has given me many many gifts to use to do as he has requested of me.
One of those gifts is to help artists to get some exposure, but most importantly to give them the feel of what it could be like as a famous singer, all the lights and glitter that goes with it.
That is why the websites were being made as well.
It is also why god gave a special lady named Crazyfeet40 the inspiration the words to share with me which became my slogan or logo.
Heart Of Hush Reaches Out To The WHOLE World.

That is exactly what I have been doing and I only completely realised this when i made the website known as
"Open Your Heart and Donate Your Talent for Charity World Wide".
That is when i truly understood the meaning of it all, because i was actually doing as the vision was told.

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I want to find something else that i can be of benefit to this life I live,until god decides i have to go.
Paltalk users are cruel,vicious liars and deceitful,I was once told by grannlin who is a person who use to be on the program that approx 99% of people are fakes,live double and triple lives, there wanna be's and wont achieve anything, i was also told by another who is not on paltalk anymore that when your on the program that you have to be ready to be on there as if your living in the streets, like you need to be street wise and i am now just starting to understand what they mean now.

The people on there just dont really care, i am starting to think there not people,because good real people care, thats what i was told recently, people who treat me like they have, there not people, real good people actually care.

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I am hoping this tumor that was caused by the bad feeds/people, in my life will go away before i die, i want to be able to live some form of lifeefi

Bullying

2008-08-22T21:12:00.000+10:00

Another video on Bullying

Bullied to death: They committed suicide because of bullying

2008-08-22T21:01:00.000+10:00

I found something for people to think about.
Please listen to this

PSYCHOFRAUD: PSYCHOFRAUDS MISUSE POWER TO EXPLOIT THE INNOCENT

2008-08-13T00:57:00.000+10:00

PSYCHOFRAUD: PSYCHOFRAUDS MISUSE POWER TO EXPLOIT THE INNOCENT

I Love the way you LOVED me

2008-03-22T18:27:00.000+11:00

Shine

2008-03-05T21:59:00.000+11:00

Don't Give Up On Me

2008-03-05T21:58:00.000+11:00

The Meanings Behind My Name

2008-03-04T23:01:00.000+11:00

Discover the hidden meaning in my name, i have used many combinations
which shows you my life path
from my birth right name to my maiden name then to my married name
Here i have also used my paltalk nic
My first name aka christian name
I don't have a middle name
My last name aka surname
also my birth right full christian and surname

I have enclosed my birth month meaning and of course my star sign

When you read the following,
the text tells you a lot about me and who i am
why i do the things i do, what i am.
Please take the time to read this text to learn more about me
it surprised me when i found the following text
as this text speaks of my whole life to now

Lu
Famous warrior maid....

You are honest and fair-minded with a perceptive analytical mind and a keen sense of justice.
A lover of art, music and beauty you have refined taste.
Although you are prepared to fight for your beliefs you are a peacemaker, hating discord of any kind.
You are home and family oriented and when entertaining are a charming and gracious host.
With your warm and generous nature you attract many friends bringing joy into their lives.
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Then i typed my full 1st and last name
also my full 1st name and maiden name

Idealistic, sensitive and emotional you appreciate beauty and need to have a harmonious environment.
You are a dependable and conscientious worker and attract material rewards without too much effort.
However your altruistic nature is one of giving and service to others with a desire to make the world a better place and you work towards this end.
Your affectionate, sincere and understanding manner means that you are much loved.
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Now this is my first birthright name only which means
Light, born at daybreak : Latin
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Then i typed just my full name

You have leadership ability and with your power of expression can be an influential speaker.
Organisation or management would suit you. Your energy, intellect and creativity overcome any challenging situations and assure your future success.
Certainly with your emotions under control there is nothing which you cannot achieve.
Your faith and vitality means that love and prosperity are naturally attracted to you.

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Then i typed my birth right name

and Heart Of Hush.....look what i got

Emotional and artistic you have enormous energy and creativity although a rather serious approach to life .
Through your own experiences you have learned to be understanding and compassionate towards others and always willing to help out.
You are courageous, independent and strong willed with a desire to use your talents in progressive projects which will benefit mankind.

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Then i typed just my last birth right name

You are highly perceptive and intuitive with a wonderful imagination and the ability to manifest your dreams in reality.
You are able to create joy, security and harmony for yourself and in the lives of others by the support and dedication which you give.
Often the centre of influence people admire your fine qualities and follow your example.
Much happiness is gained through your willingness to serve good causes.

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My 1st name and last name/also my maiden name used here
Discover the hidden meaning in your name

You have enormous vitality and originality making you a dynamic individual with great charm and sex appeal. You believe in putting one hundred per cent into all your activities of which there are many. You have potential to achieve great success in business or public affairs where your friendship and consideration of others wins you many allies. Your innate strength and determined effort is able to overcome any obstacles. Freedom is important to you.
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Discover the hidden meaning in your name
Used my last name and my last maiden name here
Very much the individual you have enormous energy and vision and must find a suitable use for your talents. You have great potential for success in business if you can guard against indecision and worry. Your generous nature means that you are never short of friends and with cooperation your relationships can be very rewarding. Perseverance and firm decision making will ensure you achieve your objectives.

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JANUARY

Stubborn. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught.
Never looks at people's flaws or weaknesses. Hardworking and productive
Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to
make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tense. Rather reserved. Highly attentive.
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Loving and loyal. Loves children. Has
great social abilities. Money cautious, can budget successfully.

My star Sign Aquarius
http://www.geocities.com/Athens/Ithaca/3007/starsigns/starsigns.html

Short Summary
They are original, inventive and very smart. The telephone is their lifeline so they would rather ring their next-door neighbour than fraternise over the fence. They are so friendly even the dog down the street will find its way to the Aquarian house...and stay.

Long Summary
Clever, friendly, kind and humane, Aquarians are the easiest people to make friends with but probably the hardest to really know. They are often more comfortable with acquaintances than with those who are close to them. Being dutiful, they would never let a member of their family go without their basic requirements, but they can be strangely, even deliberately, blind to their underlying needs and real feelings. They are more comfortable with causes and their idealistic ideas than with the day-to-day routine of family life. Their homes mat reflect this lack of interest by being rather messy, although there are other Aquarians who are formed early in life and are firmly fixed.Being patient with people, make them good teachers, and are always willing to learn something new. But are they willing to go out and earn a living? Some are, many are not. These people can be extremely eccentric in the way they dress or the way they live. They make a point of being 'different' and they can usually feel very unsettled and uneasy if made to conform, even outwardly. Their restless, skeptical minds mean that they need an alternate kind of lifestyle which stretches them mentally.

In relationships, they are surprisingly constant and faithful and they only stray when they know in their hearts that there is no longer anything to be gained from staying put. Aquarians are often very attached to the first real commitment in their lives and they can even re-marry a previously divorced partner. Their sexuality fluctuates, perhaps peaking for some years then pushed aside while something else occupies their energies, then high again. Many Aquarians are extremely highly sexed and very clever and active in bed.

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Then i was researching for a friend on animal totems and i came across this section of pages to learn just a little more about myself,this is what the results came too.

~Life Paths~
Animal Totems & Earth Medicine

Roles of the Animal Totems

Explanation of the Animal Totems and their Roles
along the Sacred Hoop of Life

http://wolfs_moon.tripod.com/totemroles.html

First i had to select when my birthday was

Birth Date: January 20 - February 18

My Birth Totem is Otter

Clan of: Butterfly (Air Chief)

Wind is: North

Directional Totem is: Buffalo

Conscious intent is: Swim in the Fountain of Knowledge

Motive of Higher Self is: Wisdom through understanding

Plant/Flower: Fern

Mineral: Turquoise

Keywords *Inventive ...*Friendly ...*Curious ...*Independent ...*Tactless

Birth Totem Otter is an individual who has incarnated into this particular lifetime to immerse him/herself in the Fountain of Knowledge.

As such, these souls will be in continual search of information, ideas and concepts that will provide a refreshing fountain from whence he/she will thirstily drink. However, as the fountain of knowledge is an eternal and never ending Source, in their enthusiasm to glean as much knowledge as quickly as possible, there may exist a tendency within these individuals to skim the surface, rather than explore the deeper waters that would result in truer Understanding.

By looking at the general inquisitiveness of the playful Sea Otter, we witness a creature that is capable of delving deep into the ocean`s waters to retrieve oysters encapsulated in shells. The Otter will then rise to the surface of the water, float on his/her back and crack open the shell to retrieve the tasty morsel that awaits inside.

Much like their Birth Totem, Otter individuals have a deep-seated curiosity that leaves them hungry for all of the "oysters" of information that exist in a Universal Sea of knowledge. Yet the challenge for them is to not become so weighted down by the variety that is available to them that they are constantly picking up, then dropping each idea in favor for a new and more tantalizing one.

Once Birth Totem Otter individual can learn that true Knowledge comes from applying experience to ideas, then he/she will then crack the shell of understanding to delight in the Wisdom found within, thus fulfilling the Soul`s Higher Purpose.

Next there is
Clan Totem of: Butterfly (Air Chief)

As with traditional exoteric astrology, where each of the twelve zodiac signs fall within a key element, each of the Birth Totems also belong to an Elemental Clan, as governed by one of the four Elemental Chiefs of Fire (Hawk), Earth (Turtle), Air (Butterfly) and Water (Frog).

Air:
Earth Medicine teaches us that the Air Chief is the Force that brings to Humanity new ideas. He is the Power behind innovations and inventions and is the Source of intellectual stimulation and conveyance. He is the jovial breeze that elicits laughter, thoughts and communication, yet he is also the element that loves to argue for arguments sake and can be restless and detached.
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~Lesson Totem~

~Messenger Totem~

~Mission Totem~

~Theme Totem~

~Shadow Totem~

Just Another Thought

2007-12-09T16:16:00.000+11:00

God doesn’t ask of me to do bad things he is asking me to help those in similar situation as me, the ones who have been abused, bullied, harassed for no apparent reason.

You see he must see so many hurting like me and he wouldn’t give me this to do if he didn’t think I could do it, but I am going to give it a shot, and yes it pulls me down (like I fall of my horse so to speak) a lot but as time goes by I get back up on my horse and keep plugging along.

I know in my heart I am a good person and so does god, it is the devil adding the bad thoughts into peoples heads to do his evil ways that hurt good people like me, I have already proven myself that I am a good person with a big heart to help those less fortunate than me, when I say that I don’t say it as in wealth or health etc, I like who I am, I am happy to be this good person I am, sometimes it’s a struggle but I eventually get there.

2007-12-02T19:44:00.000+11:00

Misunderstanding of someone’s intentions, actions, words.
Listening to other people, and not communicating.

I am writing this page as this has just happened to me recently, when, I asume people listen to bad feeds and they asume the wrong thing of me, which in turn can cause problems for good people.

I write as it is my way of trying to explain myself to those who don’t know me or for those who do not give me the chance to explain what I meant in my own way.

Well most don’t know me so it doesn’t make any difference I guess.

I am writing this because I seem to be mis understood by what I do and say.

When I write it down, sometimes it also helps others to try and be more aware of others by what I have been through.

You never know, it may have happened to you or it may come up in your lifetime.

This is part of my real life experiences.
You will see what I am referring to as you read on.

I like straight answers and I don’t like people to pussy foot around or sugar coat the facts, that is just another form of telling lies.

Anyhow I sent an email to someone to ask them the following

hi ??????
Can you tell me if I should remove you from my email and Paltalk list?
Seems had blocked me on the site I sent you, go figure that out.

I don’t know if your being rude by not answering me but I would like to know so I don’t waste my time with nasty people anymore.

This was the reply I got back

hi hun what site is that your talking about awwwwww not being rude to you i dont no what your talking about its up to you if you want to take me off but i dont no what your talking about sorry and i am not nasty you do what you want to do call me nasty now i am mad.

I can only asume the person did not read my email properly and after they sent the reply email to me they removed me from there Paltalk list, go figure huh.

Well they took me off their Paltalk list so I left them an offline text message on a different program.

You see I had a feeling that my words were misunderstood and that my reply email maybe was ignored or I wasn’t on their email list, so I left an offline message

I said>>>did you get my reply email

I guess the fact that you took me off your list that is my answer

Funny how you didn’t get my pm and you didn’t get my email.

When I got the first reply I noticed that the person misunderstood me and didn’t read the text properly, however we are from different countries and our words and meanings don’t mean the same thing as I saw in the first and second reply.
well i dont think its funny

I think the person mis understood what I meant by the word >funny<

it looks like you are still on this one
i did get your email

I wasn’t sure if they got the last email I sent where I said I was sorry

was thinking about you and the songs you gave me

the one's you sing

hmmmmmmm

there good songs

song that some one would sing if they like some one

well this comment had blown me away

and I was so shocked but also realised a lot

well i better get off here hey you have a great time hugssssss any way i dont get on this program a lot dont no a lot about it later

This is my reply back to them

hi ???? thank you for replying back to me, when I asked you did you get my email I meant the 2nd one where I said I was sorry etc...Let me show you

Hello ??? You can get mad at me if you want however.....I had emailed you from my ?????? email addy and no reply I then pm you to ask you and again no reply that is why I thought you was being rude and nasty.

but if you really wasn’t being rude and nasty and IF you really didn’t see the email and pm then I am sorry...but I sent them to you and it was like you was reading what I asked you and you didn’t want nothing to do with me...all I was asking is if that was the case I would remove you from my list pretty simple request I thought and the site I was referring to is ????.com...i sent you an invite.

This profile is set to private Sorry, ??? has chosen to completely hide this profile for privacy reasons. Not a lot you can do on this page. :(

I also said

and it seems you have your blocks up, you see I was on the site the other day and I noticed who joined and I saw your name, I clicked on my friends profile and they all said I can send them a message except for you so I asumed you had me blocked, but its ok if that is how you want, it I don’t mind, its just another way of me doing some weeding. Anyways that is why i emailed you Take Care Heart Of Hush

???? all i was going to do was welcome you to the site and say hi..i am sorry if that is a wrong thing to do.

So you see how my words and other peoples words get mistaken so easy.

All I was going to do was welcome them to the site as has been done to me by many others in the past. I guess I was going to be polite and using my manners, not to mention my friendship.
However this persons comment on the songs I sent has I guess made me aware not to ever send songs to anyone ever again, whether it be male or female, it can be taken the wrong way with the wrong intentions.

I am truly sorry to everyone I sent my songs too, I never meant to send the songs for you or others to think bad of me or with wrong intentions.

I wont ever send songs again.

You know I could also think that of them too in the similar way with the songs they gave me but I didn’t and the fact I was supposedly the only person to be spoken to (whispered to ) by this person.

You see I just went on doing what I was doing and I was happy that this person communicated with me and not for any other reason but the fact we were talking and being friends so I thought, gee was I wrong.

Then I got to thinking about the comment I was so embarrassed and I felt I needed to explain some.
was thinking about you and the songs you gave me

the one's you sing

there good songs

song that some one would sing if they like some one

Well now I am thinking this person must have tickets on themselves

I don’t know if they will even know what that means but oh well

I said

wrong ????? they are songs I know

I had a fiancée on Paltalk and the songs mean a lot to me for my reasons and I don’t mean them for anyone else to get the idea I am keen on them

I can’t sing the songs like I use too

I am sorry you take my words wrong

I guess that is why you removed me from your pal list

If you had unblocked me in your emails I could explain to you but I guess you believe others

Your choice I guess

Take care

Now I want to say, Just for the record, I would never ever get involved in a relationship with anyone on any chat program ever again, actually ever again in this lifetime.

There not worth the hurt and pain I went through but not only that my heart is taken/closed off.
I choose to be friends only if you don’t like it well too bad.

So there you go just another day in my life of people not talking, not listening, misunderstanding my intentions or and my actions/my words.

I have learnt something from this experience though and I guess if they didn’t say this to me I would never have known not to ever send my songs again or any songs again.

So I thank them for making me aware of my mistakes in sending my songs or any songs to others.
I do hope they don’t go outside though as I think the tickets will fly off.

Anyways take care all.

Don't Close Your Blinds

2007-12-02T11:23:00.000+11:00

The following text came from an email that was sent to me a long time ago, way back on Wednesday the 30th November 2005 by a friend that doesn’t even realise that some of the things he either has said to me or sent to me have really stuck with me.

This is just one of the many things he sent to me.
God does work in special ways and on many occasions through our friends and associates.

You just have to be aware and listening, oh and not to mention to be open to what you hear.

Well when I read this email, it really did stick hard with me and I too don’t close the blinds, I too take a stand for what is right, no matter how much it hurts me or makes me sick.

My past tells me that this is what I am like; I guess I could be from old school, but it’s all good.

I have been searching for this email ever since I got it, heavens I even asked the people I sent it too.

It has taken me this long to find it and there is a reason I have it now.

I am going to get it on the net as much as I can.

Please be open, please listen and be aware.

Happy Reading

Sent to me on Wednesday, November 30, 2005 3:22 AM

DON'T CLOSE YOUR BLINDS

This one really makes you stop and think -

(and I hope it ends up in those countries that think the War in Iraq is unjust ~ PapaVamp)

Letter to the Editor- Odessa American- Odessa, TX

The other day, my nine year old son wanted to know why we were at war...My husband looked at our son and then looked at me.

My husband and I were in the Army during the Gulf War and we would be honored to serve and defend our Country again today.

I knew that my husband would give him a good explanation.

My husband thought for a few minutes and then told my son to go stand in our front living room window.

He said "Son, stand there and tell me what you see?"

"I see trees and cars and our neighbor's houses." he replied.

"OK, now I want you to pretend that our house and our yard is the United

States of America and you are President Bush."

Our son giggled and said "OK."

"Now son, I want you to look out the window and pretend that every house and yard on this block is a different country" my husband said.

"OK Dad, I'm pretending."

"Now I want you to stand there and look out the window and pretend you see Saddam come out of his house with his wife, he has her by the hair and is hitting her.

You see her bleeding and crying. He hits her in the face, he throws her on the ground, then he starts to kick her to death.

Their children run out and are afraid to stop him, they are screaming and crying, they are watching this but do nothing because they are kids and they are afraid of their father.

You see all of this, son....what do you do?"

"Dad?"

"What do you do son?"

"I'd call the police, Dad."

"OK. Pretend that the police are the United Nations. They take your call.

They listen to what you know and saw but they refuse to help.

What do you do then son?"

"Dad.......... but the police are supposed to help!"

My son starts to whine.

"They don't want to son, because they say that it is not their place or your place to get involved and that you should stay out of it," my husband says.

"But Dad...he killed her!!" my son exclaims.

"I know he did...but the police tell you to stay out of it.

Now I want you to look out that window and pretend you see our neighbor who you're

pretending is Saddam turn around and do the same thing to his children."

"Daddy...he kills them?"

"Yes son, he does. What do you do?"

"Well, if the police don't want to help, I will go and ask my next door neighbor to help me stop him." our son says.

"Son, our next door neighbor sees what is happening and refuses to get involved as well. He refuses to open the door and help you stop him," my husband says.

"But Dad, I NEED help!!! I can't stop him by myself!!"

"WHAT DO YOU DO SON?" Our son starts to cry.

"OK, no one wants to help you, the man across the street saw you ask for help and saw that no one would help you stop him.

He stands taller and puffs out his chest. Guess what he does next son?"

"What Daddy?"

"He walks across the street to the old ladies house and breaks down her door and drags her out, steals all her stuff and sets her house on fire and then...he kills her. He turns around and sees you standing in the window and laughs at you. WHAT DO YOU DO?"

"Daddy..."

"WHAT DO YOU DO?" Our son is crying and he looks down and he whispers,

"I'd close the blinds, Daddy."

My husband looks at our son with tears in his eyes and asks him. "Why?"

"Because Daddy.....the police are supposed to help people who needs them...and they won't help.... You always say that neighbors are supposed to HELP neighbors, but they won't help either...they won't help me stop him...I'm afraid....I can't do it by myself Daddy.....I can't look out my window and just watch him do all these terrible things and...and.....do nothing...so....I'm just going to close the blinds.... so I can't see what he's doing........and I'm going to pretend that it is not happening."

I start to cry. My husband looks at our nine year old son standing in the window, looking pitiful and ashamed at his answers to my husband's questions and he says...

"Son"

"Yes, Daddy."

"Open the blinds because that man.... he's at your front door... "WHAT DO YOU DO?"

My son looks at his father, anger and defiance in his eyes.

He balls up his tiny fists and looks his father square in the eyes, without hesitation he says:

"I DEFEND MY FAMILY DAD!! I'M NOT GONNA LET HIM HURT MOMMY OR MY SISTER, DAD!!! I'M GONNA FIGHT HIM, DAD, I'M GONNA FIGHT HIM!!!!!"

I see a tear roll down my husband's cheek and he grabs our son to his chest and hugs him tight, and says... "It's too late to fight him, he's too strong and he's already at YOUR front door son.....you should have stopped him BEFORE he killed his wife, and his children and the old lady across the way.

You have to do what's right, even if you have to do it alone, before its too late." my husband whispers.

THAT scenario I just gave you is WHY we are at war with Iraq.

When good men stand by and let evil happen son, THAT is the greatest atrocities in the world won't affect him. "YOU MUST NEVER BE AFRAID TO DO WHAT IS RIGHT! EVEN IF YOU HAVE TO DO IT ALONE!" BE PROUD TO BE AN AMERICAN! BE PROUD OF OUR TROOPS!! SUPPORT THEM!!! SUPPORT AMERICA SO THAT IN THE FUTURE OUR CHILDREN WILL NEVER HAVE TO CLOSE THEIR BLINDS..."

This should be printed in every newspaper and posted in every school in America. Of course that won't happen so we'll use the internet. If your blinds are closed do nothing with this email. If they are open I do not need to tell you what to do.

GOD BLESS!!!!!!!!!!

Steven R Chandler, CMSgt

332 ELRS/Vehicle Management

Flight Balad Air Base, Iraq

So you see as a proud Australian, also a very proud person, I too will do what is right for me and many others that cross my paths.

Hence some of the reasons for my writings Good Feeds and BAD FEEDS.

Oh by the way the following text came from the same person, Papa Vamp

I have added some words that we know and or associate with in today’s society.

Maybe this will help others as it helps me in my every day life.

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.
He said, "My son, the battle is between 2 "wolves" inside us all.

One is Evil. BAD FEED
It is Anger, Envy, Jealousy, Sorrow, Regret, Greed<<, Arrogance, Self-Pity, Guilt, BRAG/BOAST, Resentment, Inferiority, Lies, Thieves, False Pride, Dishonorable<<,Disloyalty<<,Superiority, Addictions, Bullies, All Forms of Abuse and Ego.

The other is Good. GOOD FEED
It is Joy, Peace, Love, Hope, Serenity, Humility, Kindness, Benevolence, Empathy, Generosity, Truth, Loyalty ,Respect, Compassion, Acts Of Kindness, Pay It Forward, Good Deeds, Honorable and Faith."

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather:
"Which wolf wins?"

The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."

The thoughts you think and act on.

Salvation Army

2007-11-23T10:34:00.000+11:00

Salvation Army
I am writing this page as I had noticed the entry on a message board and was asked for an opinion, however I am going to tell you of my recent experience with the Salvation Army.
You see my son had been in a bad car accident, 24th February 2006 and with all of his injuries and many operations in the end he needed a new bed, well 2nd hand anyways as that is all I can do for now, from the injuries his back was hurting him and his old bed was sagging and no good at all.
So I thought, well my mum use to ask the charities for assistance and I have never asked and my son needed some help, so I rang up to find out about getting some help with a bed and they told me to be at the centre at 9-30am and the first 12 people is who they see.
So I got the 9-30am bus and I went to the local salvation army assistance centre on Wednesday the 7th November 2007 and I had no idea of the set up or how they do things etc.

Well I went to the centre and it seemed that the first 12 people had already went through so I went to leave to go home, then the lady at the desk spoke to me and I asked what I was there for, then as I was trying to tell the desk lady why I was there and what I was needing and the actual assistance lady came out, at the same time and heard of my story and how I was stumbling/stuttering with my words due to being nervous and because of the many illnesses I have and not knowing or understanding their system of doing things.

So eventually the boss lady/assistance lady, well she booked me in for the following week, and only because I make sure someone is home with my son as he is on crutches and is unable to do things if there was an emergency.
The ladies told me what paper work and documents I may need to show them for the following week.

Well anyways I went the following week, and this time I got the 9am bus as the ladies advised me to do, I saw about 4-5 people there before me, however it didn’t matter as I had the appointment and I was first in so the ladies informed me last week.
I stood under the shade of a eucalyptus tree as with my medical conditions and the heat I could end up sick myself and then I would have no one to care for my son if I got sick.
I was actually feeling sick from my medical issues, I almost fainted and held the fence to prevent me from falling, I took some deep breathes to try and feel better.
I was thinking I hope this place opens soon.
The people there didn’t ask me I if was waiting in the first 12 people or not, as they was counting heads for the first 12.
While I was standing under the shaded tree, I was gathering my thoughts as who turned up and in what order just in case anyone was to say something to me.
Well we all went into the centre as they opened the doors and to many of their surprise, none of them got the number one tag, that must be how they do it, because I got this tag that had the number one on it.

Now I sat in the waiting room and waited to be called then all of sudden one of my illnesses kicked in, I was sick as, and the tears rolled down, I looked through my bag for a tissue to dry my tears and to try and pull myself together as best I could.
Then the assistance lady called me in and she asked me what I wanted.
First of all the lady took down my sons income details and asked me about mine, and also asked me about the expenses I had to pay out each fortnight.
I guess they do that to see if you really do need help.

But before I left my house to go to the assistance centre I wrote myself a list because of my medicals I didn’t want to forget things, now the list compromised of meat for the nights dinner, to get down at the shops as I had a couple dollars left until I would get paid the next day.
My son a mattress and some clothes for us.
I told the lady is best I give you the list as I wrote it down just in case I forgot.
And I was stumbling again with my words from my medicals. And the tears started falling again.
The lady gave me some tissues to dry my tears.

I also told her what I was needing that was most important for me, I said a mattress for my son, I told her why and I gave her his injuries documentation as people would never believe me if I just told them, she was lost for words and said what most people say, he is so lucky to be alive and I said, yes he sure is.
So she proceeded to ring 2 shops to find out if they had the mattress for me and as luck would have it, one of the shops did have one for my son. I said thank you god for helping.

Then the lady asked me about the other items on the list, I told her because of the accident with my son he has gained weight and needs a few clothes, and me because of the tumor in my stomach I needed some loose fitting shirts.
The lady wrote me out a voucher to get some clothes, she did say that only one thing could be done on any one day and I was getting 2, the mattress and the clothes.
Then she asked me about me writing meat on my list, I said yes I had a couple of dollars in my purse to buy meat for the night’s dinner, she asked me if I wanted a gift card voucher, I said no its ok, however she then gave me a $20-00 Coles gift voucher to get some other items I needed.
After she had written out the vouchers etc I was directed out a different door to catch the bus and go home.

I went home as I was feeling really sick and I needed to take some meds to help me do what I needed to do that day. I told my son I have a mattress for him and I was going to pick one out for him, I took measurements of the mattress he had on his bed.
Then I also made myself a cup of tea and then went to look at a mattress for son.
When I got to the store, the mattress didn’t look the right size so I asked the young man to measure it for me and I was right it was king single, it was too big for my sons bed, so I asked about getting a normal single bed base and mattress instead for the same price, he said he couldn’t do that, but if I paid the difference I can, so in the end after me ringing my son and asking him about our options I decided to get him a pine slat single bed base and a single bed mattress. I had to pay an extra $25-00 for the pine bed and I had to pay a $30-00 delivery fee.
All the extras had to wait until we got paid within the next few days etc, then I got it organized and delivered on Thursday 22nd November 2007.
Then I went to the shop for the clothes and I wasn’t feeling good at all, so I asked how the vouchers work and did I have to spend it all at once, the lady told me yes I need to use it on the one visit and I asked for the shops opening hours so I can plan my visit.
Then I went to Coles to get my meat and I went home and I needed to rest for the afternoon.
I was sick as, but I had tears again, I guess the whole day was a lot for me.
While I was resting from the day I had these visions, inspirations like I always get, and that was to find whatever I had in my home to give to them for their kindness in helping me and my son.
Maybe by my donations they can recoup the monies they donated to me as I surely did appreciate their help.

And then because the lady assistant was very understanding and just the fact she helped me,
I designed one of my Memory Keepsake Frames to give to her from me.

So in the end to reply to a message board question of
What do you think of shops such as St Vinnies and Salvation Army
There is my answer above; their help took a lot of pressure off me and not to mention stress.
Just as a point of interest there are people who get paid to do the work they do in the charities and there are people who don’t get paid, who volunteer their services and or works for the dole.
Years ago there were only volunteers from what I knew of, now the managers and other staff do actually get paid to work in the stores.

Insurance companies are not the best people to deal with and especially when you don’t know their way or their job and they can make it all so difficult for you.
Sometimes I get so ornery at them because I see logic where they don’t.
The simple things in life I guess.
They don’t even think for themselves, that my son was the passenger and was knocked out when the accident occurred.
It wasn’t even his fault and it seems they are the ones punishing him.
I guess that’s when the mother instinct kicks in, like protecting and trying to help him.
Anyways I have typed a lot for the morning.
If I missed any words, please forgive me.
I need a break and I am feeling kinda sick again.

Take care all…Have a wonderful day/night wherever you may be.
Heart Of Hush

Oh By The way

I am aware that the bad feeds may read this and then find the need to trash me out as they have done in the past.
http://badfeeds.blog.com/2290777/

I guess it just proves what I been saying all along, they are bad feeds. Their actions speak loud and clear.

This was given to me a while ago.

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.
He said, "My son, the battle is between 2 "wolves" inside us all.

One is Evil. BAD FEED
It is Anger, Envy, Jealousy,Sorrow, Regret, Greed<<, Arrogance, Self-Pity, Guilt,BRAG/BOAST, Resentment, Inferiority, Lies, Thieves,False Pride, Dishonorable<<,Disloyalty<<,Superiority, Addictions, Bullies, All Forms of Abuse and Ego.

The other is Good. GOOD FEED
It is Joy, Peace, Love, Hope, Serenity, Humility, Kindness, Benevolence, Empathy, Generosity, Truth, Loyalty ,Respect,Compassion,Acts Of Kindness, Pay It Forward, Good Deeds, Honorable and Faith."

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather:
"Which wolf wins?"

The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."

The thoughts you think and act on.

Happy Reading

What have I been up to lately?

2007-11-11T11:22:00.000+11:00

What have I been up to lately?

Well let’s see, I have been giving seeds away, let me explain.
You see I have been growing some flowers for some years now but I never knew what they were called. Well I do now, as I asked around to find out, you see I took some pictures of the flowers I have in my garden and some really nice people told me what they were.
They are called 4 o’clock flowers.and or Mirabilis Jalapa.

Well I was happy to now know what these flowers were, so I went searching the internet to find out more about these f lowers that I have growing in my garden.
There growing requirements etc.
Well what did I find in my search, let me show you
Please take a look at the enclosed link
http://www.symbolofhope.com/English_Story_Tribute.htm
Well my wonderful flowers that I have been growing for years just so happens to be the symbol of hope for cancer patients.
I was so happy to know that I have been growing these for many years now and I understood as to why I liked them so much.
If you want any of these flowers you can get the seeds from this link if your USA overseas based
http://www.symbolofhope.com/English_Free_Fouroclock_Seeds.htm

For Australian purchase you can buy them from this link
http://www.oztion.com.au/vshops/item.aspx?itemid=2574807
or google the flower name and you will find other ways of getting the seeds.

Well anyways I had been posting for free these seeds out that I had to many people as they too liked the flowers as well.
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In between doing that I had a mini stroke aka TIA and body shutdown from the menieres disease cause by certain triggers that was inflicted on me by the bans list.
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I have been, I think, helping eagleswindcry to get his troops show up and running again, he (eagleswindcry) got his station working now, I think he got it going yesterday being around the 10th November 2007.

I was re doing his Daytona Radio station website, and then he needed the listen player to be added to his station webpage’s so that people can listen to his station when they visited his website, so I asked a friend bob radio station if he could help eagleswindcry and bob said yes and made the player for eagleswindcry station website.

In doing that for eagleswindcry, eagleswindcry was so appreciative and thankful of bob radio station helping him, eagleswindcry offered to bob radio station to also broadcast the troop’s concert, which is now being advertised on the corresponding web pages.

I wont be doing anything to do with the troops show/concert this year as I don’t want the troops show to be boycotted by the bad feeds and their friends like what they did to the pay it forward room that I had put together.
So now everyone can listen to Daytona Radio Station from the following links.

http://daytonaradio.topcities.com/index.html
http://daytonaradio.topcities.com/enter.html
http://daytonaradio.topcities.com/Listen-To-Country.html
http://daytonaradio.topcities.com/Southern-Rock-Blues.html
http://daytonaradio.topcities.com/Live-Concerts-PaltalkRooms.html
http://daytonaradio.topcities.com/Support-The-Troops.html
http://daytonaradio.topcities.com/2007-concert-details.html

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When I was talking to Bob Radio Station,
he told me about a new site he was running, please see enclosed link
http://www.bobmediaservices.co.uk/

Quoted from his website
Running your own radio station could never be easier. We have created several different types of packages available for you to choose from. These range from the beginners to the more advanced DJ's. As you’re broadcasting demand increases you can upgrade at any time. All of our servers have an up time of 98%
Check out the pricing webpage link below, be aware the prices are Per Month
http://www.bobmediaservices.co.uk/Shoutcast%20Pricing.htm

Currency Converter
http://www.xe.com/ucc/

So if you want your own radio station,
Why not contact bob and see if he can help you have your own station.

Take care everyone and god bless
Heart Of Hush

My Guestbook

2007-09-15T11:32:00.000+10:00

Please sign my guestbook and may be watch and listen to the videos that are included.
Thank you very much. Take Care.....

Making Pancakes

2007-09-12T08:01:00.000+10:00

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Would you please sign my new guestbook and thank you.
http://heart-of-hush.blogspot.com/2007/09/my-guestbook.html

This was sent to me via email and I wanted to share these wonderful words with everyone.
I hope you liked them as much as I did.
Happy Reading

Making Pancakes

Six year-old Brandon decided one Saturday morning to fix his parents pancakes.
He found a big bowl and spoon, pulled a chair to the counter, opened the cupboard and pulled out the heavy flour canister, spilling it on the floor.
He scooped some of the flour into the bowl with his hands, mixed in most of a cup of milk and added some sugar, leaving a floury trail on the floor which by now had a few tracks left by his kitten.
Brandon was covered with flour and getting frustrated.
He wanted this to be something very good for Mom and Dad, but it was getting very bad.
He didn't know what to do next, whether to put it all into the oven or on the stove and he didn't know how the stove worked!.
Suddenly he saw his kitten licking from the bowl of mix and reached to push her away, knocking the egg carton to the floor. Frantically he tried to clean up this monumental mess but slipped on the eggs, getting his pajamas white and sticky. And just then he saw Dad standing at the door.
Big crocodile tears welled up in Brandon’s eyes.
All he'd wanted to do was something good, but he'd made a terrible mess.
He was sure a scolding was coming, maybe even a spanking.
But his father just watched him. Then, walking through the mess, he picked up his crying son, hugged him and loved him, getting his own pajamas white and sticky in the process!

That's how God deals with us.. We try to do something good in life, but it turns into a mess.
Our marriage gets all sticky or we insult a friend, or we can't stand our job, or our health goes sour.
Sometimes we just stand there in tears because we can't think of anything else to do.
That's when God picks us up and loves us and forgives us, even though some of our mess gets all over Him. But just because we might mess up, we can't stop trying to "make pancakes" for God or for others. Sooner or later we'll get it right, and then they'll be glad we tried...
I was thinking. andI wondered if I had any wounds needing to be healed, friendships that need rekindling or three words needing to be said, sometimes, "I love you" can heal & bless! Remind every one of your friends that you love them. Even
if you think they don't love back, you would be amazed at what those
three little words, a smile, and a reminder like this can do. Just in case I
haven't told you lately... I LOVE YA!!!
Please pass some of this love on to others....suppose one morning you were called to God; do all
your friends know you love them? Send this to everyone you love, and send it
back to the person who sent it to you.. And never stop "making pancakes."

Would you please sign my new guestbook and thank you.
http://heart-of-hush.blogspot.com/2007/09/my-guestbook.html

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Hi Everyone,Here is my personal website if you care to get to know me better.
http://heartofhush1.topcities.com/
I am still updating it,I do have up to page 10 completed.
also here is a few of my writing journals of some of my real life experiences.
These are updated constantly
Good Feed
http://heartofhush.blog.com/
Memory Keepsakes,Pics & Videos
http://www.putfile.com/heartofhush
http://inconcertwithheartofhush.blogspot.com/
Bad Feed
http://badfeeds.blog.com/
ban list
http://badfeeds.blog.com/1906305/Thank You,Lu

Watching Judge Judy

2007-09-05T07:12:00.000+10:00

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Watching & Listening to Judge Judy

It was Tuesday the 4th of September 2007 from approx 3pm in the afternoon.
I was watching and listening to Judge Judy while I was working on my computer and as I sat and listened and watched I heard Judge Judy make a comment that made me stop and listen to what she had to say.
The quote was
If it don’t make sense then it isn’t true.
Her comment made me realize a few things that I have been pondering over these past few weeks of certain people telling me stuff that to me doesn’t and didn’t make sense.
Until now that is, what Judge Judy said makes a whole lot of sense to me.
Well she kind of answered what I been thinking about for a while.
You know I just don’t get it or understand why people have to use the bad feeds, meaning why they have to lie and be deceitful.
I don’t think I will ever truly understand it.
So I will be writing to these few people and telling them.

DO NOT REPRODUCE MY WORDS IN ANY SHAPE OR FORM, THIS IS MY INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY AND “MY COPYRIGHTS”, ALL THE ABOVE WRITINGS ARE MY WORDS EXCEPT WHERE NOTED THAT I CREATED TODAY BEING Tuesday 4th September, 2007
©Copyright 2007 Mrs. L Peters aka Heart Of Hush All Rights Reserved

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4th September 2007

2007-09-05T07:03:00.000+10:00

4th September 2007
Today my son went to the doctors to have his dressing changed that is on his hip from a bone graft operation he had from the recent operation he had on his right foot.
His girlfriend went with him to the doctors as he needs help because he is on crutches and is unable to manage on his own without some help..
Well he came home from the doctors and he said mum I need to talk to you, so I go in his room to hear what he has to say and he tells me that his girlfriend is pregnant and that he will be moving out from his home here in early 2008.
They haven’t decided as yet whether they are keeping the baby as his girlfriend is 17 years of age and he is 19 years old.
I know that when he does move out I won’t be on the internet anymore and I won’t have a computer, so I will have to finish all the websites I started, not that the people I made them for actually use them.
I also taught myself another thing today to do with working with sounds and mixing.
Anyways I don’t have much to say.
Until next time I write some more words.
Take Care.
Heart Of Hush

Animal Totems

2007-08-07T21:07:00.000+10:00

This is what I had found
http://www.sayahda.com/cycle.htm
The Cat
According to author Ted Andrews of Animal Speaks, cats wild or domestic have certain qualities in common. They are associated with myth and lore, magic and mystery. Nine lives, curiosity, independence, cleverness, unpredictability and healing. Those with this medicine should also study its color, size and breed for a deeper understanding.
Cats have more rods in the retinas of their eyes which enable them to see effectively in the dark. The dark is often associated with mankind's fears. Since the car is at home in the dark, it serves as a valuable ally into the world of the supernatural and the unknown and can help those with this totem move through their fears efficiently.
The energy field of a cat rotates is a counterclockwise direction, the opposite of a human energy field. Because of this, cats have the ability to absorb and neutralize energy that affects humans in a negative way. This is part of the healing medicine that the cat holds.
If something affects you in a negative way place a cat on your lap or find a cat to pet. Your energy field will immediately realign itself and inner balance will be restored.
Because of their x-ray vision, acute hearing and high intelligence they were used throughout history as guardians and protectors. In ancient Egypt cats guarded the temple gates and were used to ward off evil.
If cat appears in your life the blending of magic and mystery is at hand. A trustworthy teacher, the cat will guide you into the world of self discovery and transformation

http://www.linsdomain.com/totems.htm

Littlest lion, panther in miniature,
Help me in a my magical endeavors,
Teach me to see my path through dark places,
Help me to sift the necessary from the unnecessary
And to relax and enjoy life.
Strengthened my magic and carry it to its destination.

Mystery, Magic and Independence
A cat totem encourages agility in both body and mind.
You will be challenged with new ideas and places.
The cat gives you clearer perception.
This spirit helper is resourceful, strong and fearless.
It will give you courage and confidence.
Examine the colors, character and behaviors of your Cat.
Everything about it will reflect in your own life.
When a Cat becomes predominant in your life,
magic and mystery come alive.
Associated with the Norse Goddess of Fertility Freyja
and the Hindu Goddess of Childbirth, Shasthi
and of course, the Egyptian Goddess Basket who takes the form of a cat

I found some more of the websites I had saved if you care to read

http://www.spiritofangels.com/poweranimals.html

http://wolfs_moon.tripod.com/totemspage.html

Then I goggled in Animal Totems and this is a new site I had found,
http://www.starstuffs.com/animal_totems/

http://www.starstuffs.com/animal_totems/dictionary_of_animals.htm

The Cat
Magic, independence, clever, unpredictable, balance of energies and actions in life, mysteries will unfold in life if a cat has come around. Cat shows how to clarify perceptions which allows new ideas to manifest, encourages mental and emotional agility, aids in being resourceful and stealthy tactics, teaches courage and confidence. Do you need to be more independent? Are you using your resources the best of your ability? Is it time to start a new project? Cat will show how to continue the process of opening your intuition for soul growth.

Then I went on to read more to this website, I am going to copy and paste some of the relevant pages with the link pertaining to the website so you too can see what animal totem you are.
Please be aware of the following information in reference to the information enclosed

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http://www.starstuffs.com/animal_totems/

There are hidden qualities and forces of nature that we can access if we are attuned to the natural forces around us. In this section, we can learn some of the natural language the animal kingdom is telling us.
The animals express the spirit nature of that species and exemplify qualities we can learn from.
They are psychological and spiritual symbols that convey to us qualities we are needing or lacking in our daily lives.

Carl Jung termed "archetypes" as primordial symbols of the "collective unconscious". Animal totems are archetypes that work with the subconscious mind, tapping into the energy that is present in all things. Totems can be seen as channels or frequencies on a radio depending on the need of the individual. Our electromagnetic energy field taps into that frequency. However, the key to understanding this language is being perceptive and aware of our surroundings.

This is by no means a worship of the animals but rather using the animal totems as spiritual tools, or rather a spiritual symbiosis, along our personal path. Honor and respect for all of nature was and is recognized. Man is not above nature, man is one with nature.
Totems and all of nature, demonstrate a spiritual connectedness that helps guide us on our own path of self discovery.

Then I selected this link
http://www.starstuffs.com/animal_totems/finding.htm

"Anima"(Latin) means Soul or Breath of Life

Animal totems are animals we tend to have an attraction to, either by a
calling toward the animal or the animal appears to us to teach some quality of
itself. They emanate the breath of our lives by showing us certain qualities
and behaviors that we should emulate somewhere in our livelihood.
We each come into this world accompanied by an animal spirit - a significant
indicator of our personal power - that walks with us on our soul journey
through space and time. These Spirit Guides are very personal totems since
they strongly reflect our inner spiritual nature. One could have several of
these totems since they guide us along our path and give us courage and
strength in our journey. They may appear at separate times throughout your
life or perhaps alternating in appearances, all to teach us lessons we need to
learn. This could be viewed as a hierarchy of animal totems: from everyday
spirit helpers/reminders to "mother-father" type figures in the spirit realm
who guide, watch over and train us throughout our lives.

As with any human relationship, we need to understand the language of the
animal partner in order to fully understand it. Listening is approximately 85%
of a conversation. In humans, when we listen, actually listen to every word
and meaning the person is saying, we come to understand minute details that
are important to that person. The same applies likewise within the animal
kingdom. Communication and interaction strengthen and empower the union
between animal worlds and ourselves.
These Spirit Guides have chosen you and will appear when you are ready to
understand. They are also usually wild in nature (not domesticated). The
animal spirits may reveal themselves in visions and/or dreams with an
unmistakable familiar knowing associated with it. Honor, respect and
attentiveness must be given because you are now ready for a new segment in
your journey. Over time trust is built and we eventually take on those imbued
characteristics and merge with the animal spirits, becoming one with the
energy.

Learning of your personal animal totem(s) will give you a greater sense of
appreciation of your own connections to all life. In human relationships, it
may also help to understand the significance of that person's spirit animal(s)
and how it interacts with your animal totem(s). When you acknowledge the other
dynamic energies that play a part of the relationship it will help you better
understand the dynamics of the relationship as a whole. This understanding can
enhance and create a lasting foundation in all that you do. Perhaps listening
to relationship totems could teach you something about yourself as well?

By recognizing and acknowledging animal totems as you see them, the energy
working in your life will increase. You will start to notice your personal
power animal(s) everywhere you go, in books, magazines and postcards, in
nature, in dreams and visions. By surrounding yourself with images you connect
with the animal and the energy and wisdom it imparts. Your awareness will
abound. Here follows a basic guideline to finding your special animal.
Which animals have always fascinated you, especially in childhood?
Which animals have you always felt connected to?
What animals do you see frequently in the wild?
Which quality of animal best describes your personality?
Which animals do you have around you in pictures or figurines?

The other type of animal totem is more of a general, all-encompassing one,
that we need to be open and be aware of in everyday life. These nature totems
also bring spiritual messages by appearing to us in seemingly odd ways. The
more we are in tune with our surroundings, the easier it is to receive such
messages. The better our inner awareness, the easier it is for this form of
communication to take place. The subtleties, nuances and actions of these
animals will tell you a lot. Some of these animals may repeat their appearance
many times in your life as a 'secondary journey totem'. These animals may not
be the Spirit Guide(s) as mentioned above, however, they are there to help you
as a specifically chosen property for your current path for that particular
moment. Here the line is shadowed a bit by the definitions of Spirit Guide,
Secondary Totem, General Totem. Please don't let definitions hinder what you
think, feel and intuit about the animals. ALL the animals are there to guide,
to teach and to show you what is happening in your world. ALL the animals,
including us are connected, there are no "lines" of separation - only
separation by levels of awareness.
For a personal power totem or an overall nature one, it is wise to study the
habits of the animal in its surroundings, what it eats, where it sleeps, how
it moves, including the gestation and life cycle, this will help you recognize
what it is telling you to apply to your life.

The above criteria is what I follow when I am asked what certain animals mean
in a person's life. For the most part, requests for animal meanings can take
up to 2 written pages and usually gives an accurate description of what is
going in their lives. I study the surroundings and behaviors and then apply
and transpose the animal energies into human terms. Sometimes complex in
nature, sometimes relatively easy- as with our spiritual paths. It all depends
on the depth of the inquiry. I'd like to note here, you may notice the
Dictionaries of Animals I have compiled are short-handed explanations of some
core energies of the animal's characteristics vs an extensive write-up. It's
important to do your own inquiry into your spirit animals. This page and site
gives you the necessary tools to start along that path of disovery. No one can
give you the *meaning* of the answers you need.

Now that you have some tools to discover your personal totem animal we shall
then look at how we are joined to the rest of the animal kingdom through the
common animal totems. All animals are linked by the Great Spirit, including
humans. Nature has a way of communicating if we only listen as they are
representatives of our unconscious minds. Through the appearance of animals in
the everyday environment we can then determine what the underlying situation
is in our lives. For instance, the direction we should take in dilemmas, what
the best course of action is, and how we should behave in given circumstances.
The Great Spirit has linked us all together in order to learn and grow in our
own Spirit. He has given us the chance to learn or perhaps relearn the
language of the animals.
When you come across an animal that is not normally seen around you. Take
notice. If a bird is constantly vocal outside your window, listen and watch. A
deer or a rabbit strays into your yard, listen and watch. After a while you
will know and understand what the animals are trying to tell you. It is
understood that there may be a variety of animals around you everyday.
However, it is the subtle awareness, the nuances, which allow you to listen
what is being said.
Also, take note of dreams and visions: the same properties apply in this realm
as in the dream realm. Often times a Spirit Guide will show you things and
teach you in a way you can comprehend for the moment. Be aware of the animals,
for there is no separation between the physical and spiritual are one.

Some subtleties of the general animal totems that you need to be aware of are
as follows.
How is the animal moving in relation to yourself?
(Right, Left, Away, Toward)
How is it crossing your path: emerging, coming into or leaving your life?
Notice where the animal is looking, walking, flying, heading etc.
Which direction is the animal coming from or going to?
(see Animal Directions)
Also the number of animals is relevant to the direction.

Number of Animals
Significance and Meaning of the Number
1 Originality, initiating action, pioneering, leading, new beginnings,
attaining.
2 Cooperation, adaptability, partnering, mediating, consideration of
others
3 Birth, expression, socialization, joy of living, mystical, creativity,
verbalization
4 Patience, order, service, steady growth, foundation, struggle against
limits
5 Activities, change, visionary, adventure, constructive use of freedom,
versatile.
6 Responsibility, service to home and family, nurturing, balance,
sympathy
7 Wisdom, truths, understanding, knowledge, awareness, mediating,
studious
8 Money, status oriented, power seeking, practical endeavors, high
material goals
9 Humanitarian, giving, healing, understanding, selflessness, obligations

Note: Double digits add up to be a single number.

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http://www.animaltotem.com/find-your-totem.html

How To Find Your Animal Totem
An Animal Totem is an important symbolic object used by a person to get in touch with specific qualities found within an animal which the person needs, connects with, or feels a deep affinity toward.

You can have several animal guides through out your life. Sometimes an animal guide will come into your life for a short period of time, and then be replaced by another depending on the journey or direction you are headed toward. Your guide will instruct and protect you as you learn how to navigate through your spiritual and physical life. When you find an animal that speaks strongly to you or feel you must draw more deeply into your life, you might fill your environment with images of the animal to let the animal know its welcome in your space. Animal guides can help you get back to your Earthly roots, and reconnect with nature by reminding you that we are all interconnected. To first do this you need to know what your Animal Totem is.

If You Don't Know
If you don't know what your Animal Totem is there are several questions you can ask yourself. All of the questions below are designed to get you thinking about a prominent animal in your life.
There are no right or wrong answers.
Only you can truly know which Animal Totem(s) are right for your journey.
Since we are drawn to that which resonates with us, what animal, bird, or insect are you drawn to?
When you go to the park, forest, or zoo what animal are you most interested in seeing?
What animal do you most frequently see when you're out in nature or in the city?
What animals are you currently interested in learning about?
Which animal do you find most frightening or intriguing?
Have you ever been bitten or attacked by an animal?
Is there a recurring animal in your dreams or do you have one you have never forgotten?
Still Uncertain?
If you are still uncertain which animal is your totem, here a few exercises you can do to come closer to the answer. You must not try to force the animal to come, it can pick up on that energy and be put off. Being patient and doing the following exercises will draw your animal totem to you.
Ask yourself what animal has played a meaningful part in your world? If you're unsure, make a list of animals that have drawn your interest or have left a deep impression on you from paintings, photographs, stories, movies, carvings, etc.
Which animal shows up in your life most frequently? Keep a journal of the animals present in your dreams or that you encounter through the day for the next month. How did the animal behave? Did you interact with the animal?
Find a place where you can be alone to meditate. Sit quietly and ask your animal to make it's nature known to you. Feel free to use tools such as incense, smudge, and candles to help you.
Don't give up, sometimes your animal totem is nearby watching to see if you're serious about connecting with it. Keep doing the above exercises until your animal totem makes itself known to you.

Aussie Phrases,Sayings

2007-08-04T21:53:00.000+10:00

I went looking for some ways to show some of my friends about aussies and our language,sayings, words.
Links of Interests

http://members.ozemail.com.au/~enigman/australia/slang.html
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http://www.sharoncolon.com/sharon/links/page461.htm
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http://goaustralia.about.com/cs/language/a/strinea.htm
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http://www.geocities.com/southbeach/breakers/8092/ozslang.htm
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http://www.sunburntcountry.au.com/sayings/
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"A FOREVER FRIEND"

2007-08-04T20:17:00.000+10:00

http://www.friendship.com.au/poetry/popular/pop2.html#forever

"A FOREVER FRIEND"
© Suzin Polish Schwartz or LaurieAnn Kelly (unclear who was original author)
Sent By Rachelle

Sometimes in life,
you find a special friend;
Someone who changes your life
just by being part of it.
Someone who makes you laugh
until you can't stop;
Someone who makes you believe
that there really is good in the world.
Someone who convinces you
that there really is an unlocked door
just waiting for you to open it.
This is Forever Friendship.
When you're down,
and the world seems dark and empty,
Your forever friend lifts you up in spirit
and makes that dark and empty world
suddenly seem bright and full.
Your forever friend gets you through
the hard times, the sad times,
and the confused times.
If you turn and walk away,
your forever friend follows.
If you lose your way,
your forever friend guides you
and cheers you on.
Your forever friend holds your hand
and tells you that
everything is going to be okay.
And if you find such a friend,
you feel happy and complete,
because you need not worry.
You have a forever friend for life,
and forever has no end.

Friend's Prayer

2007-08-04T20:14:00.000+10:00

http://www.friendship.com.au/poetry/popular/pop6.html#one

A Friend's Prayer
© Jill Wolf, sent by Wendy Hinson

May my friendships always be
The most important thing to me;
With special friends I feel I'm blessed,
So let me give my very best.
I want to do much more than share
The hopes and plans of friends who care;
I'll try all that a friend can do
To make their secret dreams come true.
Let me use my heart to see,
To realise what friends can be,
And make no judgements from afar,
But love my friends the way they are.

A Friend ABC

2007-08-04T20:10:00.000+10:00

http://www.friendship.com.au/poetry/popular/pop4.html#two

A Friend ABC

(A)ccepts you as you are
(B)elieves in "you"
(C)alls you just to say "HI"
(D)oesn't give up on you
(E)nvisions the whole of you (even the unfinished parts)
(F)orgives your mistakes
(G)ives unconditionally
(H)elps you
(I)nvites you over
(J)ust "be" with you
(K)eeps you close at heart
(L)oves you for who you are
(M)akes a difference in your life
(N)ever Judges
(O)ffers support
(P)icks you up
(Q)uiets your fears
(R)aises your spirits
(S)ays nice things about you
(T)ells you the truth when you need to hear it
(U)nderstands you
(V)alues you
(W)alks beside you
(X)-plain things you don't understand
(Y)ells when you won't listen and
(Z)aps you back to reality

Another Friendship Poem

2007-08-04T20:03:00.000+10:00

http://www.friendship.com.au/poetry/general/gen6.html#one

A friend is someone to share your whole day with,
someone to wish on a star,
a friend is someone to laugh 'till your crying,
one with to walk very far,
A friend is someone who won't tell your secrets,
a friend is somebody fair,
a friend is someone to share a big sundae,
someone to French braid your hair,
a friend is someone to make you happy,
when your very blue,
a friend is someone who teaches you things like how to tie your shoe,
a friend is someone who's always there for whatever you may need,
a friend is someone who you love, a freind is a friend indeed.

Friends
© Jodi Kenyon

A friend is someone true and for real,
A friend is someone who means a great deal.
A friend won't hurt you,
A friend won't lie,
A friend will never permanantly say good-bye.
A friend is there through the good times and bad,
A friend is there to cheer you up when your sad.
A friend is always there with a shoulder to cry on,
A friend is always there that you can rely on.
So, friend if you ever need someone honest and true,
Just remember ill always be here for you .

Friends
© Lindsey Shirocky

Friends are there until the end,
They're always themselves, no pretend.
They're not afraid to be seen with you,
They will never betray you.
Friends never tell secrets they promise to keep,
they make you feel good about yourself in times of weep.
They come and cheer for you at your games,
In a friend there is no shame.
Friends are there to listen when you're depressed,
They are the people you should know best.
Friends are like presents you open again and again,
Always are with you through thick and thin.

More Friendship Poems

2007-08-04T19:55:00.000+10:00

Here is another Poem I found.
http://www.friendship.com.au/poetry/general/gen4.html#two

Only When...
© Shariz

Friendship is a rare jewel that shines,
Only when you give it a sunny smile
Friendship is a lock that opens,
Only when you unlock your true self to it
Friendship is a song, which is sung,
Only when you know its rhythm
Friendship is a dream, which comes true,
Only when you believe in it
Friendship is a sun, which rises,
Only when your heart has set on it
Friendship is a throne, on which you can sit,
Only when you share your kingdom with it
Friendship is a path, which you will find,
Only when you know you are lost
Friendship is a hand that holds yours,
Only when you extend yours
Friendship is an album of reminiscences, which you can leaf through,
Only when you cherish it
Friendship is a lamp, which lights,
Only when you know it will assuage your heart
Friendship is a lantern, which glows,
Only when you need the warmth of it
Friendship is a language, which you speak,
Only when you know the meaning of it
Friendship is a potpourri of feelings, which you can smell,
Only when you have a true friend…

Friendship
© 1997 Angela

Friendship is the kind of love
that never can grow old.
Warm and cozy it will stay
when other things are cold.
Friendship is a love so true
it won't be denied,
Because a friend will always be
there close by your side.
Boyfriends and lovers come and go
in this game of life we play,
But a true friend, no matter what,
in your heart will always stay.
So hold these friends dear to you,
and never let them go.
Think how much they mean to you,
and make sure to tell them so.

Friendship Poems

2007-08-04T19:50:00.000+10:00

I wanted to share with you some beautiful friendship poems i have come across.
http://www.friendship.com.au/poetry/general/gen5.html#one

Friendship
© 1996 Taran

My dearest foolish friend, will you never learn
Will you never learn to trust in our friendship
Will you never understand what friendship is
Are you so very untrusting, so withdrawn
that you cannot see what is right in front of you

Can you not see that real friends never turn away
Never abandon the other during times of crisis
Never seek to hurt the other, nor give pain at any time
Friends are those that bond together and stay together
The truest of friends share their innermost secrets
the good, bad and ugly that others would not understand

A friend will never judge or make the other
feel less than what they truly are
A friend wants only what is best for the other
and always forgives life's little mistakes
Never lessening who and what they are
Never trying to change what cannot be changed

A friend treasures all that is given to them
in words, thoughts, feelings and expressions of the heart
Only one that cares will listen to your deepest thoughts
only a friend will hold these things to their heart
and know that they are special because they are from you

These things and oh so much more
are what the truest, purest form of friendship are about
A friend will give strength in your weakest moments
be your rock and strongest ally never waning
A friend will be there for you
in this time and space and even into the afterworld

So dearest friend, treasure what you have
never take it for granted, never assume
never be anything but what you are - a friend
special because you are who you are.

True Friendship
© 1996 Shauna

Friendship is something that grows through the years
Withstanding feelings of anger, joy and tears
It is something you cannot live without
A friend you can turn to when in doubt
They should listen carefully and not speak a word
For you would do the same when they want to be heard
A person you can confide in, learn from and trust
This is a friend and everyone must
Be able to have someone just like this
Not a boyfriend to hug, cuddle and kiss
But a person so special, faithful and true
The only one I can think of is a person like you
Our friendship is strong, healthy and great
Through the years I see its wonderful fate
A fate of laughs, greatness and fun
We have only one life to live and this is the one
The past- full of memories that runs through my head
The bad ones never talked about or said
Every moment of life should glisten with fresh morning dew
This reminds me of the greatest friendship one ever knew.

Gods Gift to People World Wide

2007-08-04T11:49:00.000+10:00

This is coming soon

Paltalk Lady says Thank You

2007-08-04T11:44:00.000+10:00

Hi All,
I have a story to write, yea what else is new; well this IS about my real life experiences.
And here is a recent one as of last night.
So I am here to tell you about a wonderful lady that touched my heart and soul my last night being Friday night 3rd of August 2007.
You see my friend Ozzie_99_au was on Paltalk last night and I have been sick but I wanted to listen with him in the room.
He told me was in the room called Goodtimes Karaoke Respect Studio, So I went into the room, was greeted and said hello to and then I sat and listened and talked in the room.
Then a lady that was in the room she asked if she could private message me, I said of course you can.
You see what this lady didn’t know I guess is I still had her nic added to my Paltalk list from when we did the Billy Thorpe Tribute room on Paltalk.
Well she contacted me and she had told me something that brought tears to my heart and soul and not to mention physically as well.
This lady told me the following
x~Pal Lady~x hi heart .. I have been reading your website I loveeeee it such a good writer the voice message from Tammy I must admit it bought tears to my eyes ?
Heart_Of_Hush: did you see it
(7:12 PM) x~Pal Lady~x yep
Heart_Of_Hush: yes it does huh
(7:13 PM) x~Pal Lady~x I read it every night I have added it to my favs
Heart_Of_Hush: i haven’t written anything as yet
Heart_Of_Hush: have you
Heart_Of_Hush: wow thank you
(7:13 PM) x~Pal Lady~x yep love it lol
Heart_Of_Hush: oh good
Heart_Of_Hush: I’m glad you do like it
Heart_Of_Hush: wow thank you ever so much
(7:13 PM) x~Pal Lady~x no problem it’s a credit to u
Heart_Of_Hush: I have been sick and I haven’t written my words to her recording as yet
Heart_Of_Hush: thank you...I was almost going to give up
(7:14 PM) x~Pal Lady~x nooooo don’t u dare give it up
Heart_Of_Hush: but you tonight have brought happy tears to me
Heart_Of_Hush: thank you
(7:15 PM) x~Pal Lady~x your very welcome keep up the great work?
Heart_Of_Hush: please if you ever want to pm me please do
Heart_Of_Hush: thank you
(7:16 PM) x~Pal Lady~x pal is a great big world out there and sometimes we think of things and never put it to paper and what u have done is amazing
Heart_Of_Hush: please don’t think I am nuts or a sicko.....but I believe god gave me the ability to write as well as the other things i do
Heart_Of_Hush: the words just pop into my head sometimes....and mostly when I write it is of my real life experiences
(7:18 PM) x~Pal Lady~x hey your no sicko by no means that’s some talent
Heart_Of_Hush: ....I stay offline because I have been told that people are talking about me behind my back...I am being used by people on here...and I have been called a sicko
Heart_Of_Hush: you know why it is why i think
Heart_Of_Hush: cause I stand up to the bullies and abusers
Heart_Of_Hush: I call it as it is
Heart_Of_Hush: so they have to trash me as they got nothing else better to do
(7:21 PM) x~Pal Lady~x i have been on this program for years u get all sorts one thing I learnt very fast I choose my friends very carefully and not worry what others say I treat my friends on here how I would like to be treated in real life I take my friends as reality on here and don’t let others try and destroy my friendship I have on here with my friends
Heart_Of_Hush: you know something I am glad you said that
Heart_Of_Hush: that is exactly how I think sort of
Heart_Of_Hush: I believe the people we all talk to is real
Heart_Of_Hush: and I as you do treat these people are real
Heart_Of_Hush: but I was being told......hey this is the internet
Heart_Of_Hush: and you’re not going to meet these people in real life
Heart_Of_Hush: so I was kinda lost as to what is real or fantasy
(7:23 PM) x~Pal Lady~x and the number one key is respect as u would know .... ppl that don’t respect others I don’t chat with them cos they really are on here to start trouble
Heart_Of_Hush: yes exactly
Heart_Of_Hush: that is what I do 1st..I give respect
Heart_Of_Hush: I was going to make the pay it forward room my last room on pal
Heart_Of_Hush: I hadn’t told anyone as yet
Heart_Of_Hush: this is what I have scheduled next
Heart_Of_Hush: http://payitforward.topcities.com/index.html

(7:26 PM) x~Pal Lady~x so that means u don’t wanna come back on pal or its just going to be the last room u open ?
Heart_Of_Hush: I don’t come here much at all if you notice
Heart_Of_Hush: and yes the last room
(7:27 PM) x~Pal Lady~x that’s a shame
Heart_Of_Hush: I don’t want to because every time I do something good I get slammed
Heart_Of_Hush: and I got people saying I am a sicko
Heart_Of_Hush: I feel so uncomfortable being here
(7:28 PM) x~Pal Lady~x ohhhhhh u really shouldn’t feel that way
Heart_Of_Hush: you have made me feel a bit better
Heart_Of_Hush: thank you for that
(7:29 PM) x~Pal Lady~ xyvw
Heart_Of_Hush: I got a feeling your going to like what I write soon then again you may not
(7:30 PM) x~Pal Lady~x I love all your writing
(7:30 PM) x~Pal Lady~x its taken me ages to catch up tho lol
Heart_Of_Hush: I do speak from the heart
Heart_Of_Hush: is ok
(7:30 PM) x~Pal Lady~x I mean catching up on your site
Heart_Of_Hush: I am glad that YOU like my writing
Heart_Of_Hush: yes I know
Heart_Of_Hush: then god gave me the ability to give you something
(7:31 PM) x~Pal Lady~x yep for sure?
Heart_Of_Hush: well my job is done then
Heart_Of_Hush: that’s all I ever wanted
Heart_Of_Hush: was to help someone...even 1 person
(7:32 PM) x~Pal Lady~x and its like this I don’t know u and u don’t know me I have made up my own mind in your writing
Heart_Of_Hush: you see you have just paid it forward to me
(7:32 PM) x~Pal Lady~x yep ?
Heart_Of_Hush: yes it is from our lives and experiences
Heart_Of_Hush: sometimes I think I am too hard for pal
Heart_Of_Hush: and then I have doubts of myself
(7:35 PM) x~Pal Lady~x well I can assure u your writing gives me great pleasure in reading it
Heart_Of_Hush: good and thank you for going out of your way to tell me...that means a lot to me
Heart_Of_Hush: it actually helps me. Gives me a little more confidence when I go backwards
(7:36 PM) x~Pal Lady~ xyvw

From this conversation with this lady that I don’t know she helped me smile to know that maybe I have helped one person with something in my writing.
So much of what I write is from MY real life experiences and it doesn’t mean you have to follow what I said, as this lady said she makes her own decisions on how or what she does.
You see what works for me may not work for you or the situation your in.
I do get very passionate when someone is being mistreated or hurt; it reminds me of how I was and am sometimes.
Yes I am human I go back wards however when gods angels pop into my life as this lady did, it reminds me to get back up and keep pushing.
I really do thank this wonderful lady for going out of her way to tell the above text and also for paying it forward to me.
**
You know what I think; well I think this should be forwarded to all of your friends,
If my writings has touched this lady maybe it will touch another.

Spreading to the world of good is such a wonderful thing and should never be hidden.
So what are you waiting for, send the link to this page to all of your friends and relatives, yes even your enemies, they may learn something.**

If you want to read more of my writings please look to the left side of the page and you will see a heading "List of my writings"
Just click on a topic

Hugs to you all, happy reading, and please take care, be safe.
Heart Of Hush aka Lu
Copyright Saturday 4th August 2007 @ 11-44am

DO NOT REPRODUCE MY WORDS IN ANY WAY, SHAPE OR FORM,
THIS IS MY INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY AND “MY COPYRIGHTS”,
ALL THE ABOVE WRITINGS ARE MY WORDS EXCEPT WHERE NOTED THAT I CREATED TODAY BEING Saturday 4th of August 2007

©Copyright 2007 Mrs. L Peters aka Heart Of Hush All Rights Reserved

From Tammy

2007-08-03T17:30:00.000+10:00

Code came from the following link

http://www.mygen.co.uk/index.php?page=generators§ion=video

Happy Listening
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Hi all, let me tell you how you all this came about, you see I was creating a website for the pay it forward room I was organizing in a room on Paltalk.
I had asked Tammy if she would sit down and write me her story of someone giving to her their Pay It Forward to Tammy.
Well she didn't write it down, however as I hope you can see and hear, Tammy found another way to share her story and that was on SingSnap.
Tammy left me an offline to go to this webpage; it was on SingSnap and from what I understand only SingSnap users can visit from the enclosed link
http://www.singsnap.com/snap/r/b511e190
So I went to the page not expecting what I was to eventually find.
Well what can I say except from the time the recording started until it finished I cried and cried like a little baby, guess being sick brings out more emotions, however I think going through the change of life also just maybe has something to do with it.
Oh as a point when I said sick I mean I have what the doctor labeled a Viral Infection.
As Tammy said we have been friends for a very long time, and yes Tammy has been there for me as well, but you know something, I call it being true real friends.
With our ups and our downs, when one of us is crying or laughing from what one of us said.
We have been there for each other, standing right beside each other.
We have learnt each others way of living, and many times we have come across things that don’t make sense to us, but we ask and learn.
I remember telling Tammy about a word she would say that is an American saying and here in AUS it is like a rude word. She was so funny, cause when I told her she was on cam and she went as red as a beetroot.
I have been around Tammy’s children as they grow up and yes just as Tammy said they were so very little.
I have learnt a lot from Tammy as I have never read the bible and when things pop into my head I ask her.
And I guess right now your saying why don’t I read the bible, well it’s because if god wanted me to read it he would ask me, however he teaches me by the messages he gives me and yes sometimes I doubt but I soon learn.
So yes Tammy has helped me see things and learn things.
Tammy is one of the many friends that have told me that god gave me these gifts for a reason and from time to time sometimes you see them in action.
Tammy is a support for me as I would support her for good intentions only by both of us.
I would never support bad feeds. Many times I have had to be hard at Tammy and vice a versa, in the hope we learn the lesson that was given to both of us, I believe. And oh how uncomfy I felt, but in the long run we both learnt and we did it together as real friends should side be side so to speak.
I never like to hurt no one but sometimes people including me needs a good kick up the butt.
Tammy has learnt that I am from the old ways, I stand in front of her so she don’t get hurt, Tammy has been a wonderful long time friend and yes as Tammy said we have never met.
Sometimes when I have writers block so to speak and I know I am looking for some right words to say as I can feel them in my soul, so I start looking on the internet, and yes I quite often find the words I am looking for.
Below are some poems that I had searched for, sometime ago for a different reason; however they belong here as well
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Simple v Real Friendship
sent by Chen Qin
A simple friend identifies himself when he calls.
A real friend doesn't have to.
A simple friend opens a conversation with a full news bulletin on his life.
A real friend says, "What's new with you?"
A simple friend thinks the problems you whine about are recent.
A real friend says, "You've been whining about the same thing for 14 years. Get off your duff and do something about it."
A simple friend has never seen you cry.
A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.
A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names.
A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book.
A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party.
A real friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean.
A simple friend hates it when you call after he has gone to bed.
A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.
A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems.
A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.
A simple friend wonders about your romantic history.
A real friend could blackmail you with it.
A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest.
A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself.
A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument.
A real friend knows that it's not a friendship until after you've had a fight.
A simple friend expects you to always be there for them.
A real friend expects to always be there for you!
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Friendship Means...
By Rachel Chastain
You know you have a friend for life when they answer the phone at one in the morning because you can't sleep and have a lot on your mind, and they don't mind talking about nothing to get your mind off everything.
They spare some time to spend with you.
When you know that if something bad happened to you they'd be there for you, no questions asked.
When you can look at them when some thing is wrong and they know it just by the look in their eyes and all they have to do is offer a hug and you feel a thousand times better.
When you know that they'd never lie to you, and would never hurt you and if they did it would only be for your betterment.
They can make you laugh when skies are the darkest, and they're there with a good movie and some popcorn when you're totally depressed.
And even if you're a thousand miles apart, it doesn't matter because what you share with this friend is so much deeper then what lies on top that distance plays no role in your friendship.
Friendship is when they push when you need it, but never too hard; and stand back when the time is right but never to far.
And the true test of friendship is if you're willing to do it all back in a heartbeat.
When you're life is so much better because you know them, and they bring out the best that lies within.
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A short course in Human Relations:
The six most important words: "I admit I made a mistake."
The five most important words: "You did a good job."
The four most important words: "What is your opinion."
The three most important words: "If you please."
The two most important words: "Thank you."
The one most important word: "WE"
The least important word: "I"

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Written by Jessica Romenesko

What I've Learned About Friendship
• I've learned that there are many good friends around, but true best friends are hard to come by.
• I've learned that sometimes you love a best friend more than a boyfriend.
• I've learned that a best friend is more important than a boyfriend.
• I've learned that you can do something or nothing with a best friend and still have the best time.
• I've learned that a true friendship has many memories, both good and bad, but all important.
• I've learned that sometimes the most used part of a best friend is the shoulder you cry on, and the shoulder you are willing to lend.
• I've learned that when a best friend is happy, you find yourself happy too, even when it has nothing to do with you.
• I've learned that a best friend's family soon feels like your own.
• I've learned that the only one who truly understands is a true friend.
• I've learned that nothing ever sounds stupid, funny, or unbelievable to a best friend, and you never feel stupid saying whatever it is.
• I've learned that sometimes it feels like a best friend is the only one who will ever care about you and think you are beautiful in your own way.
• I've learned that you always have that something extra to give to a best friend in need, and can count on that in return.
• I've learned that your heart is forever touched by a true friend, no matter how things end up.
• I've learned that when your heart has been broken, a best friend is the best band-aid for it.
• I've learned that a best friend will call you in the middle of the night to talk without thinking, and it's OK.
• I've learned that in many cases, a hug and a kind word from a best friend is the only thing that helps get you through the day.
• I've learned that a best friend would stick up for you no matter what the consequences are.
• I've learned that best friends can sing at the top of their lungs and not worry about singing the wrong words or being out of tune.
• I've learned that best friends stay up all night and on the phone for hours talking without even realizing it.
• I've learned that a best friend can tell the difference between a silly crush, and more than that.
• I've learned that sometimes a best friend is all you have.
• I've learned that sometimes you wonder how she knew, but then you realize that's just how close you are.
• I've learned that when you are true best friends, everyone else knows it.
• I've learned that, most importantly of all, best friends will always be best friends, no matter what is happening in their lives, where they are, or what they are doing. A best friend is irreplaceable. This is the most important thing I could have ever been taught by a best friend.
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So as you see by the above words of poetry and writings, true real friends are the most wonderful gift that god can give us, hold onto them tight as they can never be replaced with money or material things.
These people are precious to our hearts and souls and they mean so much to us.
Tammy and I always say “I love you” as I believe friends should and do, before we close our text conversation as you never know when the last chance is to let your friend know that you do care for them and your thinking about them.
It is never too late to write your feelings down or record them, tell your friends or loved ones how YOU feel.
I am trying to do that every day of my life as I have no idea when god is going to say, hey Lu its time.
So please don’t put it off, do it today/tonight wherever you are in this big wide world of ours.
Tell someone how much you care for them, how much you love them, how much you appreciate what they do.
How hard can that be, not that hard because, hey I am doing it, and if I can do it you can too
Tammy thank you for the wonderful recording and for paying it forward.
As I said I cried.
**
You know what I think; well I think this should be forwarded to all of your friends, show them that you’re not alone and there are others just like you or can be like you.
Spreading to the world of good is such a wonderful thing and should never be hidden.
So what are you waiting for, send the link to this page to all of your friends and relatives, yes even your enemies, they may learn something.**

Ok I have written enough, if I keep writing it will end up being a book.

If you want to read more of my writings please look to the left side of the page and you will see a heading "List of my writings"
Just click on a topic

Hugs to you all, happy reading, and please take care, be safe.
Heart Of Hush aka Lu
Copyright Saturday 4th August 2007 @ 9-58am

DO NOT REPRODUCE MY WORDS IN ANY WAY, SHAPE OR FORM,
THIS IS MY INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY AND “MY COPYRIGHTS”,
ALL THE ABOVE WRITINGS ARE MY WORDS EXCEPT WHERE NOTED THAT I CREATED TODAY BEING Saturday 4th of August 2007

©Copyright 2007 Mrs. L Peters aka Heart Of Hush All Rights Reserved

Support Our Troops

2007-07-06T09:10:00.000+10:00

Good morning all,
Its 7-36am on the 6th July 2007
I am here writing again from a message that was given to me this morning.
The message or bringing awareness is in reference to the troops.
You see I/We Paltalk users had just finished doing another concert for the troops.
It is really important that that you understand why they are overseas.
This is from the way I see it and feel it inside my soul and also from my messenger who helps me.

All the troops from ALL over the world are fighting and not to mention dying for ALL of US not just some countries or not some of US, but ALL of US.
If you think differently then how about you go overseas, swap places with a trooper then tell US just how good you had it.
Let me explain something else, most of the troops signed up to learn a trade for a qualification in the work force, and yes they signed up to keep ALL of US safe from harm, which there doing a damn good job of it too I might add.

It is NOT the troop’s fault that we have this war so please stop blaming them; if you want to blame someone, blame the sides that can’t find a compromise to this situation because there so damn stubborn and mule headed.

When they signed up, they have to abide by the government in the orders placed, and if that means they are ordered to go to war they don’t have a say in it, so stop trashing out our troops and get onto the ones who are causing all this war, pain, injuries and death.
Firstly that would be the other side/bad feed/ then get onto the government and ask them to stop all this killing and work out some form of an agreement.
No wonder god is so mad at everyone, and if you think not, I suggest you stand back and take a good look at the weather patterns we are all having.

If the troops were not overseas do you think you would be able to walk around safely, I think not,
Do you think you could go to work, be with your families, get on the internet, I think not.
I ask you to think of everything that you do, everything that you freely go about your business every day, write it all down and then you will see just exactly what the troops are giving all of you, like I said not some of you but all of you.

So you know what, stop putting them down and I want you to think just how damn lucky you are that YOU can do all of this
They can’t,
I want you to firstly do this, after you have written down all the luxuries you have, I want you to then think to yourself how can you/I help any of the troops, even if it is just one it is better than nothing.
Then I want you to Google it, support the troops, send mail to the troops, think of any words relevant to them, if you have to sign up to the website then DO IT, then ask the site you have chosen or read the site of how YOU can help the troops while they are overseas fighting for YOU,

Get off your lazy butt and do something for them, and if you say why, ask yourself why are YOU FREE and they are over there fighting, and if you say to yourself oh I will do it soon or I will do it later, or even I don’t have the time, I am too busy, STOP right there because you and I both know you won’t do it.
So don’t put off today what you think you will do tomorrow, because we know you won’t do it.
So I ask you to prove me wrong but I want you to tell me all about it, what you did, how you did it but also what you achieved from doing this kind gesture to a trooper.

Are you Googling yet, its easy, hmm maybe I will add the links I found, then the rest is up to you.

Hhmm maybe the troops should say, they don’t have the time to fight for all of you disrespectful and ungrateful people.
Maybe they can say to you, oh I’m too tired and busy to bother about you, but hey news flash, they don’t.
They are in there fighting for all of you.
If I am too blunt and straight forward oh well someone needs to say it to all of you, you all need a good kick up the butt and be told to wake up to yourself.

I am sorry but as one of the many that do truly care, I am very strong in my thoughts of the troops and the situation there in and how and why they got in there in the first place, I am sorry if I have hurt your feelings, but I do care about people, that is me, if there is one thing I have learnt and that is speak up.

I know of some people that do actually do something and to them I give them a big thank you ever so much for giving just a little of your time for the troops.
The troops need to know that you care about what they are doing for you, that you do appreciate what they do. Remember they are giving up there lives to keep you safe, they are dying for you.

I have a few troops’ nic names on my Paltalk list and I had spoken to them for some time way back on the 14th January 2007, I made a promise to this young man and I am going to keep it, well I am doing it right now.
I am speaking out on behalf of all the troops,
I was talking to this trooper about the Christmas concert we all did for the troops way back in 2006, I gave the trooper the website link etc so he may be able to go and listen to the recordings from the concert.
But to also read the comments in the guestbook.

Well from our conversation you will see, I removed the troopers’ nic for safety reasons.
I am going to show you some of the quoted text from our conversation,
Please read what this trooper had said and I want you all to have a good think about it.

TROOPER>and I'm sorry but I didn't hear your concert I was probably out on patrol like I do for days at a time
Heart_Of_Hush: is there anyway I can post a cd to all of you
Heart_Of_Hush: with the recordings on
TROOPER>no ma'am, I'm sorry, I can't give out our location
Heart_Of_Hush: thats ok
Heart_Of_Hush: is there a mailing address
Heart_Of_Hush: a safe one for you all
Heart_Of_Hush: if i give you my email would you be able to let me know of items that can help you all
TROOPER>Ma’am I appreciate your offer but I have everything I need thank you anyway
Heart_Of_Hush: oh ok then
TROOPER>We get care packages on a regular basis cause of where we are ...
Heart_Of_Hush: ok
TROOPER> that's great that ya did a concert for all of us
Heart_Of_Hush: your welcome..i do hope the troops were you are, heard it
TROOPER> I'm not in a major camp ma'am, we don’t' have any radio or TV or anything way up where we are... but I'm sure they heard it at the main camp
Heart_Of_Hush: ok..i am sorry to hear that
Heart_Of_Hush: i wish i knew of a way to help you all up there
TROOPER>I'm about 200 km away from any sort of communications other than my laptop here
Heart_Of_Hush: ok
Heart_Of_Hush: thank you
TROOPER> we aren't allowed on our laptops that often
Heart_Of_Hush: ok
TROOPER> would you like the canadian military site for writing to the troops and making donations?
TROOPER> care pkgs and stuff?
TROOPER> http://www.forces.gc.ca/site/community/messageboard/index_e.asp
Heart_Of_Hush: thankyou
Heart_Of_Hush: i know many that want to help if they can
TROOPER> we read the message boards all the time ma'am
Heart_Of_Hush: oh ok good
Heart_Of_Hush: i have friends who live in canada i will let them know too
TROOPER> thank you ma'am *S*
Heart_Of_Hush: your welcome
TROOPER> I'm sure there's others, but that's the one we here look at every day for new messages *S*
Heart_Of_Hush: do you ok good
Heart_Of_Hush: i found many sites and i really had no idea which of all the troops sites were real
TROOPER> that site I gave you ma'am is the official canadian military site
Heart_Of_Hush: ok ty
TROOPER> it'll tell you what you can do and how to go about doin it
Heart_Of_Hush: ok ty
TROOPER> and... thank you for your support
TROOPER> we appreciate it
TROOPER> means a lot
Heart_Of_Hush: your welcome
Heart_Of_Hush: if i can help you any i will
TROOPER> keep tellin people I'd rather be here fighting than have it in my own back yard at home
Heart_Of_Hush: yes i know
Heart_Of_Hush: i dont think anyone wants it in there back yard so to speak
TROOPER> and I pray we all come home but not until we're done
Heart_Of_Hush: well i have been praying that this all ends soon and yes you come home safe to your families
TROOPER> can you picture any of us without 80% of our heat, or fuel to run our cars? or ... bein without homes and food because someone bombed it? the US and Canada nor the brits or anyone else could handle it
TROOPER> better we settle this all here where it's at
Heart_Of_Hush: yes i agree
TROOPER> back home, there'd be alot more people dead than what we're losin over here... it makes me angry when people say we shouldn't be here
TROOPER> we NEED to be here
Heart_Of_Hush: yes i know you need to be there
TROOPER> there's a lot of people who don't think so
Heart_Of_Hush: is there any where else you can oil from
Heart_Of_Hush: well why dont you write your thoughts down
TROOPER> ma'am, we all think the same thing here
Heart_Of_Hush: i will gladly add it to a webpage
Heart_Of_Hush: but keep your names off the writings
TROOPER> it's been written down lots of places.. nobody listens
Heart_Of_Hush: yea i get that too
Heart_Of_Hush: no one listens
TROOPER> they ignore it cause it doesn't affect them... so they think
Heart_Of_Hush: well send something to me and i will see what i can do about haveing it heard for you
TROOPER> you can quote what I've already typed if you like
Heart_Of_Hush: ok ty

So you see what this trooper had to say about it all,
He doesn’t have all the services like radio and TV, he doesn’t have the luxuries like the rest of us
All I am asking is if you can find it in your heart to help them just a little, maybe make their time overseas a little bit more comfortable.

Here is another conversation I had with another trooper the same night
Of course I removed the name

2nd TROOPER

Heart_Of_Hush: is there anyway I can post a cd to all of you with the recordings on
Heart_Of_Hush: ok ty
2nd TROOPER>> not where I'm at
Heart_Of_Hush: ok
2nd TROOPER>> tell you another way also to get a list & get things sent
2nd TROOPER>> check with your local VFW or American Legion.....
2nd TROOPER>> a lot of them have lists of what soldiers need & ways to get it to them other than civie mail
Heart_Of_Hush: I have visited many sites and you know i have no idea if they are real or not
2nd TROOPER>> do you have a VFW or American Legion post close to where you live?
2nd TROOPER>> that's what I was talking about
Heart_Of_Hush: I am in Australia
2nd TROOPER>> oooooh
Heart_Of_Hush: is ok
Heart_Of_Hush: I had some people that wanted to help but they didn’t look where i did
2nd TROOPER>> I'm looking for a site that I know is a bonafided adopt a soldier type site
Heart_Of_Hush: i do understand the security
Heart_Of_Hush: ok ty
Heart_Of_Hush: that would help me a lot
2nd TROOPER>> http://soldiersangels.org/
2nd TROOPER>> I know that one is a true site
Heart_Of_Hush: ok ty
2nd TROOPER>> yw
Heart_Of_Hush: I saw that one
2nd TROOPER>> ok
Heart_Of_Hush: I visited many of them and i got myself totally confused
2nd TROOPER>> my last tour....... I saw packages come in from that group.... their address labels & stuff have Soldier's Angel on it
Heart_Of_Hush: ok good
Heart_Of_Hush: well now i will tell people
2nd TROOPER>> they're all non-profit from what I've seen too
Heart_Of_Hush: yes
Heart_Of_Hush: how many are with you
2nd TROOPER>> I just redeployed.... got here yesterday....... there's probably 200 or so
Heart_Of_Hush: really
Heart_Of_Hush: wowwwww
Heart_Of_Hush: i do wish all this would stop for you and everyone else
2nd TROOPER>> this is really a small group in comparison to other places I've been
Heart_Of_Hush: oh ok
Heart_Of_Hush: i was reading on a site that showed how many was in the particular section
2nd TROOPER>> the internet is cool....... good info if you know where to look
Heart_Of_Hush: yes it is
Heart_Of_Hush: i found ways to send messages
2nd TROOPER>> yeah there's a few sites like that
Heart_Of_Hush: yes i found them to be good
2nd TROOPER>> that's cool ?
Heart_Of_Hush: yes i just put the link in my away message beside my nic and one person read the page and signed the guestbook
2nd TROOPER>> here's a site that has general "message to soldiers" & a lot of good info
2nd TROOPER>> http://www.usafns.com/email.shtml#A0
Heart_Of_Hush: ok ty
2nd TROOPER>> and it covers all branches
Heart_Of_Hush: ok ty

How easy is the task to pay it forward, giving of an act of kindness, good deed for what these troops all do for us.
So please, I ask all of you to stand beside the troops and help them in any way you can, don’t put it off
Do it today, tonight…do it right now.
Help the troops; write a letter even, how hard is that.
Anyways I have flapped my gums enough here you get the idea, well
At least I hope you have,
I have recordings to edit and upload from the recent troop’s concert for the 2007 4th of July Concert for the Troops..
Oh btw….send this message out to everyone you know,
Radio stations, newspapers, news TV, your emails, add it to support the troop’s websites,
Add to your blog, message board, website, and journal; let’s get the word out people.

We need to get the word out to stop all this fighting and more communication between the governments to be able to bring home our troops.
If you want this fighting to stop, if you want this war to stop,
Then do something about it, and please don’t think what can I do, you can voice your words, speak up in support, of the war to be stopped and these stubborn, hard headed governments stop playing with peoples lives and come to some form of an agreement.

How hard can that really be, I guess it is hard for them because we are still at war.
Hhmmmmm thinking.
I had this thought to go look on a karaoke program called singsnap.

It was approx 10-45am here when I found this recording by a special person,
I had no idea it was even here, seems all my above writing was meant to be and the messenger had a reason for waking me up and most of all sending me the message
Seems I was in the right place at the right time to find the following recording.
Thank you everyone for taking the time to read what I had to write and also now to listen to the recording.
They fit well together, like a glove.
God Bless and be safe
Hugssssssssss
Heart Of Hush

DO NOT REPRODUCE MY WORDS IN ANY WAY, SHAPE OR FORM,
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ALL THE ABOVE WRITINGS ARE MY WORDS EXCEPT WHERE NOTED THAT I CREATED TODAY BEING Friday 6th July, 2007

©Copyright 2007 Mrs. L Peters aka Heart Of Hush All Rights Reserved

The 4th of July Concert For The troops

2007-06-30T14:06:00.001+10:00

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Thank You for dropping by, as you can see I have made a recording advertising
The 4th Of July Concert For The Troops.

http://4thjuly.topcities.com/index.html
http://4thjuly.topcities.com/enter.html
http://4thjuly.topcities.com/story.html

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©Copyright 2007 Mrs. L Peters aka Heart Of Hush All Rights Reserved

Artists InConcert on Paltalk

2007-06-16T17:54:00.000+10:00

Paltalk has many categories of rooms and one of them is the music section

I will add images of the rooms to give you an idea of what I am talking about.

In the music rooms many singers perform and many people like to just play music, some of the room owners ask artists/singers to perform in there room in concert.

I am one of the many room owners that have done just that, however I had set up my room with the assistance of Crazyfeet40 and Papa-Vamp as the only room for concert performances only.

We only opened the room when we had a booking for concerts/special performance shows.

There are many other rooms that do concerts from time to time.

In some cases you will find that the rooms in the music category have rooms titled with famous artists’ names, or even special occasions/events.

I personally opened my room for the 2006 Online Christmas Concert Tribute for the Troops that included many very talented Singing Artists/Master Of Ceremonies/ and not to mention the respectful guests that entered the room over the 14 hours of it being open.

Oh btw we did have some special listeners, you see we had The President of USA Mr. George Bush who took some time out for approx an hour to listen to all of the featured artists and guests, then not to mention the 23 million troops that were listening to everyone on Paltalk.

Competitions and contests are held, special circumstance rooms have been created for example benefits or fundraising rooms.

If you take a look in the music category you will soon get an idea of the style of music rooms there is.

There is plenty to choose from.

I will be back from time to time to add some more text

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©Copyright 2007 Mrs. L Peters aka Heart Of Hush All Rights Reserved

Crazyfeet40 2006 Birthday On Paltalk

2007-06-16T17:50:00.000+10:00

There was another birthday party that comes to mind and that is Crazyfeet40’s birthday in 2006.

You see I did in fact know it was her birthday and she had told me previously on the phone that she wouldn’t have been home let alone be on Paltalk, you see I was going to organize for a birthday room for her, well to my surprise she logged on, I instantly said happy birthday to her and gave her hugs etc as best you can do on Paltalk.

I thought wow I would be able to spend some time with my friend on her birthday.

Then I decided to advertise it to everyone that was on my list on Paltalk in the way of an away text message saying HAPPY BIRTHDAY CRAZYFEET40 and yes in the exact way I just typed it.

You see no one else remembered her birthday,Crazyfeet40 had told me that later on, not her online daughter, not her online bro, well not until I told them that is, and here is me just her friend that remembers and I told her online daughter in a private text message and yes I got the medical problem, not them, go figure.

I was making sure that in my mind I didn’t forget her.

Anyways she was invited to a new room that she had never been to before by her friends and they celebrated her birthday with her in that room.

Why they didn’t make her own birthday room I have no idea.

However in that new room they were using a colour text that I couldn’t be around, we did ask them to change it however they refused to do that so I left not wanting Crazyfeet’s birthday ruined.

It wasn’t up to Crazyfeet to do anything it was up to her so called online daughter and bro.

I told Crazyfeet to have a wonderful night, with every one and I will catch up with her later.

So you see, good things can and do happen on Paltalk, you just need to open your eyes and yes your heart.

I will be back from time to time to add some more text.

DO NOT REPRODUCE MY WORDS IN ANY SHAPE OR FORM, THIS IS MY INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY AND “MY COPYRIGHTS”, ALL THE ABOVE WRITINGS ARE MY WORDS EXCEPT WHERE NOTED THAT I CREATED TODAY BEING Thursday 7th June, 2007

©Copyright 2007 Mrs. L Peters aka Heart Of Hush All Rights Reserved

Birthday Parties/Bashes on Paltalk

2007-06-16T17:47:00.000+10:00

On Paltalk we have had birthday parties/bashes for our friends on Paltalk,

I had in fact created a surprise birthday party for a special lady last year (2006).As I said a surprise, you see I had asked Paltalk if they would help me give this lady a special surprise for her birthday, they said how can we help you, I asked them to boot her offline long enough so that we all could set the room up with all her friends on Paltalk.

You see funny enough we were doing a concert with her and another friend of hers Ozzie_99_au it was an accident that we set the date as Ozzie_99_au had mentioned the date that he was available that suited him and low and behold it was the night before her birthday but I believe it was meant to be because of the out come of the long night ahead of us.

We had the room title and text already set for the concert, so we had to make some changes to suit for her surprise birthday party.

Crazyfeet40 changed the room title, she made it look nice and pretty, classy like, the admins changed our text for the surprise birthday party, we all started sending out invites for all of her friends to be in the room, everyone was hiding kinda, the atmosphere was wonderful and exciting, I had her friends say to me, its midnight where is she..

All her friends and the guests was getting all excited for what was about to happen.

You see I asked that she be booted offline right before her birthday date, like just before the stroke of midnight, that way when she came back online and she came into the room we could all type..yell…surprise and happy birthday to Tammy aka Voiceee Of Angelll was known as Heart Of Angell1.

Well she was having some trouble getting back online, however she got back on and I quickly invited her back to the room that she thought the concert was still going,

And yes as planned out everyone in the room did type happy birthday to her.

Crazyfeet took the mic and gave a wonderful speech for Tammy’s Birthday.

Hands were raised as many people wanted to sing a special song or two for Tammy.

However, Tammy took the mic with tears rolling down her face with so much joy and excitement she was lost for words, she had never even suspected that we all would have done this for her.

She was so very happy, it was very emotional for her, she couldn’t sing after that so we gave her some time to breathe and get herself together and listen to the songs that were being dedicated to her for her birthday by her friends, and guests.

Then when Tammy was able to re take the microphone she said thank you to all of us and then proceeded to sing for us.

We all had so much fun on Paltalk and especially celebrating her birthday on her birthday time and date; we all enjoyed each others company, we all acknowledged everyone respectfully that took the microphone, we enjoyed the birthday party that went on to early hours in the morning until we eventually had to close the room.

I will be back from time to time to add some more text.

DO NOT REPRODUCE MY WORDS IN ANY SHAPE OR FORM, THIS IS MY INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY AND “MY COPYRIGHTS”, ALL THE ABOVE WRITINGS ARE MY WORDS EXCEPT WHERE NOTED THAT I CREATED TODAY BEING Wednesday 6th June, 2007

©Copyright 2007 Mrs. L Peters aka Heart Of Hush All Rights Reserved

More Of My Paltalk WriteUp1

2007-06-16T17:44:00.000+10:00

Saturday, June 02, 2007 5:48:09 PM
On Paltalk there have been memorials/funerals.

You see as I said up^^ there some of us get close to people and then if our friend or acquaintance is sick/dying/ill and passes away, I would, as many others have done, would have what we call a memorial service, kinda like a funeral service, however we do it on Paltalk. Yes we do it on Paltalk.
We/I mourn, We/I cry, We/I miss the loved one, We/I grieve, just as anyone else does outside of Paltalk in the real world, as we know it from our home towns, county, suburbs, states, country.
We/I, pay our respects, We/I, express our condolences, and when We/I do a memorial room on Paltalk we do this full of love and compassion that comes from within our hearts and soul, we have and can sing from our hearts as we all believe that the loved one is watching over us and you better believe it, they are.
We remind ourselves and others in the room of all the good times we shared with the loved one, just as you do at the after funeral service or wake in the real world.
Just recently I had done a few memorials and I asked many people that even if you don’t know the person that passed away, how hard can it be, to drop by the room and pay your respects.
I say that, as one of my friends had contacted me about a loved one they knew, just in case I know of the person and yes I said what others say to me, I didn’t know the person, however I mentioned to her I was busy doing something.
You see I had it MY mind to try and hurry up and finish doing what I was doing to go to the room and pay my respects and offer my condolences and no I did not know the person.
I didn’t know I had to know someone to do that. To show compassion, be respectful for someone.
The family of the loved one was in the room and I typed and expressed my feelings and they were appreciative of me doing that.
Giving a little love and understanding is one of my easiest things I can do for someone, why because I can that’s why; I know just a little something goes a long way. If I did that then I have achieved.
Funny enough from one of the last memorials, I made the comment in my text to people on my lists of invites I had sent out to people in reference to coming into the memorial room, that even if you didn’t know the person and quite a few guests came into the room to pay there respects and yes they didn’t know the person but hey I had the family member in the room and they was happy they came in.
I will be back from to time to add some more text.
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My Paltalk Write Up

2007-06-16T17:37:00.000+10:00

Saturday, June 02, 2007 5:48:09 PM

Good Morning all, it is 9:36am.

Well I was woken up by some fire sirens earlier on.

You see when sirens go off my dogs start howling, so I have to go to each one of them, yes all 4 and get them to shush and settle down.

I took 2 of them out to the front yard to go to the bathroom so to speak, and it seems that there was a fire across the road in the neighbours back entrance this morning.

The smoke nearly killed me,

However the fire workers had it all under control and the fire was put out.

So I didn’t stay out the front too long, and I got myself and the dogs inside quickly.

Well there goes my plans for doing the gardening today again like I had planned to.

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So guess what, I am here writing once again, don’t you just love this writing, hehe J

Today I was going to tell you some of the most precious times I have had on Paltalk and what I believe is a positive thing about Paltalk.

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I am sure you all think I am way to deep but hey sometimes you need to read from personal experiences.

And remember I have just started to write all this down and I am using my writings to deal with issues.

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Anyways I wanted to tell you some of the good things that CAN happen on Paltalk, some of the things that HAS happened on Paltalk. Why they occurred, you get the idea.

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I need to tell you that first of all MOST of us are REAL people, with REAL feelings, regardless of who tells me those chat rooms is fantasy and full of liars, cheats, players etc.

Yes I know they are.

But hey, wake up call we all have that outside in the real world, its just that we are seeing it and feeling it more, because we are so close and upfront with it. Like its in your face, how can you miss it.

You take more notice because you are thinking and concentrating on your computer screen.

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We hear all this stuff on our TV News, Radio, Newspapers and some of us are like wow,

You know something it could have been you or your neighbour oh heavens even a family relative.

So chat rooms is no different, it’s just there is a different way to handle it.

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On Paltalk many of us are like a family, we can bond a very close relationship with people, as a friend, or in a relationship to where you can be eventually engaged and yes even married, or become a Mother/Father/Sister/Brother/Aunt/Uncle.

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And yes there are many illegal things that occur however if you don’t report them, then Paltalk and the police cannot assist you or the police if it gets to that point.

And yes it has come to that point at times.

I personally have contacted Paltalk admins/support to notify them of illegal incidents.

And yes they dealt with it.

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ALL THE ABOVE WRITINGS ARE MY WORDS EXCEPT WHERE NOTED THAT I CREATED TODAY BEING SATURDAY 2nd June 2007 18:51:20
©Copyright 2007 Mrs. L Peters aka Heart Of Hush All Rights Reserved

How Can I Prove Myself

2007-06-16T17:33:00.000+10:00

I am just here writing away again as all this needs to be said.

I guess the websites I had visited helped me write more.

I will add the links of the websites that I had visited for you all to read.

Maybe they will open your eyes and your heart.

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How can I prove to people that I am real, that I do care for all the things that I have done since I was a little girl,

How can I show them that I do truly care and what I have done in the past I meant everything that was sent from my heart and soul.

How can I justify my actions of being kind to others?

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When I have done good things all I ever get is bad people from Paltalk trashing me out and making all the good that I did into a bad thing.

When I have stood up for someone else to the abusers and bullies online, Paltalk people looked down on me, frowned upon me as I shouldn’t do that, I don’t get it, why can’t you help someone feel safe and protected and above all show that you care.

Giving a helping hand is one of the best things you can do for anyone.

Try it sometime, you may just feel it.

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When are you people going to find the courage or guts to say to that bad person to stop there actions and please don’t say oh but its none of my business and oh more drama

For heaven sake get with it, stop saying all that crap and start helping people

Would you stand there and let someone hurt your friend in the street, hey it doesn’t even have to be a friend, maybe it’s a family relative, so take the label off would you help just a passer by.

Your answer could be yes I would help them and if that is so why is it so darn hard for people on Paltalk to help.

I bet your saying but there my friends etc well helloooo good people don’t abuse or bully and that’s a fact and if you support there actions that shows others just the type of person you really are and what you really do support

Bullying and Abuse

Associating with Bullies and Abusers shows that you approve of there actions.

Shows your morale standards, your way of living and what you are willing to live with, regardless who it hurts.

Someday you people will find the courage or guts to say to those people your behaviour is not acceptable and I do not wish to associate with your kind, you know what, just maybe you can make a difference in your life and hey even maybe there life and guess what that is your act of kindness coming out of you, Go Figure.

However if they choose not to change there evil, bad ways, do you really want to be connected to them.

That’s like saying you approve of there actions.

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Why is it so hard to help someone that needs support sometimes?

Why is it so hard for others to believe?

Why do I have to prove myself and why do I have to justify everything I do every time I do it

Why cant people believe that there is someone on Paltalk that really does care

Why is it so hard for people on Paltalk to trust just one person?
Why is ok for others to do the exact same things I have done on Paltalk and its ok for them but its not ok for me to do it.
Why are people so jealous of good people?

Why do the bad people have to hurt the good people?

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I do have a suggestion, try listening to the weather changes that is occurring all around the world, I do believe someone is trying to get your attention however no one is listening.

Do you remember one of the ghost busters movies and in it the ghostbusters got the statue of liberty in the hope to spread the word of love and goodness into the world to fight away the bad evil stuff that was happening in the world to help and save the people.

Maybe you need to re watch that movie and think about your actions to others.

If people keep following the bad or evil things in this world I am sure there is going to be some more serious changes.

Oh btw I was sent some DVD’s from Crazyfeet40, in my package of DVD’s she had sent me

The green mile, Pay it forward, and touched by angel x 2 sets.

She sent them to me because she said they reminded her of me and what I did without knowing.

Can I suggest to you all to take the time out of your busy schedules to stop and sit down and watch some of the above

They sure are an eye opener

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I am the person you see, I do care, and I have actually been told I care too much

If you really open your eyes you will see that all of my actions are real and from the heart, there not fake

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I realized the following text this morning

I guess MY messenger is helping me once again with thoughts.

You know something, from the television shows that I have watched in the past especially the biblical ones, I had seen god roaming the countryside offering his hand and doing things from his heart with the love that he had for anyone and everyone.

And yes he was bad mouthed and punished for doing good things,

Why is it so hard for all of you Paltalk users/people to believe in me

I guess you don’t really believe in god and what he did for others

How come it is so hard for you to believe that all I have done was for good intentions and not bad ones and yet just like god I am being tortured and trashed by the bad ones?

No wonder he made up the Ten Commandments

Now I understand more as why he did

There are so many people breaking the laws of god and yes even the legal system we run by in this day and age

You know something even though I was recently trashed and dogged for doing something good for someone I still had it my heart to keep trying and going forward, Just like god did so I have come to realize, I had it in my mind to keep going I guess just like god did

And funny enough someone said this to me a few weeks back, that even though I was having such a hard time with a situation I was sitting here helping that person with some pain they was dealing with.

So yes I will keep to my ways of stretching out my hand as an offering to others and yes I get down and out over the bad ones but eventually I will pick up and keep going.

You people can think in your head oh she is on a glory run as I have been previously accused of and yes you can say or think she is blowing her trumpet as yes I have been accused of that too

But you know something that is YOUR evil words coming out of your mouth and you know what your evil bad ways don’t count.

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It is what I have successfully achieved in this world and trust me I have achieved a lot and I will be proudly writing about all of it , and I don’t care if you bad people don’t like it or get jealous, its really easy , try being good for once you may just like it and get a real shock about yourself.

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I have many thoughts and I have this wish, that people all over the world start being kinder, believe in good people, hey and above all listen to your gut instincts, but in general you need to LISTEN and be AWARE.

All I am asking of you all is to step back, watch, be aware, and listen, but also feel it.

And act upon your instincts, you may be surprised of what you see and hear.

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I wish that people would stop telling darn lies about me and anyone else they are lying about.

I wish that people would stop being so cruel in there actions and there words.

I wish people would find the damn courage to speak up and say what your aware of it just may save someone someday.

I wish that people didn’t make doing a good thing such a bad thing

I wish for love, friendship, kindness, faith, hope,

I wish that all the bad feeds that have hurt me, inflicted pain onto me and others like me would ask for help to stop there evil ways.

All you bad feeds that have hurt me, I know that you will be punished in someway, someday.

I learnt from my friends the saying, what goes around comes around 10 times fold.

I have also learnt they WILL be punished, it may not be to them personally however it could be one of there friends, there family so to all you bad feeds watch out and see if someone you know or close will get punished for YOUR actions, I believe it is called Karma.

Oh would you like to know who the bad feeds are in my life,

Just be aware and remember what I said up there.

Denise Reins, (Denise’s Lynch Mob are as follows)

Rampant Lion 1, 1Cowboy4U, la_femm_nikita, blues_man11,Travis1961, ATL Steve,

JustinElias80, Daddys_Bwaaat, Cassy, Dolphin Chic, Hiya Its Chris, Charndon

Summer Thunder

I will be writing about every single one of the above and there abusive and bullying actions.

You know something, for some reason I went and done some research on websites pertaining to bullying, abuse and I also came across bullying in the work place.

Funny enough I learnt quite a lot there as everything I have been doing for myself and others for many years was sitting there right in front of my face as I read and read.I guess I needed to remind myself and god sent me there to read once again.

I smiled to know that unknowingly I was doing the right thing for everyone concerned and I was glad I did.

However on the sites it said, don’t keep the actions of the bullies or abusers a secret, you need to tell someone and to get help, well gee seems I am doing just that right now.

I wont be keeping things quiet of who has inflicted pain to me.

The sites made me more aware that I have rights just as everyone else does, the sites made me more aware not to let the bullies and abusers get away with there actions.

Hey the sites also told me why they do it

And you know something they (the bullies & abusers) have no right to hurt any of us because of there insecurities, there bad feed and evil ways.

I have the right to ban these people from my life, my room on Paltalk to make me and others feel safe.

You know something it is your choice to be a bad person in your life, however keep it away from all of us.

You know something else, I don’t log into the chatroom everyday and visit like I use too many years ago.

So how is it that the chatroom users accuse me of being on a glory run, wow you have to be on the chatroom program to get your glory, now don’t you.

And the term used Blowing your trumpet, you chatroom users have no idea just exactly what I have in fact done and that doesn’t mean on the chatroom program either, I have done achieved things from behind the scenes so to speak.

I am going to keep helping the world as has been asked of me.

Instead of going against me why not try helping me make this world a better place.

Maybe some of us good people can make a difference on this chat room program.

I had been told many years ago that to be on the chat room program you have to think of it as living on the streets so to speak, it is all fantasy, not real, full of liars and players etc and that it is like a game.

I for one do not live on the streets, I am real just as many others, so maybe its time all you GOOD people took a stand and stand up for your place on the chat room program and make it real and full of fake people.

Why do you think so many good people have left the program, they are just tired of all the lies and deceit.

Please don’t listen to the lies of others, if you want to get to know me ask me

Watch what I do if you need to, I don’t mind.

Please don’t judge me by someone else’s words, that’s all I ask

Anyways I have said enough, you get the idea though

Have a happy life, Happy Reading,

God Bless you all

Hugsssssssssssssssss

Lu aka Heart_Of_Hush

DO NOT REPRODUCE MY WORDS IN ANY SHAPE OR FORM, THIS IS MY INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY AND “MY COPYRIGHTS”, ALL THE ABOVE WRITINGS ARE MY WORDS EXCEPT WHERE NOTED THAT I CREATED TODAY BEING WEDNESDAY 05/30/07 22:41:04
©Copyright 2007 Mrs. L Peters aka Heart Of Hush All Rights Reserved

Memory Keepsakes

2007-06-16T17:28:00.000+10:00

I am here writing to you all to explain about the Memory Keepsake Frames.
I will be telling you the following
How these memory keepsake frames came about
One night in 2004 I had a dream/vision/inspiration/message you named it as you choose to,
In my dream I was to create online concerts which I have achieved, you can read how that came about later.
In my dream I saw what I had to do after any of the artists that did a concert with me and that was to give all these people what I have labeled as my Memory Keepsake Frames.
In my dream I was guided to the design of the paper to which I had purchased, then the wording that I had to print on the specialty paper, then to the purchased photo/certificate frames they had to be special as best I could find, even the style in some cases, I was lucky enough to find some really classy style frames for this special gift I was to give to all the artists, I even found hearts and stars that I could add as a special effect.
After my dream I did tell someone about it, her name is Crazyfeet40, I could only tell her bits and pieces because you see Crazyfeet40 was getting one too.
So I went out to the shops to look for this special paper I was to use, I searched high and low until I finally came to a shop that had the perfect style paper, the paper had a music type boarder with music notes, there was 2 colours to choose from, however I bought both of them, so I was able to have one colour for females and the other colour for the males.
They were just perfect, and then I went about buying some hearts and stars to add to the effect.
Next thing I had to do was search for some special frames, they had to be just right and if they wasn’t I was going to make sure they was.
I looked for black certificate photo frames, with gold trim if it was possible and yes in some cases it was possible.
Next I sat down and typed out the wording and set out for the printing, I didn’t have a personal home printer so I had to find a printing business that would print these for me.
The printing business was very kind, the owner let me drop off the special paper and my disk with the designs for each and every person that was to get these Memory Keepsake Frames and he then printed them and delivered them to my home.
I was very grateful and excited that everything was going to plan so to speak.
Then I put all these memory keepsake frames together for just about every single artist with the exception of a couple.
When did I give these memory keepsakes frames?
I gave these Memory Keepsake Frames after the artists had performed in there concert.
I would then send them there Memory Keepsake Frame.
I bet your wondering how I sent them the frame, how I got there personal home address.
Read on
You see I did this by asking the artist in question if they would give me a snail mail address for them, a postal address for there home as I wanted to send them a surprise, they had no idea what I was sending them and yes they gave me there address for me to send them there surprise package.
I did mention to them if they was uncertain or they felt they shouldn’t trust me that I truly do understand and I accept there decision.
However they gave me there address.
On one occasion an artist was very private but I never let that beat me, you see we had a mutual friend and that friend had her address so what I did was send it to the mutual friend and then that friend sent the Memory Keepsake Frame to her on my behalf.
I remember going to my post office to find out how much it will cost to send each frame and the costing of the padded bag to send the frames in, then to organize posting of some of the frames for example and one of the customers saw the frames and made the comment they looked great and that it was a great idea I had.
So I would pack them and then send them on there way, then I had to wait and hope the artists I had sent the frames too would soon receive there Memory Keepsake Frame.
They did, you see, when I had sent them, I would send the artist in question a text message and let them know to watch for a parcel and if they would let me know when it arrived so I knew they had received the memory keepsake frame.
After I had put the frames together, packed them in the hope they didn’t break, sent them on there way from the post office, I got these cold chills type feelings, I have learn that they mean it was a confirmation that I did what I had to do and it was just right.
Why did I give these memory keepsake frames?

I gave the Memory Keepsake Frames because of my dream I was sort of messaged to do this for certain people is all I know, some how I knew who was the bad feeds and yes sometimes I made mistakes, hey I am human but most of the artists that I gave the frames to are all good feeds.
What I was to achieve by giving these Memory Keepsake Frames
There happiness, there smiles, a sense of achievement for them, the joy it gave them from what I did for them, I was hoping they would get the feeling of be proud and honored, what I was able to give to them and most of all, I was not expecting anything in return I am hoping the gift touched there heart and soul as I was to give it to them.

I was given the ability to be able to do this and yet again I have successfully achieved doing what has been asked of me. The end result that came from the artists speaks loud and proud.

Behind the frame

This came within my dream as well, you see I wrote all the artists a special personal message from me and yes on some special paper. My message to them was from within my heart and soul, I am wondering if any of them actually found it apart from Treespike and Ozzie_99_au, told me he found my true heart behind the frame.
Who received these Memory Keepsake Frames?

Here is the list of every artist I posted the Memory Keepsake Frame too

I do have a few more frames to send and then they will all be completed.

PureKountryBoy

Kass, K A T H Y

Papa-Vamp

Firedance-

Crazyfeet40

Standing Wolf

Denise Reins = Bad Feed

Treespike

Ramblinman

CurSedVoyce

Tigger_92

Jesse_Stone

Whitewolf2

Bonny2000

Ocean_Eyes = (dragons_swan_spirit)

Heart Of Angell1 = (Voiceee Of Angelll)

Eagleswindcry

Rose In Full Bloom

Ozzie_99_au

SlvrEagle

DMI_CARETAKER

Sasha_aust

CajunCrawfish_N_ColdBeer…..to be posted

Okie50

Willie8532…to be posted
I would have liked to have sent frames to the following people but I knew they was very private people from our previous conversations and they may not have given me an address to send them there frame

BootsnBra

Steven Patrick

I would have liked to have sent frames to the following people but they are very private people and they did not want to give me an address to send them there frame.

DenimandDiamonds

Just_Shifter
If any of the following people wish to have there Memory Keepsake they can print them for themselves and of course frame it if you wish

BootsnBra

Steven Patrick

DenimandDiamonds

Just_Shifter

Gottaluvit64

Katrose

Gina Loves Guitars

CalicoKat

Voice_

MelodiousAngel
HammerFla.
Jasmine/Wife to TEAM MX
Ms_Truckin_Bluey
So you see, every artist that did a concert with me, they all received this Memory Keepsake Frame from me for doing the concert in my room named Heart Of Hush’s Entertainment X*T*R*A*V*A*G*A*N*Z*A (now known as)

Heart Of Hush and Her Featured Performers InConcert
And they didn’t have to compete to receive this Memory Keepsake Frame, I just asked them if they would do a concert in my room and they said yes. They had no idea I was going to send this Memory Keepsake Frame to them. Surprise is the best way to give somebody something special from the heart. Because some artists turned out to be of a bad feed they did not receive the frame from me personally however they have the opportunity to print it out if they wish. I am wondering if the artists found my extra surprise.

This is what a Good & Bad Feed is

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.

He said, "My son, the battle is between 2 "wolves" inside us all.

One is Evil. BAD FEED

It is Anger, Envy, Jealousy, Sorrow, Regret, Greed, Arrogance, Self-Pity, Guilt, Resentment, Inferiority, Lies, False Pride, Superiority, Addictions, All Forms of Abuse, Bullying and Ego.
The other is Good. GOOD FEED

It is Joy, Peace, Love, Hope, Serenity, Humility, Kindness, Benevolence, Empathy, Generosity, Truth, Loyalty ,Respect, Compassion, Honorable, Good Deeds, Act Of Kindness , Pay It Forward and Faith."
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather:

"Which wolf wins?"
The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."

If people are of bad feeds i want nothing to do with them...regardless if they hurt me or not, The point is I know they can do it and are able to do it to someone else and it also means they are capable of doing it to me. DO NOT REPRODUCE MY WORDS IN ANY SHAPE OR FORM, THIS IS MY INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY AND “MY COPYRIGHTS”, ALL THE ABOVE WRITINGS ARE MY WORDS EXCEPT WHERE NOTED THAT I CREATED TODAY BEING WEDNESDAY 05/30/07 20:26:53

©Copyright 2007 Mrs. L Peters aka Heart Of Hush All Rights Reserved

Good Deeds Achieved

2007-06-16T17:19:00.000+10:00

Good Deeds Achieved

I am writing this story of a wonderful lady named Crazyfeet40 that lives in USA .

This lady had sent me some DVD's in 2006,

One day in 2006 I was on the telephone with Crazyfeet40 who had asked me about what movies I liked and have watched, I told her I loved the TV show Touched by an Angel,

I told her everything around stops so that I can sit for 1 hour to watch it.

I told her that every time I watch the shows the tears fall even as the show begins,

And I can feel everything of what I was watching, weird I know but I can’t explain it, I feel this unexplained feeling inside of me near my heart I guess.

Seems I hadn’t mentioned certain DVDs to her, she was kinda fishing to find out what I had and loved without me knowing but I knew.

I could feel her clock ticking over as she was asking me, I guess she forgot I can feel things however I didn’t mind because I am an open book to anyone that asks me

After she was done fishing we carried on with our conversation.

She told me to watch for a parcel that she was sending me by snail mail to my personal home address.

Crazyfeet had told me, that what she was sending me, reminded her of me, I had no idea what she was talking about and so I waited not knowing exactly what she had in mind of sending to me.

Well my mail came and to my surprise Crazyfeet sent me the following DVDs,

Touched By An Angel, 2 sets of total 7 DVD's

The Green Mile

Pay It Forward

The Sixth Sense

Unfortunately I did not have a DVD player at the time and I was unable to watch them until I had enough money to buy one.

Remember our conversation that I had just mentioned I loved the show Touched By An Angel and now because of my friend I have all of the DVDs to watch at my leisure.

Every time I watch them the tears roll with out fail, I guess the shows are so much a part of me.

I can feel the shows I watch in my heart and soul,

I feel something special inside of me, like I am meant to be watching them for a purpose or something;

I guess god will tell me when the time is right.

I wish I knew how to explain it, but I don’t.

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Now the Green Mile,

I had no idea about this movie, never had seen it or even heard about it, I guess not having my TV on for quite a long time I was naive to the outside world and of movies.

Well I was blown away with tears and non stop crying within 10 minutes of starting to watch this movie until the end, it was like I was watching myself and my life all over, I was so lost for words it was so scary to watch this and seeing that the actor who played John Coffey was showing me, my life and just who I am, what I go through in my every day life, even to the fact me unknowingly said the exact same words more or less as he did..

He wanted to die to stop feeling the badness in this world we live in, he said he can’t stand the feelings he can feel inside his soul as I do.

Its like the movie was on me and like many others with similar gifts in this big wide world we live in, weird I know but it was a shock to me to watch it, I am sure there are many more people out there with special gifts that have been given to us all by god.

Now I truly understand one of the many things that my friend was making me aware of by giving me this DVD.

We now have Pay It Forward,

I had no idea what this movie was or even about, never had heard of it before or even its concept.

From watching this movie I was also blown away as me not knowing but I was actually paying it forward to so many people around the whole world but you know something I didn’t know it had a label that consists of “Paying It forward”, to me it was what came from within my heart in my every day life. It is who I am.

It is what came as a natural thing to do to so many people including many of my friends and acquaintances with out expecting anything in return.

I know that I have achieved giving every single person something special and most of all from my heart.

It is fantastic to see and know of the many people that have smiled from something I could have ever done for them, hopefully it gave them this most wondrous feeling inside of there hearts and soul and that makes me the happiest to know I can and have done that.

I have actually done the main concept more than just 3 times but I had no idea there was a number limit, I will just keep doing what I do and most of all it comes naturally.

That makes me the proudest.

Wow I am so tickled that I can actually help so many people smile; God did give me a special gift.

For that I am ever so grateful and I do appreciate what he has given me to offer to so many people world wide.

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I thank truly Crazyfeet40 once again for giving me insight to what she knew of me, which I had no idea about.

From the DVD and from talking to her on the telephone I now, know what she means when she says things to me like I have a white/pure heart. I don’t feel she understands what it means to me that maybe just one person can see into me as she does, I do hope others see me as she sees the good I only ever want to do and sometimes I have to take a step back and use time outs but without hurting my friends if possible.

Sometimes that is not always possible.

Through her Act Of Kindness I am very Grateful and I appreciate it very much. THANK YOU RENA

My DVD doesn’t work right now for some reason so when I can get to buy another one I will be watching the other DVD’s.

I had done some research on Pay It Forward and I found some really excellent websites including the foundation for Pay It Forward, as I read the text on the website I am so in awe of what I am reading it is like I am reading what I have been doing all my life and not to mention what others have done also, I had no idea about any of this,

On the website it asks for people to share there stories and I guess you call it good deeds or Acts Of Kindness done to others.

I have done many good deeds/Pay it Forward, over my life time at now 48 and you know something, I truly am so proud and honored to have been able to help someone, even if it is just one person I have achieved and I know god is watching over me and guiding me every step of the way in my life.

He gives me what is in my heart and soul along with many other messengers that guide me to what needs to be done in my life.

I have a few messengers that ask me or guide me to help someone for whatever reason.

What do I mean by messengers I hear you ask, let me show you

God –Guardian Angel—Native American Ancestor—Guide—Messenger.

You see I don’t like to give them labels,

However for anyone who is reading this, these words may help you understand.

Here are some of the things that I have achieved in the past few years.

I have made personal websites for some of the following people and there not in any order,

I am just typing them out.

**Voicee Of Angelll aka Heart Of Angell1, **Papa-Vamp, **Crazyfeet40, **SlvrEagle, **Ozzie_99_au, **Treespike, **Rose In Full Bloom, **Jesse_Stone, **LilBitHoney, **Dragon Swan Princess aka Ocean Eyes, **pauls tigerworld, **sasha au, **Steven Patrick, **bootsnbra, **Daytona radio, **Eagleswindcry,

**Mr & Mrs Loungesinger, **TWOTEDDY, **your kidding right (Billy) **Kathy, **PureKountryBoy, **SacredHearts, **Wolfgal, **Standing Wolf, **Radiant Wolf, **Ramblinman, **CurSedVoyce, **Willie8532, **CajunCrawfish_N_ColdBeer, **Okie50, **Bubba56, **Shawn Kenny, **DMI_CARETAKER aka DJ Jon,**Ms Truckin Bluey, **Jass(TEAM MX), **Icelady2u, **Voice-, **MelodiousAngel, **HammerFla, **Darren, **Skeercrow, **TIMBO, **2006 Christmas Concert Tribute for the Troops, **Billy Thorpe Tribute Memorial, **Silverfox-45 Memorial, **Okiebigman Memorial, **Cowboy89 Memorial, **Pay It Forward,

All of them are not included as yet,however they soon will be.

I have included some sites I made for people that turned towards the bad feed on me.

Yes they hurt and inflicted pain onto me, it don’t mean I agree or approve of there actions towards me, or I am like them. I did, I believe a good thing for someone and they turned on me.

And that was there choice, there loss not mine.

Just a couple of websites are not included here due to there extreme bad feed of nastiness and cruelty.

If you wish to ask me who is missing I don’t have an issue telling you who and why.

Memorial sites. **Okiebigman, **patryick, **Cowboy89,**Silverfox-45

Benefit Concert, Vanessa

I have organized many concerts for some wonderful artists, to promote them, to give them confidence with the talent given to them by god ,to give them a feel of what it can be like to a famous star or what its like in the limelight as such

From the concerts they all have been given what I call “Memory Keepsake Frame”.

You will have to see the website to see and read what I am referring to with this.

I had organized the 2006 Online Christmas Tribute Concert for the Troops overseas, from that and with the help of just a few others we all achieved 23 million troops listening to this concert along with The President of USA Mr. Bush who very graciously listened to the concert for approx an hour as I was told, while he listened I had been informed that tears had rolled down his face as he listened to the opening dedication to the troops spoken and sung by STEVEN PATRICK, before he had to go back to business at hand doing what presidents do.

We had many listeners in the room of the concert that had been going for approx 14 hours until we closed.

I will add the link here that refers to the website as soon as I finish the editing.

I have done online memorial rooms in tribute of lost loved ones,

I will add the links here that refers to the websites as soon as I finish the editing.

I have done a benefit concert for a very sick young lady that had to have some severe operations.

Refer to the website

Now some people are going to degrade me and or be very hurtful and they will say I am on a “Glory Run” as I have been accused of before in the past or even I have been accused of “Blowing My Trumpet” so to speak.

I had no idea that being kind; a good person to others was such a bad thing in this world we live in.

I do hope that people accept the kindness that I have offered in the past, present and the future and hopefully they can find it in there hearts to do something from there heart also, whether it be to the person that initiated the original kindness or it be to someone else.

I do hope and pray for everyone to find what I have in my heart and soul,

It really is such a wonderful feeling.

Oh by the way. I do have one thing and that is if all my wishes could come true.

DO NOT REPRODUCE MY WORDS IN ANY SHAPE OR FORM, THIS IS MY INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY AND “MY COPYRIGHTS”, ALL THE ABOVE WRITINGS ARE MY WORDS EXCEPT WHERE NOTED THAT I CREATED TODAY BEING WEDNESDAY 05/30/07 12:27:12

©Copyright 2007 Mrs. L Peters aka Heart Of Hush All Rights Reserved

2006 Online Christmas Troops Concert-My Observastions

2007-06-16T17:14:00.000+10:00

Concert Observations
Hello and welcome to this page of My Concert Observations.
Here is where I try to tell you of the lead ups to the concert, any hiccups we came across, and then the success of the concert which has been achieved by all who participated.
I would like to say a very big thank you ever so much for all who helped make this possible, this is just another achievement that I have been involved with and I was very proud to have assisted with.
To everyone involved hold your head up high and stand proud as you all have achieved, you know something, you all created some history on Friday 22nd December 2006 from 7pm EST USA time and date also Saturday 23rd December 2006 from 11am Sydney AUS time and date.
Well you see as some of you may know already Eagleswindcry aka Jeff is the creator of this online Christmas concert for the troop's concept which was being broadcasted live from the chat program and simulcast on daytonaradio.com.
It had been brought to my attention just recently that Eagleswindcry aka jeff came up with the concept of Simulcasting the room from the chat program.
Christmas Concerts for the Troops have been running in a LOT of rooms on this chat program since this war began.
He successfully achieved the simulcast for the first time in 2005 with all his helpers, workers etc, and this year being 2006 was not going to be any different, so we thought.
Me, well I was helping Eagleswindcry last year in the lead up to the event, except for the actual concert due to illness, and so I was there to help him again when and if needed for this year.
You see I was bugging him for ages to let me know if he was going to be doing the concert for this year 2006,he had stuff going on in his life as well I knew but if we was going to do this concert we had to get into gear and get it started.
Yes I guess I was being kind of pushy but sometimes he alike with others need a little nudge here and there.
And you know what, I would do it again, because this concert was extremely successful but it was very important to Eagleswindcry and very important for the troops and anyone else concerned.
Well his radio station (DaytonaRadio.com) was down for some reason, not his website, but the radio itself was not working correctly, so he wasn’t so sure either, then he got the station dealt with and finally he said yes he was going to go ahead with the concert, you see he wanted to have the troops hear the concert live, that was his ultimate dream.
So now a change from last year of Jeff doing auditions in a room on the chat
program he decided he was going to go room hopping to find new talent for
the concert, he had chosen a few and he had told me some of who they were.
Then the next minute Eagleswindcry leaves me an offline on the chat program and tells me some sad news that he had been in a car accident and a drunk driver was involved that the driver had tried to flee the scene.
Jeff had 3 broken ribs and a cracked collarbone.
So then Jeff needed to decide about the concert as what he was going to do.
He really did want this concert to go ahead in the end he asked me to do it for him on his behalf, which I did even though I wasn’t doing so well at the time myself but I would do anything for my real friends and Jeff is one of those people.
So I was kind of lost myself for a couple of days, I would just think and then it all fell into place for me as this was a big event to organize on my own, as I knew it would be.
So much to do in so little time.
As you can see by the thank you page that I had made to acknowledge and give credit where credit is due to all the ones that I sent emails too, I emailed everyone in my emails list, my pals list, and the ones I rang to speak to ask for some help,
I also did a radio promo with USA..WIVK radio dj, gunner who had re assured me he would notify the troops, Voiceee Of Angelll contacted the station prior to my ringing them also, it was Voiceee of Angelll who suggested I give them a call also as they were not returning her phone calls, so I did.
I also had to write up the website and keep that update for all to view and be able to listen too.
Then I had to get all the other artists chosen for the concert I had to organize for MC's .admins, and also a room to have the concert in.
Jeff had mentioned previously he was trying to get a featured room whether it is a blue room or green room.
I was talking to a friend about this concert I was organizing, you see he assists the chat program as a support person, he said to me to write a letter to the owners of this program asking them for some help in the way of a featured room and also maybe some head support people from this program, sadly they never answered.
Oh by the way, Papa-Vamp helped me with the proof reading of the letter I submitted to the chat program. Thank You Papa-Vamp.

I didn’t have enough time to wait around I needed a backup just in case they said no, if they replied to me that would of been good to, but in the end they never did, in the meantime I asked Jeff about the room he was organizing as he did tell me he was trying for a featured room.
Jeff said to speak to his good friend Diamond44 who may be able to lead me in the right direction and to give me some help as well.
I saw diamond in one of the music rooms I was sitting in and working at the same time, I saw her nickname and I spoke to her in the room, I told her about Jeff’s accident and that he had mentioned to speak to her and also ask her about a featured room, she told me she would see what she can do, but for Jeff to let her know at the same time what he was doing regarding the concert,
Well I eventually found Diamond again and left her messages to ask her if she can help get this room organized, Diamond was a great help, you see Diamond spoke to a featured room owner on the chat program and that room owners name is SoftSingingBrook_SCS, Diamond had told me that the room owner had said yes that the room can be used and was very honored to be able to help for such a wonderful event.
So now I have the featured room as Jeff wanted, kindly offered by SoftSingingBrook_SCS and gladly accepted, so then on this particular day there was Diamond, SoftSingBrook and myself in a private room talking and organizing for the concert room being the title of the room, the welcome message and any bans to be put in place if it was needed. we did discuss the room rating and even though we as admins can make sure it was run as a big G, that goes against the rules of the chat program and not to mention I had forgotten about the room rating and the rules at the time, it did have a R rating until I spoke with Jeff who reminded me and then we had to have it changed to a G Rating, now children can visit the room freely as many did.
When I had come online to check my messages etc I had asked some friends to advertise the concert, I said we need to get the word out and I asked them would they go to the rooms to let them know about this concert and that is what they did.
Voiceee of Angelll and Toosure went room hopping to let the room owners know and there guests about the upcoming concert, I also asked them to advertise the concert in there away messages when they were online and they did.
PapaVamp would ask me for the links and info pertaining to the upcoming concert and he too would let the rooms know that he was visiting leading up to this concert.
Jeff had popped online once again in between his doctors appointments and his therapy etc and I would let him know how everything is going. I kept checking to make sure the station was working and it will be there, he said yes it was all good to go live and that was the most important part, so the troops can hear.
I asked him about what singers did he have chosen so I could follow up with them, and any he wanted me to ask, well I did try to ask the others, but if they have there blocks up, unfortunately I cannot get in touch with them, although I did ask the other artists who I had contact with if they have there nicks on there list would they please contact me concerning the troops concert, well I never heard nothing from those artists, so I had choose some myself.
On the website that I had made, it was stated very clear that before singers accept the invite to perform for the troops they take into consideration a few facts, see the website if you need to read.
One previous artist couldn’t be bothered to give me the final reply so I just deleted them off anyway, I didn’t have the time to deal with fussy inconsiderate people that couldn’t say yes or no for a definite answer, how hard can that be. Anyway I had a concert to organize.
I did ask a couple of artists and it seems all they wanted to do was sing and leave,
one artist wanted to do 3 songs as the featured artists was doing, and then leave immediately to go sing in another room and not stay in the room just in case a trooper or there family wanted to speak to the artist or even consider supporting the whole concept of why this concert was created etc..
You get the idea,
I said no thank you we don’t need you.
Then another artist in fact said they would sing there 3 songs leave the room and for me to pm them when it was there turn to sing again, I said the same thing as above, no thank you and my reasons are as follows, to me we are all doing this to support the troops, I cant see why some people couldn’t give up there valuable time to stay in the room and interact with everyone to me they was not supporting the other artists, the troops, the room of guests, MC's, admins and again I said no thank you...
They were and are very disrespectful to all of the above....
Anyways we had the best entertainers and people were in the room for this special event, thank you all.
ok next thing was I was trying to find out, is what Jeff had done in the way of the format of last year, I tried to do the same for this concert I just changed a few things, like for the 1st round of all the artists it was only the featured artists who sang, then the second round had audience participation after each set for each individual artist and it rotated until the featured artists had finished and then it was open mic until the close of the room.
I was also told that Jeff done like a speech of the opening up of the concert
and there was no way I was going to do that,
I already had asked DMI_CARETAKER if he would be MC for the concert and he kindly said yes, I also had in my mind to ask DMI_CARETAKER to do the opening speech for the concert, but I had noticed he wasn’t online as he normally was and then I had found out he was in hospital for I think from 4 - 7 days and wasn’t very well at all, I did ask him if he was ok to MC etc after being in hospital because if he couldn’t I would get the next MC..
He said yes he would be fine.
That’s when I had asked DMI_CARETAKER to do the opening speech for the room etc.
He did an awesome job of it too, considering he only just got out of hospital himself within the past 24hours,
Yes you see we had a minor hiccup but as a good trooper as he is, he did the opening speech and MC'd for a few hours until he had to go eat and rest and I myself am very grateful as he did an excellent job, he came through when he was needed and very much appreciated it too as I am sure everyone else is.
I also knew that Jeff had an artist do a special song for the opening of last year’s concert,
Well I aimed for something different, you see I knew of an artist, his name is STEVEN PATRICK he was perfect for the idea I had planned in my head and exactly what, at the time I wasn’t so sure, I knew to include the 4 countries that I knew of that was overseas involved in this war and I did ask others of the other countries involved but they had no idea either. How embarrassed did I feel now, I did try to look it up.
I had asked STEVEN if he would do something like I said above and I wanted him to do it live, well at the time he was having a bad tooth problem and he had to see his dentist as to what it was etc before he could give me an answer.
Well BootsnBra his lovely lady came back to me and told me that he was visiting his dentist and the dentist and any workers that is needed was going to open extra early to help Steven so he can perform for this concert,
Then I was told what was wrong with Stevens tooth and that he wouldn’t be able to do the live presentation as I had hoped for. I understood his pain.
I had told both Steven and Boots I will go with my back up plan and do the recorded opening.
So I started working with my back up plan and that was another great singer to do a recording of the 4 anthems as unfortunately he was not able to do this live due to prior commitments, he sent me the full length recorded songs and then I took parts of each of the 4 to make one recording.
In between me doing this I had a problem of my own with someone personally threatening me at my home to the point the police came and locked him and his male friends up and I do believe he was charged...
Well I had to finish this before I was to go to bed before the concert as it was now my 2am.
I then sent the recording to each of the 3 MC's along with the script of how the concert was going to happen step by step included as was the full line up in order of appearance of all artists and there times they either would arrive or have to leave.
The MC's had all the admins names, the singers line up in order of appearance, the acknowledgements to be mentioned when they were on mic/on air; they all had the speech just in case one couldn’t do it.
Well in advance before the concert was to begin.
Then I went to bed to get a few hours sleep before the big day so to speak, well it was to be for me.
Well I popped online a few hours before the concert and BootsnBra had left me an offline during her daytime and said they both had something for me to listen to before the concert,
I contacted boots and I went into a private room with them both and then Steven did his live presentation...
Well oh my heavens to Betsy, I was lost for words, I had tears falling and I was smiling from ear to ear and I heard the voice of Steven Patrick as I had envisioned, they both created what I had hoped and planned for, the words, the music, the chosen song and not to mention Stevens voice, Steven and Boots both worked together on writing this presentation for quite sometime and in doing so captivated the perfect result for this special concert for all the men and woman who deserve the best and the best is what they got.
I have to say that STEVEN PATRICK did an absolutely excellent presentation and performance for the opening of this concert and within the entire concert even though he still had this issue with his tooth and a painful one I must say, he is another person that would do for the troops as much as he could, and not to mention his wonderful lady BootsnBra who was not so well herself either, she too came through for everyone.
Thank you both for staying with us and supporting the troops.
Jeff popped online the day before the concert to let me know the radio was set and to find out what was set up like, the artists etc, I showed him the site as his answers and questions would be there.
Then he asked me if I had any help from others, NOT that I needed help as it was all under control, all organized, done deal and he asked where the other artists were etc and I told him all that too, I told him I asked for help that I needed on the site but I can't force people to help me, also if they have there blocks up I can't ask them and that so far I had been doing this on my own with some help from
my friends, meaning the lead up, I had the on the night all set up, meaning artists, MC’s, admins, room, you get the idea by the thank you page, then Jeff told me he sent a text message to people he knew asking them to help me if they would.
I got a reply and that person didn’t help anyways
But BootsnBra and Steven Patrick DID.
Well one of the fantastic help that I know that have helped me is BootsnBra and Steven Patrick apart from who I have mentioned on the thank you page and also the people above who I have written and given credit too.
Also DMI asked some special people to come in and join with us.
They were surprises that I had no idea was even planned.
Thank you DMI_CARETAKER for that,
I have to say a really big thank you ever so much to BootsnBra; you see boots came through as the biggest help, she organized with an associate in her field of business to have 23million troops tuning into the concert room and or daytonaradio.com with the Authorization from the White House.
Boots and I was texting to each other before the concert was about to start, Boots said, the air force base was calling and asking for the radio website link so they the (Armed Forced Radio Network) could connect through the systems on U S Military bases world-wide to the concert from the radio station, then boots was verifying with me that the bases were hooking up to us and then finally success it was confirmed that all the bases were carrying to the concert, they were all listening. wooohoooo I was soooo happy,
I had chills of confirmation, then boots had told me that the White House just confirmed at the time that all bases can hook on to you and once we go up they will broadcast across their waves, so yes the troops heard the concert.
But I also recorded the concert so that the troops that were out on duty can hear it later.
"I had spoken to Steven after the concert, he told me that President Bush had tears and listened to the concert for the first hour" - (a fact I didn't know until now)
The other MC's were Okie50 and Papa-Vamp who did an excellent job for the room and we even had an emergency MC, Grizzly Adams who did a great job too. I thank you all for supporting this concert and its cause; let’s hope we have no need for it next year....
We even had emergency admins as the room wanted to keep going, I thank all of them too
I was asked by many people did Paltalk have anything to do with supporting of this concert, sadly NO they were not, they was asked to help us support this worthy cause, they was asked weeks before the scheduled event and in writing, they was also asked if we could have red hats (pal support workers) I never got any answer and even the person that submitted the written request, tried for us on the day of this concert, Paltalks answer to this was NO.
It was sad that Paltalk couldn’t see that the concert for the troops was and is a worthy cause and was and is very important, sad they didn’t support the troops and the concert as WE all did.
I guess if I get banned from saying that, then I wasn't meant to be there, but you know something it’s the truth and it’s a fact.
They did not help us at all, in fact they closed down for upgrading, they couldn’t even delay that and I know they could have if they wanted too.
I do have a nice ending for this though,
You see beside our nicks we can type away messages, I had asked all the people in the concert room to add special messages pertaining to the concert and on there some of us had text like, we have 23 million listeners, or troops concert etc...
Well it was my night time by now and a pal support person saw my away message and she asked me what we was doing, I told her and said we were still going strong at it, I said pity pal wouldn’t support this, I told her what I told you above there^^^^^.
Now she did tell me I would have full support next year from Paltalk if was needed, I was just telling her we had like 23 million listeners. All the bases knew and were here in the way of listening from the radio station or they were people that had signed up to pal for this concert.
Well she asked me can I log off. I said I guess so. But I am recording the room also. Silly me didn’t think to ask why as I was trying to concentrate on the room and talk with her...I told her I need to get someone to record for me and I will.....here’s me thinking she had spoken to pal and they was going to do something for the room,
I had no idea what, I just thought they can do something special maybe for the concert, anyways I logged off and then I re logged back on, but when I logged back on I saw the red Paltalk nick on my list, I was like what is that thing and where did it come from, why is it there.
She said to me. Go back to the room, here’s me thinking pal did something so special for the room and the next minute she says are you in the room...I said yes but what was done to the room, she said look at your nick, I was a green nick and not a black nick anymore. I was like wowwwww I got a green nick, I was lost for words I couldn’t type...I guess my mouth was wide open and dropped from shock as to why and who. She said merry Christmas from Santa.
I said Thank You to her many times. I was so happy.
Sacrifices were made to make this concert as successful as it turned out to be.
Just as the troops sacrifice there lives for all of us.
I really do hope that some of you take the time to look over the "Thank You" page as there you will find many links pertaining to ways of helping the troops and that is going to be a big help to them, so please take a look and actually follow through with supporting them, I ask that you actually do something and not think or say I will come back later, because 9 out of 10 times you don't do it, maybe you will forget, lets hope you don't.
Well I was going for more than 14 hours at the time, we closed the room and some of us went to bed, well the aussies did anyways.
A few days later I asked the pal support person more about the green nic, she had told me that on behalf of Paltalk and herself I was given the green nick.
And I do thank her ever so much for giving me the green nick and to think that I am deserving of it as well.
If I have forgotten to add anything here or anyone, please I want you to tell me as you deserve to be given credit where credit is due.
One last thing, Jeff's dream to have the troops hear the concert once again for the second year in a row has been accomplished and granted, I know he was happy that they could hear everyone performing for all of the troops and to the world, thanks to BootsnBra for making the link to them all.
Well I have typed enough here I think,
I have room text to fix, room images to edit and add to the website not to mention 14 hours of room recordings to edit and then add to the website.
I do have to follow up with emails and phone calls to find out who really did help out, of all those contacts on the thank you page,
Until next year, which I truly hope not, for the good reasons.
I will see you all around soon
Hugsssssssssss God Bless from Heart Of Hush aka Lu
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©Copyright 2007 Mrs. L Peters aka Heart Of Hush All Rights Reserved

Happy Mothers day to all My friends and there Mothers

2007-05-13T12:45:00.000+10:00

I hope you all have a wonderful day.
Click to play the songs
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Medals For Mothers

If there's medals for mothers mama you'll win everyone
I dreamed mama walked up the heavenly stairs
And medals for mothers were given up there
They mentioned the million things mom did for me
Things I took for granted and never could see

If there's medals for mothers for all of the deeds they have done
If there's medals for mothers mama you'll win everyone

A medal of honor they pinned on her there a medal for patience and kind loving care
A medal for duty she won up above but the biggest of all was the one for her love

If there's medals...for mothers for all of the deeds they have done
If there's medals for mothers mama you'll win everyone
Mama you'll win everyone

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A Mother's Prayer

I pray you'll be my eyes
And watch her where she goes
And help her to be wise
Help me to let go

Every mother's prayer
Every child knows
Lead her to a place
Guide her with your grace
To a place where she'll be safe

I pray she finds your light
And holds it in her heart
As darkness falls each night
Remind her where you are

Every mother's prayer
Every child knows
Need to find a place
Guide her to a place
Give her faith so she'll be safe

Lead her to a place
Guide her with your grace
To a place where she'll be safe

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Actions Speaks Louder Than Words

2007-04-25T08:47:00.000+10:00

Tuesday, April 24, 2007
I was here today cooking my sons lunch and for some reason all the following text came to thought,
So I have put pen to paper so to speak and this is what came of my thoughts,
I call them messages, or needed to be known or needed to be said information.
I guess my guardians are helping me help others once again.

Actions Speaks Louder Than Words
Your actions are a reflection of your upbringing...
Of how you have been conditioned by your parents/family/relatives that had an impact in your life.
It is how you have been taught and sometimes how we are taught is not the right way
The ones that had some form of influence in your life you are copying.
If your actions are not of a good intentions and you’re acting out as your peers then stop hurting or inflicting pain to others.
Please don’t say that is how you were raised, because that is just an excuse, it is an escape to make it easier for you.
I had a difficult upbringing but I did not copy or repeat the same ways.
I have and had choices and I chose not to repeat my childhood family life.
It’s your choice and your right not to mimic or copy any bad upbringing or conditioning.
This is 2007 society not our parent’s era and we have to adjust or get with it as I had been made aware of.
A lot of good old ways of living I still love and yes I repeat it and yes I get degraded for doing it but its all good not the bad stuff you don’t need to repeat it.
I guess my point is if your upbringing was of bad feed to others, the bad feed always will come back at you
I heard this quote the other day
If you need to lie about something then it’s not worth getting.

I also was told some thing of importance in my life, you see someone had hurt me bad and I really didn’t believe that they will be punished for the pain they had caused me and others like me.
It was a special lady named Tammy and she told me god does punish those who hurt the innocent, I asked how, she said that all the bad feeds or bad intentions inflicted by others to hurt you and others do get punished and it comes in any of the following ways, sickness, pain, death it may not even be at you it could be on your children, your siblings, any one or more of your family, your friends.
So the saying is absolutely correct
Your actions do speak louder than words
If you care about anyone in your life don’t feed the bad ways
I also was listening to Judge Judy recently and I actually heard her saying the exact same details, so please don’t hurt others there really is no need for it.

Please read the following text that came to me from an email a few years back now

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.
He said, "My son, the battle is between 2 "wolves" inside us all.

One is Evil.
It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.

The other is Good.
It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith."

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather:
"Which wolf wins?"

The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."

Lastly find some courage and don’t repeat the bad feeds, you really do hurt others and not to mention me,
Hey if I can do it you can,
All through my life I have always tried to be me, a good person of good intentions.
I wont be changing too soon either, its in my blood
But I have and had good influence, my wonderful guardians that have guided me to do good feeds all my life.
I guess because I listen to them but they are the ones who ask me to do what I have done and what I have achieved.
I think now your wondering who my guardians are
I quite often get my messages in my dreams, by visions, in my rest time, even when I touch water whether it be from washing up in the kitchen, doing laundry, gardening, or even showering I am sent inspirations or information of what I need to do.
The following guardians have been with me all my life and have guided me to do good deeds to others and I love who I am, I am happy to be who I am to give others what I can from me and from within my heart and soul.
Well I don’t label them but to give you an idea who my guardians are
Guardian Angels, Native American Ancestors, God.
I also put good intentions to the universe and from that I am successful sometimes, well most times.
It must be my destiny to achieve what I have.
I believe in destiny along with I believe in what you do for the good of the people who you do this for.
I think I had better stop typing otherwise I will be here forever but until soon
God bless, hugsssssssss Heart Of Hush aka Lu

Heart Of Hush Reaches out to the world

2007-04-15T19:52:00.000+10:00

I have a story to write

This story is about a lady that i know from USA, Who came up with the idea of the image you see here enclosed,

Mitchell my son did the actual design.

The lady that came up with the idea,Her Nic name on paltalk /

yahoo is Crazyfeet40, her name is Rena.

Rena and myself were talking on the phone one day and she had told me of an idea of an image that she had come up with, for me.

She asked me if i could ask my son Mitchell to create this image she envisioned.

I asked her to write everything down for example the details of the image and this is what she had told me.

All credit goes to Rena and also my son Mitchell,

Quoted By Rena

Crazyfeet46 (9/7/2006 9:55:53 AM): here this is what I have written: Crazyfeet40 Crazyfeet46 (9/7/2006 9:56:15 AM): Lu, A couple of weeks ago we discussed a graphic that you were going to get Mitchell to design for you.

Here were my thoughts:

Inside a large square box

1. To the left: a picture of you

2. In the middle: a picture of YOUR hand

3. On the right: a picture of the WORLD

4. Just inside the bottom of the box it would say:

Heart_Of_Hush reaching out to the WHOLE WORLD I think this would be lovely.

And it would fit you Lucy Lu to a “T”.

Please let me know what you think and if Mitchell can do it.

God bless you and yours,

Sincerely in Christ, Rena Crazyfeet40 Crazyfeet46 (9/7/2006 9:56:34 AM)

That was the information that Rena sent to me

If your wondering why Rena calls me Lucy Lu, its after one of charlie angels, I guess I am just a tad like her.

As you can see the image is not exactly the same as her idea but we did try adding a hand reaching out to the world but it didn't look right so we did the image as you see above.

Rena came up with the idea of this image for me and my son Mitchell is the creator so as i had said before all credit goes to both of them for a wonderful creative image.
Rena also came up with my room name title on paltalk which is

Heart Of Hush and Her Featured Performers InConcert.

I thank both Rena and my son Mitchell for the creative image they both made for me.

DO NOT REPRODUCE ANY PART OF OR FULL TEXT OF MY WORDS IN ANY SHAPE OR FORM,

THIS ALSO INCLUDES THE ABOVE IMAGE...."DO NOT STEAL WHAT IS NOT YOURS.

THIS IS "MY INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY" AND “MY COPYRIGHTS”,

ALL THE ABOVE WRITINGS ARE MY WORDS EXCEPT WHERE QUOTED.

SnapDrive FREE Online Files & Storage Hosting

2007-04-08T22:09:00.000+10:00

SnapDrive.net

I am writing this page to let everyone know just how valuable and helpful SnapDrive.net has been for me and maybe SnapDrive.net can help you in the same or similar way.

You see I make many FREE websites for so many people and I use to produce/create online concert performances for almost every single one of them.
I have recently done memorial rooms for loved ones and I have done the 2006 Online Troops Tribute Christmas Concert.

I record there wonderful performances along with saving the room text and images.

SnapDrive.net has helped me in the way of storing the artists recordings on there site so that then I can make a streaming mp3 player to add to the website for others to listen to if they happened to miss the concert.

Or in the case of the memorial the recordings, text, images are safely uploaded to SnapDrive.net for friends or and loved ones to come back at a later time to listen to the memorial and for visitors to listen as well.

The same applies for the 2006 Online Christmas Concert Tribute for the Troops, you see many troopers were out in the field and were unable to hear the tribute that was dedicated to them by so many Friends, Family and Visitors to the room that was created.
With SnapDrive.net website all the troops, friends & family, guests can come back to listen to the dedications, tributes, singing at a later time.

Oh by the way, SnapDrive.net recommends a great site to streaming mp3 players from there site, take a look, what have you got to loose, more likely you will gain by visiting there site.

Snapdrive.net also has made it so much easier for me to add the text and doc files as those formats are allowed along with many other formats.
I also added the room images I took from the concert of guests and added them to SnapDrive.net.
SnapDrive.net has made it possible to share all the files mentioned above so much easier for me and the people I make the websites for.
I have also recommended many others to sign up for SnapDrive.net so they can personally add these new files or recordings.
SnapDrive.net stores all your files for FREE
http://www.snapdrive.net/
You can register as I did but you don’t have to register to upload your files.
However take a look at what they have to offer you and also how you can have extra storage space.

I took a peak at the file extensions while I was writing this,
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“Quoted from the SnapDrive.net website”.
SnapDrive.net accepts the following files and here they are
Maximum file size: 100 MB
Allowed file types (?): jpg, jpeg, png, gif, bmp, txt, mp3, mp4, wav, wma, wmv, rar, zip, tar.gz, swf, xml, xspf, flv, m3u, asf, 7z, rm, esp, avim, flac, ogg, bsp, res, mdl, spr, wad, tga, xls, doc, ods, odt, pdf, tsk, fla, as, avi, izh, m4a, acc, mkv, jp2, j2k, ani, dvr-ms, ppt, mpg “
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As you can see SnapDrive.net do accept most file formats?
I will be adding videos on my site soon as SnapDrive.net supports video files as well
So Please go stop by and take a read of SnapDrive.net website, Like I said before, what have you got to loose.

DO NOT REPRODUCE MY WORDS IN ANY SHAPE OR FORM, THIS IS MY INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY AND “MY COPYRIGHTS”, ALL THE ABOVE WRITINGS ARE MY WORDS EXCEPT WHERE NOTED THAT I CREATED TODAY BEING MONDAY April 9, 2007
©Copyright 2007 Mrs. L Peters aka Heart Of Hush All Rights Reserved

Jenny's 2007 Easter

2007-04-07T07:22:00.000+10:00

Happy Easter to all who reads this.

I recieved a wonderful easter card from a good friend that doesn't forget.
I also sent her one back as well.

But it is wonderful to be remembered and thought about, so i wanted to a add this special memory of my good friend Jenny who never forget.

We have been friends for a while now and she never forgets others.

Jennys card came at a time when i needed to focus and smile,that I did.
So to my wonderful friend Jenny, thank you ever so much.
Oh by The way she has a nic known as Starrgazer36 or Mrs Loungesinger.
Hugsssssssssss To you Jenny
Love from Lu
aka Heart Of Hush

My Wheelchair Dream

2007-03-25T18:08:00.001+10:00

My Wheel Chair Dream
I am writing here today as I remembered about a dream I had a few years back.
Exactly how long ago I am not so sure, maybe 5-7 years ago…I don’t really remember.
All I do remember is that I saw myself in a wheel chair and 10 years was in my dream.
I can now only assume because of the pains in my legs, back and hip it could come true.
I do try to walk as much as I can;
I do try to be active as much as I can, I really don’t want the dream to come true.
But if it does then so be it.
I use to be a constant walker everywhere, now it is difficult to walk anywhere.
It wasn’t so long ago that I could walk >40 kilometer = 24.854 847 689 miles a week with no worries.
Maybe all of this was caused by the fall I had back in February of 2004.

DO NOT REPRODUCE MY WORDS IN ANY SHAPE OR FORM, THIS IS MY INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY AND “MY COPYRIGHTS”, ALL THE ABOVE WRITINGS ARE MY WORDS EXCEPT WHERE NOTED THAT I CREATED TODAY BEING Saturday 28th September, 2007
©Copyright 2007 Heart Of Hush All Rights Reserved

Look Over There to the right side,scroll down, if you want to read more of what i have written under the heading of "List Of My Writings">>>>>

Would you please sign my new guestbook and thank you.
http://heart-of-hush.blogspot.com/2007/09/my-guestbook.html

Billy Thorpes Tribute Memorial Service Reflections

2007-03-23T09:33:00.000+11:00

Reflections
Hello and Welcome to Reflections.
It is Wednesday morning 28th February 2007 at approx 7 am here in Sydney Australia.

I had set my alarm to wake my son Mitchell to get him up for TAFE.I did my normal and took my dogs outside for the bathroom, put the jug on to make my morning coffee and then I turned on the TV to our morning news and what I saw and heard I thought I was hearing and seeing things.

I heard of the passing of the music legend Billy Thorpe who had passed away at about 2-30am from a heart attack.

I looked up many TV News and Billy Thorpe websites to find out about his passing in the hope to find as much information as I could; I was also keeping a vigil on the news and websites to keep up to date.

I was shocked as I knew many others were to hear of his untimely death.That night I had this inspiration as I normally do when something is needed to be done to make a room on Paltalk as a tribute/memorial to him.

Also while I had been thinking about it, someone that knows me well mentioned I should do a room for him.

So now I was going to make my room into the tribute room on a chat program called Paltalk for Billy Thorpe.

I thought long and hard about it, as to what I was going to do for the world's greatest legend in the music industry, how I was going to do this; I had to make a website, I had to send emails out to the radio stations and to everyone on my email list, also my Paltalk friends list.

Then I remembered what was told to me last year when I did the 2006 Online Troops Christmas Concert, that before I do a special room again for me to notify the Paltalk administrators and they may consider supporting this special room I was creating.

So first of all I asked a Paltalk support person who in turn asked a Paltalk administrator about the room.My room being Heart Of Hush And Her Featured Performers InConcert on Paltalk is just a normal room which in colour and quality is known as a black room and holds 200 people.

Paltalk gave my room the a bility to be a green room which can hold up to 1000 and have it featured in the Paltalk list. I also had many Paltalk Red Hats(workers of Paltalk).

I was extremely happy and above all most appreciative of Paltalk and there support.

I also asked a long time friend who is a Paltalk tech person (worker of Paltalk) if he would do the honors of being our master of ceremonies for the day/night of the room.

I asked some friends if they could help out in the room for the night.So I set out to make the website, send out my emails and messages.

I also asked many people if they knew of Billy Thorpe and if they had heard the sad news, then to find a shock horror that most of them I asked about Billy Thorpe they had no idea who he was or even that he lived in USA for many many years and was very successful with the sale of records and sellout concerts.

One person said that their mother watched what they listened to, like there was something so wrong with his music and in fact it puts me and many of us down for listening to his music by the comment.

Further comment was made there being of 12 years difference as an excuse, I actually found many people from all ages that loved Billys music, from teens of now a days to mothers/fathers and yes grandparents. I had no idea you had to be a certain age to like music. And his music was good not bad.To me finding excuses are easy for others.

Please read the following information I had found on THE INTERNET.

In 1979 Thorpe signed a US deal with American producer Spencer Proffer and recorded the ambitious science fiction/rock opera concept album Children Of The Future, which achieved Top 20 status in America, selling 500,000 copies. The follow-up album 21st Century Man also gained a US gold record.

In 1979 he release his first American recorded, solo album in the USA entitled "Children Of The Sun". The album shot into the top twenty and career number 4 was well under way. Between 1979 and 1983 he released 3 more albums in the USA which all went top forty and he played to sold out shows in arenas all over the United States. His face appeared on the cover of the leading music magazines of the time, including the prestigious music industry trades Cashbox and Billboard.

Billy Thorpe also did quite a lot of charity work, see enclosed information from THE INTERNET.

"Talent gathers to aid tsunami victims"When Billy Thorpe and the Aztecs played the Myer Music Bowl in 1972, 250,000 people turned up. While he's not expecting those numbers at the bowl for the Melbourne Tsunami Concert later this month, he says it will be just as thrilling to help raise money for victims of Asia's the tsunami disaster.

Thorpe will be re-forming the original "Sunbury era" Aztecs to play alongside Cold Chisel, a re-formed Daddy Cool, Willie Nelson, Taj Mahal, Michael Franti and Spearhead, and Richard Clapton at the benefit on February 27.

The show, running on the second day of the Melbourne International Music Festival and co-presented by The Sunday Age and The Sunday Herald-Sun, is expected to attract about 25,000 people and raise more than $1 million.

He was in fact known world wide as one the greatest legends since Johnny O'keefe.I wonder how many USA people know him now .I truly hope they broaden there knowledge of people we live with in our every day lives.

Paying respect shouldn't be such a hard thing to do even if you don't know the person that passed away, to me being kind is the easiest thing I can do and I do it every day of my life.

Well anywaysI was very nervous as I wasn't sure if we would get a good turn up of people. So I set out to notify as many rooms as possible of this Paltalk supported room and tribute to a great legend the night before and into the next morningIn doing so some rooms helped me by letting there guests know about this special event and sadly many people and rooms called me a liar.

A nasty person (Bay - -) said they never heard of Billy Thorpe's passing on there news so why should she believe me, I did suggest nicely at first to her to go look it up but she more or less called me a liar in the room.

Then when I visited another room all the admins and room guests pretty much called me a liar too saying if Paltalk is really supporting this room then they will tell them.I was shocked and hurt by all these people and I really couldn't understand why they was all being so darn nasty and rude.

Well I hope those nasty ignorant people are now eating there words because you see coincidentally I had the room owner in the room participating with us, sharing with us her music. I do hope she tells them all, that she saw and heard that Paltalk did in fact support/donate the room.

But sissy_31 I want to say "Thank You" for believing in me and my honesty, I truly thank you ever so much.

And also everyone else that did come into the room and enjoy the night/day with us.
We had many guests and visitors come into the room.

456 visitors came through our doors so to speak over the nine(9)hours of it being open.

We had all these people come in to sit and listen even for a short time or longer.Many memories were shared and I am sure many tears along the way, one of our guests made the comment "What a wonderful way to spend a Sunday afternoon" and they were right.

We all enjoyed each others company and learning from each other along the way.Many comments were made of Billys concerts that people had attended.

People listened and took in the moment.Thank you to everyone that forwarded the emails and my many offline text messages about this room.I "Thank You" all ever so much from the bottom of my heart.

As you know the room was pre advertised it would be recorded, with room text and images of our guests would be saved to be added to the website.

Well that has been achieved as scheduled as you will see on the enclosed website.
There is a page titled Tribute-Memorial-Recordings it has 98 files that was recorded from the nine (9) hours we spent in the room.

The text of everyone's comments/memories from the room is on the same page for you to read at your leisure.

All the images that was saved from the room on the day/night is on the following page Tribute-Memorial-Guests.

I will also be sending the CD with recordings, text, images to Billy Thorpe's manager Michael Chugg and family as was mentioned on the website and in the room.I will also be asking them if there is anything they wish to be removed from the website or if I am violating any copyrights.

I have been asked why did Billy Die and why did he have to go now.I am going to try and answer that persons question here.

Well we know most of the reason being he suffered a heart attack, I guess Billy didn't listen to the warnings his body was giving him, and he was a constant worker, who worked his body hard and fast. The concerts, His Charity work, His family, friends, fans.

There is only so much your body can take before it says hey I need a rest but Billy being Billy he didn't listen.

This is gods way of saying Billy its time for you to rest, you have achieved so much in your 60 years of a wonderful and adventurous life time.

You have given the world so much of you, and they have so much to remember of you.

You have done what was needed of you.

You have left something behind just waiting to be released to the world as one of the last achievements you had been successful at doing once again.

Your latest CDThere are reasons that we pass and you need to find out why for yourself, I know why we pass do you.

But its time.

I am hurt to know that the people on Paltalk don't believe in me even after I proved myself with the troop's concert I did with the help of some special people..

I didn't know any of the troops but I still took the time to give them something for Christmas.

Sadly people said to me I don't know (Billy Thorpe) and they didn't even bother.

So this maybe the last room I do, I shouldn't have to prove to people again that I DO and DID speak the truth and yes I know 99% of people in this world and on chat rooms speak with a FALSE tongue, but hey news flash….I DO SPEAK WITH A WHITE TONGUE. And I did speak the truth.

I do have something final to say, while I was writing this page I would take a break from writing, to do my thinking, well I asked some questions and this is what I asked.

How many times do we give people chances when they lie to us?I feel like an idiot and a sucker for punishment because they don't even respect me enough not to lie to me.

Well it was mentioned to me that I needed to stop being a doormat.So I looked it up and what I found was, a website of questions I was to ask myself.So If I seem to you as though I have changed, yes I am changing, I'm not a doormat.

I have many people to say Thank You to for helping with Billy Thorpes Online Tribute Memorial Service.

Paltalk-Donating the special qualities to make my room so successful(Paltalk Administrators- Paltalk Support-Paltalk Tech All workers from Paltalk)

Tron- Master Of Ceremonies

Topaz- Paltalk

Paltalk Admin A

Voiceee Of Angelll-Room Admin

Willie8532-Room Admin

Toosure- Room Admin

29 FAN- Room Admin

And all our 456 guests/Visitors that came through our doors.Room owners for allowing me to advertise this special day/night in there room.

It is good when we can work together and not apart from each other.

I truly hope you all have had a wonderful and most memorable time in the room and you enjoy reading the website.

Not so much this page but the other pages.

Good Luck with everything you do and to the artists believe in yourself as I believe in YOU.

Get off your butts, get out there and let the world hear your wonderful talent that god gave you.

Hugssssssssssssss God BlessHeart Of Hush

How all this writing started

2007-03-23T06:34:00.002+11:00

I am going to try and explain exactly why I started writing all these entries.

You see I thought I had friends and I guess I finally got it in my thick head that they were really telling me lies all this time.

I didn't listen to my instincts before these recent incidents, i just shrugged them aside and i thought naaa there not lieing to me.

Well to my shock realisation I had to accept that they were.
I felt so disrespected,dishonored and hurt that these people that call me there friend can't find it in there heart not to lie to me.
I was devasted,then I started to doubt myself so I went to some certain type of rooms to ask for there opinion but without giving complete details.

I actually went into approx 3-4 christian rooms on this particular chat room and i asked the question.

How many times should I/we allow people to lie to our faces,me thinking i was being unreasonable.

One of the answers was 3 times and after that walk away,the people in the room agreed with that comment and it was pretty much unanimous.
It was also mention that i should stop being a doormat and start being a door.

The doormat comment got me wondering exactly what was a doormat and what did it really mean.
So I went to google and I typed in the search bar, being a doormat.
I found many websites pertaining to that subject and I learnt many lessons from that.
Here are some of what I had learnt and I was so amazed at what I found.
This was the first link i read

Stop Being a Doormat!
http://www2.oprah.com/tows/pastshows/tows_2002/tows_past_20020613.jhtml
Calling all pushovers, people-pleasers and wimps...you know who you are! Enough already! Do you have trouble saying "no"? Life coach Martha Beck is here to cure your "disease to please."

Just Say "No!" Martha says that every woman in the country is socialized to act like a doormat. Learn the steps you need to take to stand up for yourself!

Where do you rank on the doormat scale? Use this checklist to determine if you have the "disease to please"! For Your HealthDr. Nancy Snyderman once suffered from the "disease to please" and explains how it can actually kill you.

http://www2.oprah.com/tows/pastshows/tows_2002/tows_past_20020613_b.jhtml

Where do you rank on the doormat scale? Use this checklist to determine if you have the "disease to please"!

Martha's "Are You a Doormat?" Checklist
http://www2.oprah.com/tows/pastshows/tows_2002/tows_past_20020613_c.jhtml
Read the checklist as I did.
I will answer that i felt was me.

Martha has put together a checklist for you to determine where you rank on the "doormat" scale. Do the following statements pertain to you? Answer true or false.

I lie about my feelings if the truth might upset someone.
I want people to sense it when I've hit my limit, without my having to say anything.
I go blank when asked what I want, like, or think. ..........ME
My "to do" list includes things I don't have to do, and things I don't want to do.
I eat, cry, smoke, or drink when I'm angry. .......ME
I sometimes feel quite drained; I explode at my loved ones and then feel terrible about it....ME
I feel panicky about the thought of someone disliking or disapproving of me.>>ME
I feel virtuous when I override my own needs or wishes to please others. >>>Maybe
I feel resentful while doing things for other people.
I complain about other people's needs and demands when they aren't present.

If you answered true to one of these statements, you need to work on that particular action and reaction.
If you answered true to four or more of these statements, you are definitely a "doormat." You need to work on saying "No"! Take Martha's advice.
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Looks Like i need to act on what i had been thinking all this time.
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Just Say No: Advice from Dr. Martha Beck
http://www2.oprah.com/tows/pastshows/tows_2002/tows_past_20020613_b.jhtml
Text quoted from the above link,

Dr. Martha Beck says that every woman in the country is socialized to act like a doormat.
It doesn't have to be that way! Martha says that there is a way to learn to say "No," and that even the biggest "doormat" can change her ways.

Here's her advice—a cure for the disease to please.
Find Time for Yourself.
Schedule time away from your job, your partner and your children.
Use this opportunity to tune in to what you want and need.
Don't feel that you're being selfish; you have a responsibility to yourself to take care of your needs.
Buy Time.The next time you're asked to do something, don't answer right away.
Say, "Let me think about it," or "I have to take care of something right now.
I'll call you back and let you know."
This will give you time to evaluate the situation and decide if it's something you truly want to do. Practice Saying "No.
"For many women, saying "No" doesn't come naturally. But practice makes perfect, so start now!
In choosing your responses, remember the K.I.S.S. principle: Keep It Short and Simple.
You can try it in the mirror, or even walk around the house saying it.
Get used to hearing yourself say the word, and then you'll be ready to use it with other people!

The above text, I need to not be so worried about hurting my so called friends feelings and tell them that I know they are lieing to me and I dont need friends who treat me like trash,Real True friends dont lie and hurt you.
I am going to try and not back away from telling it like it is.

For Your HealthDr. Nancy Snyderman once suffered from the "disease to please" and explains how it can actually kill you.

http://www2.oprah.com/tows/pastshows/tows_2002/tows_past_20020613_d.jhtml

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The following text is from the above link.
And most of all this text floored me as this is me to the Tee,
You see because of all the stress caused by these liars,thieves who inflicted so much pain and abuse on me, I had to have 2 surgeries to be diagnosed for the below illnesses and not to mention the many nervous breakdowns I encounted.
See my entires subject Diverticulits and Stomach Tumor
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Dr. Nancy Snyderman, medical correspondent for Good Morning America, once suffered from the need to please—until she realized her health was in danger.
Having the courage to say "No" is a commitment to your health and will likely save your life.
It's Bad for Your Body
The emotional build-up of not being able to say "No" increase your stress hormones, such as adrenaline.
Your heart can beat faster than normal.
Your blood pressure will rise and blood vessels narrow, eventually becoming a problematic condition.
Dr. Snyderman says these conditions "increases your risk of heart attack, stroke, cancer—all the things that can put you in an early grave.

"The "Stew and Chew" Theory"In the old days, when we were primal and chased by wild animals, there was a fight or flight syndrome," Dr. Snyderman says. "You stood and fought, or you ran away.
Those stress hormones allowed you to escape danger. We don't do that anymore. We sit at our desks doing very sedentary things, and as we give too much of ourselves, we sit there and we fret and worry.
We reach for potato chips and everything unhealthy. We stew and we chew, and we don't feel good about ourselves." Saying "Yes" to You
If you think you're stressed, take time for your physical self! Go run up and down a few flights of stairs or take a quick walk. Dr. Snyderman says, "It will help release those primal hormones that are always in your body and make you feel better about yourself!"

Evaluate the relationships in your life. Dr. Snyderman asks: Are you at the service of people that are only "takers" and give you nothing back? "One day, you'll wonder why you're all spent, because you have nothing left!"
Make it your responsibility to put yourself first sometimes. "That's not selfish, that's self-preservation," Dr. Snyderman says. "You'll have more to give people when you want to. When you have nothing left for yourself, and you have anger, you'll have that stress."
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You see the fact that people can hang up the phone when you need to speak to them about there lies or when your online they block you.
They acuse you of untrue facts without even blinking an eye about hurting you, and if your innocent like has been with me ,they just dont care,that you did speak the truth and the ones that did in actual lie got away with it.
I would love to have all of them face to face just like what is being done in some court systems.
I would tell them exactly how I feel and I mean a good ole aussie tongue lashing as they so deserve and more.

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Then i looked at another link
http://www.angriesout.com/doormat.htm

The Doormat Syndrome: Learning About the Correct Use of Power

Please read what i did,

"I want to love your without clutching. Appreciate you without judging. Join you without demanding. Love your without guilt. Criticize you without blaming. And help you without insulting. If I can have the same from you, then we can truly meet each other.'--Virginia Satir
How is it that some people get the worst of every interaction, consistently confuse his or her own best interests with the inters of others? Counselor and therapists in the co-dependency field can certainly recognize the pattern in their clients, (if not in themselves) --the one in which a seemingly well-intentioned person is walked on, dumped on, ripped off--Doormat stuff!

Being a Doormat is never easy. But it can be especially disillusioning to have a working knowledge of co-dependent and addictive relationships, to have read the books and attended the workshops, and still wake up with mud on you face.

Perhaps the Gestalt psychology folks have a point. They say that often it's not enough just to know something. We human beings have to feel something and experience it on a deep, deep level before we are shook up enough to really get the message of change. It is said the longest journey in the world is the twelve-inch journey between your head and your heart!

So here is a fresh outlook on Doormat behavior. The old, Brand X definition of co-dependency was based on the medical model, the disease model and the pathology model. Not so here. My approach is based on the wholeness model developed from the theories of Virginia Satir and Carl Jung. This approach is the mature version for the discriminating viewers who want to feel good about themselves while learning to feel good about themselves.

Perhaps Doormat behavior really signifies a misplaced trust in power in all of its forms--power over the self and others, power of others to help us in some way. There is an ancient South American legend that tells of the time when the gods created the earth. They looked for a place to hide power because they realized it was a possibly dangerous force that might be found and used in a destructive fashion. The gods considered the top of the mountain and the bottom of the sea, but ruled these out because power was too dangerous to hide in one place. So the gods decided to divide the power up and place it in the hearts of men, women and children.
All human beings have a drive for power, it is the essence of survival. Power drives start in infancy and continue though out life. Derived from the Latin, potre--which means to be able--power is morally neutral. Power can be used for good or ill purposes.

Power comes in two basic forms: Coercion, or verbal or physical threat, or Persuasion, which requires acceptance of the person going along with some authority. This acceptance is based on the previous social conditioning of the person being approached with a power demand or request.

Some types of control are adaptive in that they strengthen self worth. Having an internal sense of control results in individuals taking responsibility for the choices they make and what happens to them. According to the latest research, the more control a child is given over everyday life choices, the better. Both career and personal outlooks brighten in later life when the child learns to make decisions, learn from them and correct mistakes. But when childhood power drives are filtered through anxiety and fear, the result is social control and manipulation. This type of control robs people of self esteem.

The primary negative law of power as known by dysfunctional people and governments all over the world is Them that has it, tries to keep it. Remember the childhood game of King or Queen of the Hill? The object was to remain in charge through brute force. We were taught as youngsters that power was dualistic: 'If I have the power, then you don't,' or 'If you have the power, then I won't have any.' Power could not be shared. Putting the power in one person or in one camp creates a type of mind set that fosters anger, tension and competition.

In fact, it is hard to think of a greater waster of human potential for all parties concerned than the domination/submission model. This model has fostered destructive behavior, aggression and violence on the part of those in control. It has encouraged resentment, passive aggressive behavior and rebelliousness on the part of the submissive person who had to learn manipulation in order to survive. This old model has stifled the growth of both victim and victimizer as it precludes trust, affection and true intimacy.

Doormats have generally learned to give their power away or use it in a passive aggressive fashion. It is something they have learned growing up in a 'closed' family system. A closed system is one where energy is spent in trying to keep things from changing. In this kind of home environment, one or more members bent on maintaining the status quo, help keep the power structure off balance. Since communication often promotes change and change and threatens the status quo, closed family systems do things by unspoken agreement. Them that has the power keeps it. This arrangement allows dependence on alcohol, drugs, abuse or out of control sexual needs to flourish.

Closed systems prevent problem solving, personal growth and moving forward. The family motto becomes 'Don't rock the boat.' Individuals who grow up in closed systems do not get their early emotional and psychological needs met and often develop compulsive, dysfunctional behaviors as a result.

One of the most debilitating attitudes emerging from such an environment is a kind of moral masochism, described by psychoanalyst Ester Meneker. Moral masochism is an insufficient separation from the parent due to fear or loss and abandonment. Described this way, moral masochism should be distinguished from sexual masochism which is an unconscious need for punishment. Moral masochism is an adaptive defense mechanism to over come the child's fear of abandonment. Modern day feminists writers describe moral masochism as a dependency issue. It is inevitable in human beings because of the long emotional and physical dependence of the child on the family. Dependency becomes increasing worse in children who have harsh, domineering parents.

Unfortunately, when the child grows up, there are more than enough domineering, intimidating types to play 'parent.' In The Fire From Within, Carlos Castaneda calls people who use adversive control Petty tyrants. Adversive control includes power trips such as yelling, glaring, sighing, blaming and pouting to keep family members under control. A petty tyrant is someone who bullies, torments or otherwise tries to oppress you.

There are some great examples in literature and in the movies of strong people standing up to petty tyrants. Jesus Christ before Pilate, Sir Thomas Moore before King Henry VIII, Joan of Arch before the king of France, and Mr. Roberts before the ship's captain in the movie, Mr. Roberts. In each case, the hero stood firm, calm and collected in the face of persecution.

Castaneda says it is lucky to stumble onto a petty tyrant because you can learn about control, self discipline and self respect in your dealings with him. There is a challenge in dealing with a seemingly impossible person in a position of power. He even recommends that you go out and look for one so that you can practice facing them with discipline and inner strength.

Virginia Satir described the 'Benevolent Dictator' who practices a friendlier, but equally tyrannical form of control. Domineering parents are examples of this type of oppressor. Benevolent dictators want to the be the Dear Abby of the Universe and offer solutions to everyone's problems but their own. They may even be correct in the assessment of how things are and how to correct them.

Benevolent dictators become so caught up in other people's problems that they unconsciously use others to avoid the personal responsibility of looking at their own actions. They can play the role of the expert who gives advice as a coping mechanism to avoid looking at their own unresolved needs for power. They smile and act nice to you, but the bottom line is-- 'You had better do as I say.' They treat others as problems to be solved and people to be controlled. They send a message that you are not grownup enough to figure out your problem on your own and take the consequences. Their bottom line is 'I KNOW WHAT IS BEST FOR YOU AND YOU HAD BETTER DO IT!'

The tactics of a benevolent dictator creates helplessness in people who agree to play their hidden power games. This fits neatly into the Doormat's perceived need to live in perpetual atonement for past, present and future sins. Doormats turn their own personal power over to others. They communicate statements like, 'Whatever you want is okay. It's all right with me. You decide for me. I'll go along with whatever you want.' They ask permission for things that other people just take for granted and go ahead and do. 'Could I have a hamburger?' when ordering food from a waitress is an example of co-dependent talk. Say what you want straight out instead of asking permission when it is appropriate.

Doormats often have an excess of apologizing for small discomforts. Those who are around Doormats often recognize their submissiveness and begin to take control of the situation. It's as if Doormats wear a T-shirt saying 'Available for demeaning!'

Giving in to others is consistent with closed family systems which teach manipulation and submissiveness rather than straight communication. Letting other walk over you is learned in households where adults have used becoming hurt as a technique of discipline and control: 'If you don't do what I say, I'll be hurt and disappointed in you.' Children from such systems learn to keep quiet and be the good kid.' They learn the basic rules of dysfunctional families: 'Don't talk, don't trust and don't feel.' When they transgress these family rules and speak out, they feel guilty. They go through life ruled by the guilt that they have internalized.

In an open system, energy is spent in promoting change, and there is a balance of power. There are checks in place to keep the power from going out of balance. Keeping everything fixed and stable is not as important as the growth and development of all individuals. The open system provides increased energy that transforms itself into something new. Individuals are treated with love, respect and concern. Family members are encouraged to be productive and grow.
The good new is that one can always cash in one's Doormat status in exchange for self-respect. But this requires letting go. If the attachment is to an addicted partner, letting go may mean allowing the other person to hit bottom and seek professional help. Negative energy from abusive relationships must be released in order to allow the power of the other person and to unfold.

The scriptures of all religious traditions tell us that we are to be of a loving and open heart. We are our brothers' keepers, but we can learn to do that in ways that do not cripple them. A keeper in the old sense of the word meant a jailer, custodian or warden. We can truly become our brothers' keeper by keeping their spirit intact. We can give other people the tools they need to help themselves. Of course, it also means releasing one's own over zealous need to heal. And putting the Benevolent Tyrant to rest in ourselves.

When you learn to be primarily accountable to yourself, the stage is set for other people to have more choices. They may choose to accept responsibility and take care of themselves, or they may find someone else to take care of them. Relationships will certainly change and there are no formulas to predict which way they will go. But you can be mindful of your own control issues.
As the ex-Doormat moves from a model of enabling to a model of empowering, great gifts begin to reveal themselves. The greatest gift we can give ourself and others is our own well being. Another gift is to allow the person to be him or herself even with all their shortcomings. A third gift is getting a balance of power in the relationship and learning and using the healthy skills of open systems. When we get a clear understanding of the misuse of power in relationships, we can work to clean up our system.

I hope the above text helps you as it did me.
So now you know why I started this blog, and I guarantee there will be many that turn my words against me.
Thank you for taking the time to read
Take care
Heart Of Hush

Writing My First Journal

2007-03-22T16:58:00.000+11:00

Hello and welcome to my first page of Heart Of Hush's Writings,Reflections,Observations & Real Life Experiences.

This is my writings,my reflections,my observations and most of all true real life experiences with complete honesty in what i will be writing.

My life experiences in the real world, my life experience on the Internet in a chat room world as we now have in today's society.

My achievements & accomplishments, My Dreams, My Hopes, My Wishes, My Needs, My Wants, & My Prayers.

I have read on the Internet that Journal writing is suppose to be good for the heart and soul, it is suppose to help us with our emotions and feelings, letting go of our pain and hurt that is inflicted by uncaring human beings.

So here i sit with the attempt of helping myself to heal.
And maybe what i write will help others.
If I can or do help another then my writing has served its purpose. "Pay It Forward"
My writings are not intended to hurt or inflict on those that have caused me pain.
Yes i am very hurt and saddened by what my suppose to be family and friends did and have done to me in the past.

I will be writing of my happy times and my very unhappy times, but you know something, everything i will be writing is the absolute honest truth from within my heart and soul.

If people don't like what i write then don't read it.
If you don't like it being told how it is then i suggest you better leave.
If you don't someone that tells the truth..well you know
Because if there is one thing i have learnt is that people cant stand the truth.

I found these links that may give you some idea of why I started writing

http://www.journalkeeping.org/

http://www.und.nodak.edu/instruct/weinstei/writejournal.htm

Please smile and be happy as best you can.
Hugssssssssss Lu aka Heart Of Hush